Please! No!

I waited for hours by now, looking around the worn down cabinet as it's the only furniture in the narrow house. 

It was absolutely ravaged, not even the few copper coins remained, her necklace which was here also was gone. She wouldn't just leave like this. 

She wouldn't!

I got a knock on the house. There's a man looking at me with a deep grin, his yellowish teeth are disgusting and I could see the piling dead skin on his arms. 

Nonetheless I know who this guy is, the loan shark my father used to go to. Also where our money mostly goes. 

"Your mother got sold in the market, including her baby girl"

"What?!"

My voice pitched, it was just a sudden bombshell. My heart sank to my stomach and my eyes shook

"Y-you!"

I ran up to him to attack him. But thanks to the man's long arms he just shoved me down. He laughed at my pathetic sight. 

I started crying, my streams of tears flow down as I tried to attack the man. 

"Tsk!"

He grabbed me and threw me out of the tiny house. 

"Yeah, we own this place now, get out of here brat"

He spat on my face and kicked me on the stomach, his gooey fucking saliva made me so repulsed I reflexively used any means to remove it. 

"Damn you!"

I charged with all my might and with my untrimmed nails I scratched him on the forearm and had it bled. 

"You fucking—!"

I got kicked onto a wall, I got stomped and kicked on but I couldn't care less. I just lost my mother and Sister. 

Just when I thought we're fine! 

We still had the end of the month! End of the month. 

–Thwack!

A last kick landed on my side. 

"don't you show your face around here again, little shit"

He walked off with me bruised and battered. He was a real piece of shit, I swear I'll remember this grudge!. 

I went back to the empty house and looked at the worn down cabinet and took out a circular mirror that fit on my palm. 

"What the hell are you doing here?!"

I got thrown out again. 

"This is not your home anymore! Your father got in debt and you think you're free? Hmph! In your dreams!"

You sons of bitches, I was paying all that 3 silvers a month, and you still kicked us out?

I have to sell herbs I found in the forest to an old man in a medicinal store. Because I'm not old enough to sell things in the adventurers guild. 

Slowly walking down the streets of the slums I went straight to the forest, my bruises and gashes are going to be infected if not treated. 

I started searching for the most common herb for healing potions, Luru grass. And started chewing on it. I went to the river to wash myself. Mindlessly. 

'I-is this the peaceful life that God meant? What… kind of a deal is this?'

–Sob sob

"mom… mom!"

I am so powerless, I couldn't do anything. I wish I didn't go back here so I have saved mom, or at least been taken with her. 

'He said sister, didn't he?'

So I have a little sister, an infant sold as a slave because of an impatient bastard. What a load of crap. 

I looked at the circular mirror I have since I left the slums. I couldn't help but look at my weak self. 

"Hahaha… wahahaha!! Don't look at me like that!"

Sanity was on its edge, I started talking to myself in the mirror. 

"It's not my fault!"

[Yeah, it wasn't]

"Of course!"

Maybe because I'm already at my edge I started hearing things back, and my image on the mirror is looking at me with pity, it's just a reflection. 

"Wahahaha!"

I laid down holding the mirror on my chest, I started choking as I was laughing with tears. 

[Don't cry, Samuel]

[Yeah, don't cry… ]

The first voice sounded manly, the second sounded feminine. The voices tried to comfort me as much as possible. 

Maybe my eyes have dried up, as there were no more tears coming out. My throat was also dry and I couldn't laugh anymore. 

[Samuel, take care of yourself]

[Sammy, take a drink! You're parched!]

They called my name and I couldn't help but look at the mirror again. My own face, my reflection is looking at me with pity. 

[Please Samuel, drink at least some water!]

The manly voice reminded me of my dad in my past life, his voice doesn't sound so authoritarian but instead filled with warmth, it's something the bastard of a father I have in this life would never compare. 

I started lifting my head up, completely devoid of emotions and started to at least drink from the river. I even washed my face. 

[Sammy~ take some rest alright?]

"Mhmm…"

I decided to listen to them, I have nothing to lose, not anymore. 

[The Luru grass, Chew a bit mode Samuel]

I looked around me and managed to find some Luru grass, I started piling them up and went to the river once again. I started chewing on them. 

Little by little my body felt better but my mind didn't. 

[Samuel, how do you feel?]

"I wanna go home…"

[Keep the mirror close to you at all times~ okay~?]

"Mhmm…"

I silently chewed on the luru grass. It was recommended to me that I should do it till I stopped feeling stiff. 

[okay, Samuel, do you have anything left in the slums?]

Now that I think about it. No, but I should at least say goodbye to Auntie Poppy, she was the one who helped me and mother the most. 

"I think?"

[Would you like to at least take it with you?]

"No it's not something physical…"

[I see. Do you want to continue?]

"Yeah at least, tell her what happened"

I walked back, the forest soil, the hard cold ground from the slums, all was felt under my dirty feet. 

"I'm glad that bitch is gone"

Till I heard the very same voice who's I even called Auntie. 

"She has the audacity to lure in men here, who does she think she is? Just because she is beautiful, what a whore"

"Hahaha! You really did that?"

"Yeah, I got close to her son well enough to let me know their debt, and wouldn't you know it I learned about the debt collector and made a deal with them"

"you're really cruel~"

My mind was blank, the one I've been calling auntie for over years is the same person who betrayed me and my mom. 

[Calm down Samuel]

[Sammy! Sammy! Don't do anything reckless!]

I went back to the forest, absent minded with no emotions plastered on my face, I took mushrooms that smelled like almonds. 

"I'll…. I'll.. Make them pay… "

My voice felt empty, I couldn't care less anymore, I have nothing to lose, the memories of the past life gave me a supple amount of maturity to understand everything I've done, it's both a gift and a curse. 

[Samuel!]

I ignored the voice I've been hearing and started crushing the mushrooms. I let it like that and went back to where that bitch was. My feet are numb from the constant walking but I didn't care. 

Going to her house I went ahead and looked for her bucket of water. With a cloth I wrapped around the crushed mushrooms and dipped it into a bucket of water. I did it multiple times. 

Till I finally smell nothing. 

I left the place and threw the mushrooms and the damp cloth in a nearby dump. 

[Samuel…]

[Sammy…]

I just slumped over after walking through the cold dirty floor of the slums. I have no emotions on my face and my eyes that used to twinkle were no more.