Love Sucks

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I couldn't help it, I became confused about what I was gonna say I was really nervous.

A bad feeling kept telling me I missed him and cared about him but I had to convince myself that it was just a natural feeling of care.

After all, Hayden is my boss and there is no other feeling attached, I soliloquized.

Hayden is just my boss right...right.....I mumbled softly and replied his mail with a greeting emoji so it wouldn't look like I was nervous or like I really cared. I put my phone down slowly but couldn't stop staring at the screen every minute to see if he replied. This time around I felt anxious.

After monitoring the screen for a while and still didn't see any reply, I lost all hope and convinced myself never to message him again.

I decided to finish some undone tasks from home cause I felt useless. It's been really long since I had such a sex session in my life most especially when I got dumped by Dylan, foolish me. I really preferred night stands than having a man who will hurt you and your integrity deeply and badly.

Loving someone is a great sin, I actually feel better after being used badly, I laughed hysterically to myself .

I was just a sex toy after all, use and dump. "LOVE SUCKS", I laughed loudly and deeped my nails into my hair which made me feel a glimpse of pain.

I decided to make myself comfortable by taking some whiskey which was in my housee bar. In no time, I got to the bar and poured myself a glass of whiskey. I became less weary till I poured three glasses of whiskey into my throat. I felt the burn in my throat which made my head feel blank, tears oozed from my eyes pretty fast. My head was getting blank and my eyelids were getting heavier, I closed them slowly and gave up on finishing the whole bottle of the whiskey.

The only thing I knew was that I needed someone in my life and not just anyone, I needed a man, "A MAN LIKE HAYDEN", I thought before I slept fully.

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