Chapter 10

Father walked around the desk and angrily dropped into the chair releasing a sigh of frustration. This man just shot someone like it was nothing, like he didn't just take a life. He was able to take life just as easy as it was to open a book. This man that claimed to be my father was cold and loveless, the father I remembered was warm and full of life. He taught me that every life was precious and to always treat others with compassion. My body stiffened as I stared at James's lifeless body laying on the cold black marble floor, His blood slowly poured from his body towards my feet. I watched as his blood was absorbed into my white socks, the feeling of his blood touching my skin made me feel sick. I was disgusted with the entire situation; I didn't know how I was going to get out of this. One wrong move and I could be lifeless on this cold floor beside James. I was terrified and unable to speak or move while everyone around me was functioning as if this was an everyday thing. Kwan walked to the door speaking to 2 other men and returned to his father's side by the desk while Jin kneeled beside me and removed my blood-soaked sock and lifted my feet turning me back onto the couch. Jin's very touch on my skin made me feel nauseous seeing that he didn't even flinch at the idea of touching a dead man's blood. My throat felt tight, and I felt like crying, I suddenly felt this surge of pain in my stomach and turned to my left and vomited everywhere. My throat felt like it was on fire, and I couldn't breathe, my heart was racing, and my chest felt tight. My mind was racing through thoughts 100MPH as I felt like I was dying. I began to feel lightheaded as if I might pass out, Was I going to die here in this dark depressing office with people I don't even know claiming to be my family? I'm not ready to die yet, no one has had the chance to love me yet, I haven't proven myself yet. There are so many things I still wanted to do and see, I couldn't die here, not yet!

My mind went silent, and I felt this burning sensation across my face. The only thing I could do was cry but the sound refused to produce from my mouth. The man who says he is my father just slapped me across the face and returned to his chair annoyed by my actions. I held my face and collected myself and just stayed quiet for I believed I would make things worse for myself by speaking. 2 men then entered the room with cleaning supplies and cleaned the floor while 2 other men entered as well to receive the body and remove it from the room. "I apologize for making such a mess, but as you can see, I don't appreciate being lied to" The boss said calmly, while I kept silent. I wanted nothing more than to go home, I hated my uncle and how he treated me, but I have never feared for my life as I am now. Father or not I simply knew I wanted nothing to do with him or my so-called siblings. Plus, I am sure Jun-myeon is looking for me, worried sick since I disappeared so suddenly. "I am sure you have a lot of questions, now would be your time to ask them" He said sounding annoyed by my silence. "Why am I here?" I managed to force it out of my mouth. "You are my son, I wished for your return for a long time now" He replied leaning forward with his elbows on the desk and hands over his mouth. "My father is dead" I mumbled under my breath. "Excuse me?" He said angerly walking towards me. "Nothing sir" I said quickly standing and trying to hop on one leg around the couch. Jin tried to step between the boss and I to try and calm him down, but his words fell on deaf ears and The boss then pushed the couch across the room with one arm making his way to me. Once I had my back against the wall, I had nowhere to go, plus even if I did make it out of the room I couldn't outrun them, I was trapped. The boss then grabbed me by the face and forced me to look him in the eye. "Repeat what you said boy" He said in a low strict tone. I started pushing at his chest trying to get him to release my face or at least back up, but he wouldn't budge. This man was built like a boulder, I am sure I am going to die here so what the fuck. "My Father is Dead" I yelled as I started to cry. "You could never be my father; he was kind and cared about other people. I know for sure my father wasn't a murder" I said stumbling and crying over my words. The boss then threw me to the side on the floor, I had hit my head on a nearby plant causing me to bleed. "You dare be disrespectful to me of all people? I brought you to our home and cared for you when you were unconscious, Yet you can say that to me after all these years apart?" The boss screamed at me across the room while Jin helped me up off the floor using a handkerchief to stop the bleeding on my head. "Throw him back to the hospital and see who cares for him now" He said staring out the window punching the wall. "Father We can't He is family" Jin Yelled sitting me in a wheelchair. Part of me felt relieved that I was leaving this god-awful place but part of me felt guilty for not at least hearing him out since he went through so much trouble just because of me. "I don't care I want him gone! We will see how long before he comes crawling back" He screamed throwing a knife he pulled from his desk at Jin, it missed by an inch. Nari yelled in fear as she watched the knife plunge into the wall behind Jin and I. "Jin its okay let's just go" I said quietly frightened by the man. "It will be okay I will be there for you; I won't abandon you" Jin whispered as we left the room.

The ride to the hospital was silent and awkward, Jin had turned on the radio to try and fix the silence. As we pulled up to the hospital, Jin grabbed a nearby wheelchair and helped me out the car. After the car pulled off Jin kneeled in front of me with a sad expression on his face. "I am so sorry that this has happened to you but know that I am always here for you, take my card and call me anytime you need anything. I'll come running" Jin said handing me his business card and giving me a long loving hug. I hugged him back and couldn't stop myself from crying as he released me. I don't know why I was crying when I had just said I wanted nothing to do with them. Jin wiped my tears and smiled at me before leaving me at the front door of the hospital, waving goodbye one last time as he jumped in the car. I watched them pull off as the hospital staff came to retrieve me from their front steps. Once I was admitted and the doctors were done questioning me and clearing me for visitors, I heard a commotion outside my door until it slammed open, and I saw a unkept worried Jun-myeon standing in the doorway. Neither of us could bring ourselves to speak so Jun-myeon just walked up to my bed and hugged me close ever so gently. I poured all my emotions into his hug crying uncontrollably holding on to him tightly. I was so happy that Jun-myeon came, he was worried and cared for me. The world was starting to make sense again, I never want to leave Jun-myeon side ever again.