Grief

About to leave I hear a sob, I look back scared

when I see tears coming down your eyes

I approach her and see how deplorable she is, I feel anguish rushing through my heart as my vision starts to blur.

"Aqua"

I see her eyes moving as she seeks to find me

"Herran? where are you? why is everything dark? where is victor?"

"I am not-"

"VICTOR WHERE ARE YOU?"

amidst her desperate screams I felt bad for her considering telling him about his terrible fate

"Where is he herran?, he was fighting with the guy but if you're talking calmly we won, right?"

"Aqua.."

I see her trembling weakly as more and more tears fall from her face.

"I didn't... I didn't declare myself to him, I wanted to live with him so much I..."

She began to persuade as her voice became weaker and weaker

"you.... think that....

could he... love me?"

I remembered how he was clinging to her even without his arms, looking at me with desperate eyes before exploding.

tears started to fall from my eyes

'HAHAHAHA YOU ARE USELESS, LOOK AT ANOTHER IMPORTANT PERSON FOR YOU DYING'

I cast a withering glance in the direction of the figure taunting me when

"He loved you aqua... he always loved you, we all knew that..."

Looking shocked, she calmed down for a while, probably in mourning.

"WHY WEREN'T YOU HERE HERRAN?"

She started to scream

"You could have helped us! If you were here we would... he would be alive"

I spoke quietly, my weakness and weakness speaking louder making me reflect on how much I am to blame

"I'm sorry... forgive me"

Even without her seeing, I looked around, under new eyes, feeling a pang of guilt at each bloody body on the ground, each burning house, rooting all these visions in my memory.

When aqua takes me out of my misery

"I... I'm scared, everything is getting dark, I..."

She slowed down, needing more air than before,

"I don't want to die for nothing, I had so many dreams, I wanted to help all the children in the village, show them the world you told me, I..."

Hearing your voice as I look around silent tears coming down from both my eyes as I blame myself

'I could have avoided this, I had the chance, the visions and all my training'

a vision overlapped mine as I saw all these bodies on the ground, at the same time a vision from the past came to me, showing me all these same people strolling on a happy day, while my companions and I went to train

Feeling an emptiness in my heart I think again

'Maybe I'm cursed'

"Herran, please live, for all of us, be strong, and..."

talking between breaths

Her eyebrow quivers as she frowns, using one of her last efforts to show her feelings.

"Kill them."

Surprised, I took my eyes off the sight that tortured me and looked at her face.

Seeming to feel my gaze, she moved her eyeball towards me.

"Avenge us... You owe us this"

when she fell on her side and I felt her stop breathing

After a while of crying, I continued my search for survivors or attackers when I saw a solitary figure kneeling in front of the statue of the "God" that defends the village.

I feel the bridge sway as I run across when the figure turns his face to me and I see it, his forehead is bleeding, my eyes widen as I realize who it is

"Grandfather?"

He looked at me with disgust while I felt almost physical pain in my emotions

I felt bad that my eye started to fog up with joy that he was alive

"Are you g-"

"HOW DARE YOU! HOW CAN YOU LIVE IF EVERYONE DIED!"

I cringed at his aura as I felt all his wrath directed at me

"YOU KNEW, YOU HAD THE VISIONS, WE TRAIN AND FEED YOU"

He spoke while walking, I felt really bad, it was as if this whole vision of family was something false, that they gave just because they expected something from me

"I tried..."

I spoke quietly, but with the silence without their screams and the flames finishing burning the houses, you could hear me.

"I BELIEVED IN YOU, THAT YOU WOULD BE OUR SAVIOR, I BELIEVED IN MY GOD, BUT WHAT DID IT LEAD TO ME? HUH? EVERYONE DIED, MY FAMILY, MY MEN AND IRONICALLY YOU WHO WAS MY SAVIOR ARE ALIVE HAHAHAHAHA I MUST BE DREAMING"

I felt guilty for being alive

"I... "

I felt the bridge shake as I lost my footing, I grabbed the other side of the hanging wood and looked up desperately while the old man, who I loved like a father, who took care of me so much, who defended me, looked at me with cold eyes

"I'm so sorry! Please help me"

I started begging for forgiveness as I tried to crawl up

he looked at me with cold eyes as he said

"Die Outsider"

I felt my heart sink at those words as I fell towards the forest

Ironically in the same place where I killed the first person

I felt my heart race as I looked for ways to survive this but I didn't have any, I could see the future but what would be the point?

What else could I create my spear for? if they are going to cut down the trees and kill me the same way,

'Why live... with so many bodies at my feet...'

I started to wallow in guilt

'It's my fault... I killed them so it's only fair for me'

I landed at the top of a forest and bounced off another nearby tree, my consciousness going back and forth as I bounced off the trees.

when everything went dark