Born again

It has been raining since morning. One girl is drinking coffee and reading novel while listening to "forever rain". sometimes she looks outside to enjoy the rain falling. She likes rainy times because to her it is the perfect time to read romantic novels.

reading the synopsis made her sad because this novel resembles her a little,

that girl's name is Min Yoonji, who just reached 21 years old. She is still a student reading in university. everyone knows her in one word ''good for nothing''. She also introduces herself like this. One might wonder who the heck can introduce herself like this?? Maybe she is the first person who can do it.

Everyone knows she can do nothing except study. Because what everyone can see is to read her books only but she doesn't think of herself as a bookie. To everyone except study, all she can do is sleeping, eating, and being hype for certain a band locking herself in her own room.

The band is the only reason for her to being alive. the only inspiration....

Actually, no one knows about her life and she just acts like can't do anything. It is because she made a cocoon around her where no one could enter.

She is all alone who have no friends in this world.

In 21st century life who doesn't have a friend. Well, she did have some, but in past. They left her later. they betrayed her. She thought them as friends but they used her just for her money. She didn't know these. And later they spread many rumors about her.

They told everyone that she slept with many men and this is how she earns money it happened when she found their schemes and decided not to be their money tree.

As her family didn't support her but also helped her friends and she was all alone so she couldn't show any evidence except protesting by themselves. But who cares about truth or lie. all they care about is juicy news.

They edited her picture with some random fat old men whom she didn't even see before, actually, she didn't even touch any boys in her life. when she sees any couple she wants to get a boyfriend too. But because of having these types of personal issues, it is hard for her to approach girls let alone boys. moreover, she lost confidence when others started to mock her.

So she started to close herself. It doesn't matter being alone or not. As far she has internet and mobile and enough food money she doesn't need anything more.

to her being alone is ok. after all she has everything she wants.

But to be the truth, in her mind, she is a very lonely girl who really wanted to become friends with others in university but they think herself as a moody girl because she seems rich to them and sits in the corner, don't speak but read something. In front of her, they don't say anything but in her back, they call her slut, money girl, all credits go to the rumors.

she just acts like there is nothing and smiles back then someone says something without refuting back.

But most of the time, she goes to the department washroom alone and cries a lot. then return back as nothing happened which is unknown to the world.

It's not her fault but she is the sufferer. People think she is the happiest person who has everything and they also think she is the worst girl who doesn't deserve anything.

She finds those logic funnies but what can she do?? she has no one to lean on.

It is not like she doesn't have parents nor have any guardian or her family is poor. But she is from a rich family. her parent is heeeella rich. And she has the special privilege of being the second child out of three. the privilege is not getting any care, any support, any love except being cornered. sometimes she thought is she really their child or not. But their family do DNA tests on every child after birth so all she could do was accept them as parents.

She heard after her birth one Taoist said she will bring bad luck to her family. So they started to hate her. Sometimes she got locked up when they faced any problem. and most of the time they ignore her. they didn't even reveal her identity to others and she also restricted from revealing her identity. but yah, they provide her everything, like a bird who stays in the cage without love.

It is not understandable to her that in this 21st area who the h... believe this type of thingy. furthermore, all of them are educated. sometimes she wanted to ask why they gave her birth if they couldn't accept her. As it is not her fault to come into this world. But when she afraid to ask them.

why don't they love her? why all of her parents' affection is only for her other siblings? she doesn't know the answers.

'I don't want anything valuable nor even want to harm anyone. I just want some love some care. Is it too much to show a little care??' the only question she wanted to know.

her elder brother is afraid of her intelligence. He thinks she might be the next heir because she was so good at everything.

when she thinks about these all she can do is laugh 'Bro I am not greedy for money all of you know this. So why you show love to Min tannie but why not me, why?'

Because of her brother's jealousy, she started to act like a fool who is good for nothing. who just spent her time reading books without doing anything. even she stopped giving her father any ideas as she did in past.

Her Lil sister also doesn't come to her. Because her mom thinks she might hurt her sister too. thinking this made her laugh.

What a great family it is... thinking this she sighed.

She really wants to make friends, hang out with friends, get love from her family like the novels dramas. But maybe she doesn't deserve this. She is tired because of this world. Sometimes she wishes to transmigrate or die then reincarnate into another world like the fantasy novels manga. Maybe there she can get some love. Her fantasy is kinda funny, right? She knows it can't be possible to happen but these fantasies are the reason for her happiness.

her thinking is kind of like crazy which can make laugh to anybody. Yah she knows that too. Who in the world lives like this in present this era.

Well, how many people know about the lifestyle of rich ones. all of them also fantasize and think like they are happy because they have money they have nothing to worry about.

because one can't be able to see the behind the scenes. the only thing they can see is their fake smiling our dual faces, their happiest persona. Watching these people fantasize they have everything they are living the best life. but don't even try to know are they happy or are they suffering. like burn the stage...

thinking about this thing made her sorrows started to hug her as a bestie do. yah all sadness is her bestie. those things don't leave her alone.

Anyway, after thinking these she closed and stopped reading my novel book. Song changes to "Epiphany" from "awake". thinking all of these made her feel sad. Like "rain" lyrics:

"Then I turned my eyes to the window and everything looks gray

Gray city, gray buildings, gray roads, gray rain

Everything in this world is slow"

because of her messy thinking, her tears started to fall without her nerves telling her about these all... She really wanna cry loudly... So she ran towards the stairs to cry on the rooftop with her rain partner.

Because according to thinking, raindrops can hide one's teardrop. the sound of rain can hide the sound of cry...

But.... is her luck quite good or bad??

she really didn't know. she suddenly slipped in the stair and rolled like the heroine in dramas and then fall to the ground. all she could think is she was running towards a black hole because it was hard to control the spinning. suddenly she saw everything became dark and One angel-like person is smiling at her.

'who is he? why he is smiling? he looks so good'

He opened his mouth "do you want to leave this place??"

she was confused who the h.l. is he?? If she leaves here where she will go?? And does she have any option?? What's going on?? will she go to hell?? or heaven??

Then she heard her brother shouted to her mom "mission complete. We won't need to think about this bitch anymore" mom and my brother were laughing loudly.

she felt some liquid has streamed from her head and it is still continuing.

'I wondered what I did in my past life to suffer like this? I wish no one in this world get this type of family. But I am feeling happy at least I can leave this living hell. Though I don't know what my wrongdoings are. and I don't wanna know too. I don't know what will happen. But I believe I will be happier' thinking this tear dropped from her eyes.

then she smiled at the angel and said.

"yes, please, take me with you. I really wanna leave" after all this hell is not worse than real hell to her

He smiled "ok"

Suddenly she found herself in a white room with a white gown. 'Ahh, maybe every people after death wears this type of dress. will I wear one too?' thinking this she smiled.

The angel said" please wait for a moment"

She nodded ''it's ok. take your time'' 'after all this is where I will live, this place is nice but can I make friends here? be like me without fake persona' thinking all of these she fell into a daze that she didn't see another angel comes afterward.

she startled when she heard "I am sorry Miss. Yoonji, though you were not supposed to die today, you died earlier. and now you are here.'

Hearing this Yoonji chuckled because to her that place was hell so die earlier or later doesn't matter to her.

''Actually, we saw how you lived. you shouldn't have live like that..though we can't explain why you shouldn't deserve it.. But we were quite angry. Though we shouldn't be... I mean how can a parent treat their child like this! "

she wanted to stop herself from laughing. But started to laugh loudly hahaha.

she was wishing that time if there were some human-like the angels in the world she had not to suffer like. oh, it couldn't be possible because angels are angels.

After stopping her laugh he smiles and says again ''we saw you read a lot of novel and manga. Right?''

she nodded ''yah but why?''

"Because of early death, we decided to send you a new world. We hope you will find your happiness there. We won't say in which world you will go to. You need to find it on your own. We will just give our blessings after you find out the storyline.... don't take more time. Ok?? Bye-bye."

when he made her disappear from that place, the previous one showed up ''you told lie.'' he smirked.

''I had to lie. isn't it normal'' a pearl dropped the ground

.....

Hearing this she frowned because she still didn't understand what they meant ?? they didn't even give her any chance to ask. Where she will go?? because she doesn't want to get hurt again!!

But she couldn't say it out.

Because all she could hear was the sound of a crying baby "owa owa owa" near to her.

'Wait did they make me a mother of a baby?? then who the h... is my hubby??' she fell in despair.

'But why can't I move my body except for head and leg?? Paralyze I am?? What the flower. Angel, you are a liar!!' then she looked at the top and saw a purple hair woman is smiling while looking at her.

'Wait why she looks so big?? Ahh what's happening, man??' she is so confused.

then she tried to ask "who are you, sis??" but ended up hearing owwwwaaa aaa sound.

she frowned thinking why she can't speak. Then she saw that woman takes her in her lap saying "omooo our baby is cute... Which name should I give??"

And she is like.... wait!!! she is that baby??

totally unexpected thingy to her. What?????????????? She wanted to shout but…