chapter 26

ALLAN'S POV

Both Akino and I remained silent in the bathtub. We're both sitting in the tub with only the towels covering our private parts. Our faces are completely red and we can't look into each other's eyes.

This silence has already lasted a minute.

Not taking this suffocating silence any longer, I decided to speak to break this silence.

"So Akino... You... Is something bothering you?" I asked.

I've known Akino for a long time, she wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for something serious.

Akino was silent for 10 seconds.

"Allan-kun what do you... what do you think of me?" Akino asked me.

I'm silent for a few seconds.

What do I think of Akino?

The answer is obvious.

I like Akino. I love Akino.

In all the time I've been close to Akino, there's no way I can't feel anything for her.

All those months she stayed at our house only made me like her even more.

When I learned about her past, her sorrows and her dreams of reuniting her family again, it only made me realize even more how I feel about Akino.

In my heart I've always wanted to tell her that I like her, that I want her to be my girlfriend, but whenever I try to say that, the words won't come out of my mouth.

Even though I'm sure Akino likes me, I'm still unsure. What if I confess to her and she rejects me? Just thinking about it is enough to put pain in my heart and because of that I'm not able to tell Akino my true feelings.

After all, there's a reason Akino doesn't accept my confession.

Akino isn't the only one I love. I also love Serenity and I have very mixed feelings about Tamamo.

It's been 10 months since I summoned Serenity, in this 10 months Serenity has always stayed close to me and during that time, and during those months I've also gone through a phenomenon known as the dream cycle.

The dream cycle is a mental phenomenon that happens between masters and servants, masters who have a contract with a servant may end up seeing the memories of the servants they made the pact with. Servants usually do not need to sleep but can also see their master's past while sleeping because of the mental connection between the two.

The first time I saw Serenity's memories it came as a shock to me.

I finally understood why she is so attached to me.

In the memories I saw in my dream I could see Serenity's past from when she was alive.

Serenity was born and raised in a cult of assassins in the Middle East. During her childhood she underwent hard training to become a perfect assassin for the cult, during this time she had all sorts of poison put into her body until eventually his body became her own, her nails, her skin and even her own. even their bodily fluids were poison.

Serenity's assassination targets were usually corrupt nobles or military generals from the region, both cases would often kill or devastate the lives of innocent civilians just for fun.

The assassin cult followed the thought of eliminating evil to protect good. They murdered those who had done many atrocities against the innocent.

Serenity's murders are always accomplished with a bit of seduction and venom, she approaches her targets and makes them let their guard down and when they touch Serenity's skin they die from her venom.

Serenity kept murdering her targets one after another, she even became the leader of the cult, but eventually she despaired. Due to the fact that her entire body was poisoned and that the slightest touch could kill anyone she felt alone and desolate as anyone who touched her died with a simple touch, for several years she never knew the warmth of other people doing it. make her want to know what it's like, but unfortunately that never came true.

The first time I woke up from the dream cycle, the first thing I did was hug Serenity who was lying next to me and tell her "it's okay, you're not alone anymore." I don't know what expression she had at that moment because of the hug but I could feel some tears.

Over the months the dream cycles happened at least once a week.

In these 10 months that I met Serenity, I can say that I love Serenity. I want her to live a happy life and not feel alone anymore.

I want to make Serenity happy.

In my heart I am sure that I love Akino and Serenity, of that I have no doubt.

But in relation to Tamamo it is difficult to describe.

My emotions towards Tamamo are a complete mess. I know I love her but I can't understand why I love her.

The more I think about it the less I can understand.

During the time in Kyoto when I cured her of the poison, I'm sure that was the first time I saw her in my entire life. But then why did I feel like I was finally reunited with her?

When Tamamo calls me husband I always feel a happiness and a mysterious sense of familiarity that I can't understand where it comes from.

My feelings towards Tamamo are very mixed, I know I love her but I don't know why I feel this way about her.

Akino, Serenity and Tamamo.

Am I a scoundrel for falling in love with three girls at the same time?

This whole time I never mentioned it in the girl romance story because I knew the moment I brought it up I would be forced to make a decision. A decision that would be me having to choose one of the three.

Honestly I was trying my best to avoid this possible situation.

Choosing just one of them resulting in heartbreaking pain for the others is something I absolutely do not want.

"What should I say? What should I say to Akino?" I thought as I tried to look for an answer to Akino's question.

While I was thinking about what to say to Akino, Akino spoke.

"You know Allan-kun... I had talked to Clarisse-san before you arrived..." Akino spoke.

"And during the conversation Clarisse-san made me realize several things that I hadn't seen before..." Akino said as she approached me in the bathtub, after Akino got to my side she took off the towel that was covering her body and then she just hugged my right arm.

My mouth dropped open at this sudden movement. Never would I expect such an action from Akino soon.

But I have to say that Akino's boobs feel amazing. Even though this isn't the first time I've felt the touch of breasts I must say it's a wonderful feeling.

"No no no... I can't just think about myself. I need to think about Akino too." I thought trying to have a clear mind and focus my attention on what's important.

I look at Akino and see that she's completely red in the face and her mind will probably end up overheating if I didn't say anything.

"Akino I..." I tried to speak but was interrupted by Akino.

Akino spoke something of great magnitude.

"Allan-kun I like you."