Self blaming
Rui Fei was like a puppy with drooped ears and its tail between his legs. That's because when he woke up the next day he was met by Ji Yao's death glare much more intimidating than the death star.
He scratched his head wondering what warranted him that vicious look. It was when he glanced over at the cloth wrapped around Ji Yao neck that he recalled what happened the previous night. His heart shattered to pieces with his entire body going numb.
His eyes stung as he stretched out his trembling hand to touch him but he was so afraid to hurt him. The term blackhearted monster had been uttered once or twice whenever his father's henchmen came to throw food at him as though feeding a dog.
They might have said it to him but he didn't care because he never saw himself as one. But now.... after this incident that was the only word echoing in his mind. How could he do this to the person he likes? How could he hurt him like this?