chapter 18

¶¶¶ Tiana ¶¶¶

'Been over the world

Been over the stars

Checking for who I am

Deleting all the scars

Of my bitter past

Looking for the person

They once called Percy Jackson

I know that for a reason

I lost me in spring season

Oh where, am I hiding at?

Oh, oh, oh...

Sitting under the stars

Wondering, where we are

Just you and me, oh, oh, oh

Mm...,' I just sang what was in my head. Where am I? Grooming a mucky horse outside the barn. Ever since Killian ran off without me two weeks ago, I never saw him again. I saw Lucian from a distant but never close. I felt dumped so I focused on learning how to sing from Rina, dance from Holly and cook from Mommy Renée. I spent my time working, mostly with Giselle. We spent most of our nights having sleepovers; braiding our hairs, singing, talking about how past, families and any random things that came into our heads. Holly joined us few times and it was great. I never stopped missing the big wolf, but they unknowingly helped me get over it and it was like I never met him.

It was strange, even my insistence voice didn't care if they both exist. I was tired of the mate bond that I seemed very good at ignoring.

'Wow, wow, somebody have been leaning into civilisation,' I turned my head to look at her, Lucian's new female. I actually forgot to mention that he found another female to warm his bed and she never let me be because she hates me and smelt Lucian on me when I returned that day. I would have died of jealousy if I didn't have his coat to hug and cry on when no one was around. Averting my eyes back to the horse, I continued pouring water on her body.

No one still knew I could talk, I never spoke in front of anyone except the girls, Mommy Renée, Riley and Rick. I barely spoke to Becca, she didn't like me anyways. Little wolves were already getting use to me, all the humans loved me while the rest wolves just chose to pretend like I don't exist; like I was a normal slave. Only few females who had their eyes on Lucian never let me be but none attacked me.

'How are you doing slave?' I ignored her. 'Such a disable filth, can't even talk,' ignoring.

Let's talk about her legs... Lona said jestingly... So thin, miserably scrawny and bent. If I had those legs, I would nickname myself "Quail legs."

Quail legs? What happened to K legs?... I asked laughingly. We both laughed, I let a giggle out.

'And why are you giggling?' She scoffed. I smirked at her and returned to my washing. Knowing she was wasting her time, she huffed and puffed away.

Typical...

Witch... I completed. We laughed again.

When I was done, I returned to Mommy Renée who gave me the shocking news. I had been transferred to Lucian's quarters as a personal slave. It meant I was going to live close to Lucian, wear proper clothing and have a whole room to myself, my own bathroom. I was so excited, very very.

'I'm so happy for you tina!' Rina shouted for the umpteenth time, hugging me as she jumped. I was about to leave.

I'm so happy... Lona said with simulated enthusiasm.

'I'm happy for me too, I get to have a proper bed.'

You're walking into a trap... Lona said ominously.

'Yeah, which is a good thing as I'm being transferred to become the personal slave of one of the oldest wolf.' Giselle said grinningly.

'You two are abandoning me here,' Holly whined.

'Us,' Rina corrected.

'You have the gamma, you barely sleep here,' Holly said poutingly.

'You'll see me at day then,' Rina and I said simultaneously. We talked more before I was called on. Mommy Renée took me into the main manor, you should have seen the stares.

'This is your room, just opposite the Alpha's. Those three bells will ring whenever he needs you, be there quickly. You will handle his bath, clothes, everything concerning him. When he bathes – if he wishes – you must stand there and watch him, do exactly as he says...'

'Exactly?' I squeaked.

'Exactly,' she repeated.

'Humph,' I grunted. She finished showing me around, how to use the things in my room and then my new wardrobe. It felt nice. When she left, I quickly soaked myself and enjoyed my alone time in my beautiful bathroom. I changed into a loose shorts and tank top, wore a panda slippers to walk around. I jumped on my bed, about to sleep off when the bell ran. 'Urgh,' I groaned irritably. I stood up, muttering in my language and wore my slippers. I sauntered out of my room to his, didn't bother knocking, just walked in.

Lucian stood by his window, looking down at something. The sunset reflected on him, making his odd hair glow at it touch and shimmering his skin. I was once again reminded of how much of a demigod he is, how gorgeous my mate was.

Ewww... Lona said with disgust. I chuckled and cleared my throat, tapping my foot to make my already known presence, known.

'Good evening alpha,' I said respectfully.

'Uhm,' he looked over his shoulder, flashing me a mischievous smile. 'Welcome Tiana, hope you enjoyed your two weeks of freedom because the second stage of your torture is about to begin.'

I scoffed and folded my arms. 'You can't hurt me, remember? Have you forgotten my stay away or I kill myself threat?'

'I haven't,' he said with a smirk. I closed the light moss green curtains and turned around, pushing his back into the window as he leaned on it. 'I remember your threat so well, I'll be making a threat of my own,' he smirked evilly, putting his thumbs into his front pockets. 'I meant a promise, not threat.' My heart started thumping aggressively, agitation taking over my compose state.

'Wh...wh...wh...wh...at promise?' I stammered fearfully.

'I promise to end the lives of your three friends if you dare hurt yourself, you die, they die as well.'

'You can't do that!' I shouted helplessly.

Pretty sure he can.

Shut up Halona!

'I can, and I will,' he removed his thumbs from his pockets and folded his hands. 'So you better think before you act. Kill yourself, and they die because of you, can you live with that?' I sank my teeth into my bottom lip with anger. I could feel the metallic taste of my blood flowing into my mouth, I didn't care. He rubbed his thumb on his lip, feeling the pain slightly. 'You are daring me Tiana,' he growled. 'One mind link and they are dead.'

They don't deserve it Tiana, just obey. Also, I don't want to die.

'Fine, I won't kill myself but I hate you, I hate everything about you...'

'Including your darling rock,' he said sardonically.

How could Killian let him do this to me!

Told you he only did it so you'll eat and not die, they are both selfish pricks... Lona scoffed. She did say so few days ago but not that day!... I wasn't sure.

Just shut up!

I wiped my tears off, still sobbing. 'You are both the same, selfish and wicked,' my voice came out broken, I hate that. Killian smiled with satisfaction, he wanted me to say I hate Killian, huh? 'But even if Killian is selfish and wicked, I will always prefer him to you.'

Take that Lucian

Lucian's eyes flashed with anger, furious at my statement. 'Get my bath ready,' he growled.

'Hope you are managing in there my rock, I know it's hard to live inside an asshole.' Where did I hear that curse from?

Me, duh.

Where did you hear it from?

You read, I save.

'Don't insult you pitiful slave!' He roared. 'Now run my bath!' I flinched, that was harsh.

Don't cry Tiana, you're strong.

Yes, I'm strong.

'Yes, Alpha,' I sneered. I stomped to the bathroom. I would have set the water temperature to extremely hot, but I thought against it. I had to battle with my eyes not to leak, mentally chanting words of encouragement to myself. When I was done, I took a look at myself in the mirror, my eyes were red and puffy.

This is his fault!... Lona roared angrily... I need to kill him! Both of them!

You know what you are, confuse and undecided.

What is that suppose to mean?... I was about to reply her when Lucian walked in with his new female giggling and laughing in his arms... No, no, no, no! He is not about to do what I think he is going to do?!

He is... Even my mental voice sounded pathetic.

She saw me and scoffed. 'What is she doing here?'

'She's my new personal slave,' Lucian said smirking slyly. 'She will be attending to us while we bathe,'

'You mean she's going to stand here and watch us go naughty,' she purred, kissing the bottom of his lip, her fingers playing with his hair.

'Yes, Mabel, she's going to be standing right...here.'

My lips trembled, my palms squeezing each others. My heart, something was wrong with it. The fire in my stomach and head was overwhelming, shockingly painful. I held my head down in pain, shame and anger. If this is the torture he is talking about, I want the beating back.