"For a long time I have not bet on my place in anyone's heart, protecting myself from the trouble of expectations and preserving my heart from disappointments after love, I will not bear the idea of thinking that I am a special person in anyone's life Then I discover that I am a transient person who can be bypassed and left easily.
For a long time now I have avoided being intimate with people.
I tell myself
" I am a person who can easily be abandoned and replaced, a passing person in everyone's life, not a dream for anyone, and always vulnerable to abandonment and forgetting..
I convince myself of this cruel idea in spite of myself..
To protect what is left of me, I have been hurt so much by fanaticism and suspicion."
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" So are you done writing this book full of bullshit? Go back to your work now.." He said angrily
"Okay, Mister Miller Dale."
War is the path to the unknown
Chapter Thirty Five : Who Are You?
They both looked at each other and nodded as if they agreed on something.
What they agreed upon was to jump over this cliff. There is a greater chance of survival, even if they both die. Dying while jumping is much more honorable than dying when you are eaten by a lowly snake.
But at that moment, they heard a rustle from the trees next to them, as if another creature was coming to them... The sound started getting closer and closer..
The sound is like someone cutting leaves from trees.
But what was unexpected... Some blades suddenly appeared and then disappeared...
Then they cut that snake in the blink of an eye without realizing it and found that that snake became sushi..
" What is this for God's sake?" The two said, not believing it
But then Bush and Butlin swallowed their saliva. They did not feel safe yet. After they found that snake, they thought it was a spiritual beast stronger than it, and they did not feel safe yet.
Then the shadow of a man came out. They knew that he was human or that he was one of the elves.
That man who came out of the trees suddenly started getting closer and closer... He got closer after he cut off all the tree leaves that were standing in his way..
Under the moonlight, his face began to look more and more clear as he got closer. His ears were short. The two knew that he was human immediately.
Brown-black hair, eyes that shine under the moonlight, he wears an earring in his left ear, his hands are full of some blood As if he killed many animals on his way, his clothes were black .. his shirt .. his pants .. even the jacket ..
As if he had prepared for that, because the color of blood appears with great difficulty in clothes, and it is also good at concealment at night, so it was advised to wear black clothes when hunting. .. Then he got closer until he reached a distance of about 5 meters between them
"Who are you?" The two said with fear.. They feel a very great threat.. Imagine someone killing a two-meter snake with his bare hands You couldn't even see what was going on. Just a big snake was standing in front of you.. Then Boom. That snake became sushi ready to eat.
That man moved closer and said with all the seriousness on his face
"I am not your father"
Silence appeared after that for two minutes, neither of the two could speak a word, then the silence was broken
" .. what ? He said the two of them suddenly and their eyes suddenly began to shine as if they were about to cry...
They didn't say anything and then they found this man who started laughing very loudly... Ha ha
The laughter lasted for about five minutes.. None of them could ask him why he was laughing.. This is of course because they saw how this man had killed this huge snake a while ago.
" This.. This is one of the best pranks I have ever pulled in my entire life.. Ha-ha." That man said in a very happy voice
"Did you say prank?" The two said, still in shock at what was going on
" Ha ha.. you should really see what you look like.. that's so laughable ha ha" He was still laughing
"Sorry, but can you please stop laughing and explain to us what's going on?" Bush said, nervously
This man finished his last laugh before changing his facial expression..
"Hm.. Alright, let's go back to our main topic.. You're Bush and Butlin right?" That man said very seriously
But this man's words made these two children more confused.. How did this man know their real name?
"Well, that's true, but how do you know that?" Butlin replied ..
Butlin had more courage than Bush. You will see that if you see them in life or death situations.. But in the end, the two are just losers cowards.
" You are from Laurea Private School, right? said that man
"Yes, that's right," Bush and Butlin said without a second thought
" Well, as far as I know, you two must have hunted a spirit animal by now, right? The man said, getting closer and closer to them
"Yeah.. but what do you have to do with it?" Butlin asked
" But in reality, none of us could catch a single spirit animal," Bush said immediately afterwards
Allow me to introduce myself to you children... My name is Derek and I'm your new teacher," said the man with a very charismatic calm
"Oh? What?"
.....
Meanwhile, after Caiden and Hermes went down to the fifth floor underground, they sat down to talk
"I want to tell you about a guy named Derek," said Hermes
"Derek, who is this? "Kaiden asked
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In my imagination, the world was easier and everything was going smoothly, if I didn't hurt anyone, I wouldn't be hurt, and if I made an effort to reach something, I would definitely reach it, and if I smiled at a passerby, life would smile at me.
Whenever I wished good for others, I got a lot of it, and when my eyes were opened to reality, I saw the world as a mass of complexities that I had to solve first, and harm as a price we pay daily for our mere presence in this life, whether psychologically or physically.
And I made a lot of efforts, but I did not reach all that I made an effort for, and the passers-by have faces filled with despair that cannot be erased by a smile. And the good that I wished for others, I got it, but others saw it as too much for me and wished it would disappear from me.
I wish the world was simply what I saw in my imagination and I wish I could escape from it to live in my imagination forever.
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