I am the destroyer and killer of life

Alisha woke up at 11 pm. Rafi is still sleeping. Alisha woke up fresh and was preparing breakfast. The sleep in Rafi's eyes became more intense. Alisha was preparing food for Rafi with a cheerful heart and deep love. The impression of suffering has decreased in her mind. The tide of love is flowing. At work, she was thinking about the moments to get Rafi close.

Meanwhile, neither of the two is in the office today, the reception chair is lying empty. In this situation, the boss used another employee as a proxy. The boss became more and more worried. He waited for them.

Alisha woke me up and asked me to eat. I saw such joy in her that I thought she was my wedded wife. She was very happy. With sleep in my eyes I entered the bathroom to freshen up. After sitting down at the breakfast table, Alisha reminded me of the night's events.

Alisha - You said we will get married today. I informed the office about the matter and finished the marriage.

I was quietly eating breakfast. And thinking, what can be done. I need to come up with a new strategy but no ideas come to mind. I didn't know who to get help from. I told Alisha about the need for some time. While having breakfast I said to him "You will get what you want. But I have to give it time. We can stay together for a while if we want. If you don't mind. Then a good day is fixed, and the marriage can be done by informing everyone."

Alisha announced her decision to have me as her life partner permanently. I couldn't convince her at all. Finally decided to hurt her emotions. I hugged her and said, "I love you. When you need me, you will have me. I have asked you for some time. Please help me. We will get married very soon. But now no one in the office can be told about this. Talked to my friend. He will arrange everything. After telling my family about you, I have to convince them to get married.

Alisha - If your family doesn't agree, then won't you marry me? I love you. I did not meet your physical needs? I agree with everything you said. i need you and i want you.

I comforted her and said, ok. You are right. But you have to wait a few days. After a few days all problems will be solved. Now we will continue to work in the office as before. I will not tell anyone about this. I came to you, no need to tell anyone. Now we have to go to office. Later we will talk about it and fix everything. what do you say ?

Alisha - Okay. But I need you.

I didn't know what to do. But leaving all the thoughts aside, both of them left for the office after having breakfast. Alisha informed the boss about her illness. She was very ill, so could not come to the office, for the time being this explanation was given to the boss. And I told the boss as the reason for the delay, I do my work properly. But I have problem to do Alisha madam's work. I am not as skilled as her. So I find it very difficult to do her work. Thinking about Alisha madam's illness, I plan to visit her. But I didn't know her house. On the way to the office, met Alisha madam on the street. Then both of them came to the office together. Boss, I told Alisha madam about you, you were very worried about her.

Boss - OK. Now do your work carefully. Without you there are many problems in this branch. Original work by Rafi and Alisha. Alisha is a very good girl. She works diligently and is regular in the office. There may be physical problems. There is no retreat from Alisha's family side. So she does it by herself.

Alisha - Thanks boss! to appreciate.

Boss - Alisha you look different today. Quite cheerful and there is an impression of calm in the face. What was the matter?

Alisha - do not sit ! You know that I am like this, boss.

I couldn't understand how people can tell the news of their hearts by looking at their faces. The boss is talking like an accountant. I was a little embarrassed and concentrated on my work. The boss left. Alisha breathed a sigh of relief. Putting Alisha to work, I asked her for a few minutes. I have to go outside.

Alisha - ok go. I will be back soon. I don't like it when you're not around.

As I was going out, I thought I was going to be in danger. I don't like anything except Alisha. Her eyes, her lips, her body, turned me into a drunkard. My body needs and I have a kind of addiction to her body, wanting to go to her again and again. On the other hand, it is not possible for me to marry her. I can't do it due to my family and social considerations. My heart wants her because she is an innocent girl. She loves me from her heart. She has many hardships in her life. She wants some happiness from me. She agrees to give all the wealth in return.

She just wants me by her side as a lifelong companion. I don't know what to do. Thus my love and romance with Alisha continued for several days. I heard some talk about both of us among the other staff in the office. They understood the relationship between us, which was reflected in our behavior and speech.

Alisha already had a problem. When she is attentively engaged or concentrated in the work she does. Nothing else worked in her mind then. The thought of a task keeps playing in her mind until she starts and finishes it. She told me about this problem. But that was my training time. But I did not understand the importance and necessity of the word then. Even though my danger was so near, I did not pay much attention to these little things. I didn't feel the need to give anymore. But today I understand that her problem was the biggest problem. Because Alisha was focused on her love. And her attention will remain here until she succeeds in this task or finds me as her life partner. It is a difficult test for her to fix her mind on any other place or work. For her it is like declaring war on herself.

One day I decided to run away, leaving both my job and Alisha. Yes, I actually did. I hide myself in a faraway deserted town, where no one can find me, no family, no friends, no co-workers. I want to live a new identity, being unknown to everyone. My decision to run away was wrong. I had to go through a very bad time because of this mistake. Since I left the family, I could build a new life with Alisha. But instead of doing that I left everyone alone. I couldn't stay well. My immature brain couldn't have made a better decision.

As a result shocking news appeared in my life. Alisha became mentally ill without me. She has been looking for me a lot. Her body was always eager for my touch. Alisha did not go to any other man to get rid of that pain. At first he took sleeping pills but it didn't work. My absence makes her life miserable. Instead of me, she chose drugs as my replacement. Alisha started taking Yaba on the advice of a friend because sleeping pills didn't work. Her girlfriend told her that yaba calms the mind. At that time, Yaba tablets were available in the drug market.

Yaba is a type of narcotic tablet. It is basically a combination of methamphetamine and caffeine. Sometimes it is mixed with heroin. In most cases it is also used as an oral pill. However, yaba is consumed like heroin. Alisha consumes it as a wash. She placed Yaba tablets on aluminum foil and melted the tablets with heat from below. The smoke that came out of the melted hot tablets was passed through a tube into the body through the mouth. Thus it starts affecting the nervous system directly within moments.

There are three types of yaba available in the drug market. Most of the first type of yaba tablets are green or pink in color. It is also known as rose water. These types of yaba pills are considered high quality pills. Alisha is used to a pill called rose water. This pill has English W Y written on it. Alisha's girlfriend Ruksi says "If the Y is long and the color of the yaba is completely pink, it is best as yaba. But it should smell like a biscuit. The second type of yaba tablet, which is relatively cheap, is less addictive. The third type of tablet is cheaper and is known to us as adulterant. This pill named Chita is the lowest quality yaba pill. It has small markings on it so you buy carefully."

Alisha didn't know that taking the Yaba tablet temporarily increases arousal. It is known as aphrodisiac pill in the market. Alisha took yaba to forget me but it made her problem worse. The blood pressure in the body increased and the heart beat at an abnormal rate. As a result, sexual arousal was created in her and sleep was disturbed. She would stay awake for four to seven days straight. She often felt certain movements in her body and suffered from uneasy mental states. Because for her the side effects of Yaba were worse than heroin. So she has to consume yaba regularly. This causes convulsions and loss of appetite. Due to long-term intake of yaba in excess, various diseases including hyperthyroidism or high body temperature begin to develop in the body.

Alisha becomes so used to Yaba that she becomes depressed and indecisive due to its absence, begins to think of everyone as an enemy, has strange visions, and hears ghostly voices. In short, she suffered from hallucinations and schizophrenia.

Alisha lost me. I lost my child in her womb. I destroyed a fresh life. Alisha has gone mad today sacrificing all her love, happiness, love, present, future and unborn child. I don't even know where it is. I still look for her.