Chapter 23 Awkward Confessions

Mrs Ahlam.

It was our second day at the beach which he said was our cottage he had purchased it long time back.

Why do I feel like he's so off mood and just responding when I asked something.

I checked the time 4.30pm, Asr prayer times we had been praying together sometimes I wonder and become curious to ask him what was his life before he met me?befor he married me?was it like this from before?or was he model thinking type?

"Can we pray it's Asr time?" I informed me as I stood up to go and do ablution but there was some thing off I felt like everything will be snatched from me soon, happiness hardly last for long with me.

"Yeah my dear wife then we will go and chill at beach watch sunset view make sure you take your phone, we have to take lots of pictures for memories you never know what will happen," he said and realised what he said and stopped but I noticed I saw change of mood in him and change is behaviour.

What was wrong with him?Yesterday he was so romantic and fine and now?may be when he will pray he will feel relaxed I just smiled and headed towards the bathroom leaving him to cool down.

I splashed water on my face with my right hand did ablution it was so difficult because I had to be careful with my other hand also I felt guilty I couldn't do till elbow properly because of its situation.

May Allah accept our prayers.Ameen

I came out of bathroom searched for my hijab.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked him but he just shook his head, always masking his emotions, he was hurt and something was troubling him I was sure and I would find out as he has always supported me and now it's my turn.

I waited for him as I stood behind and already kept prayer mat for him in front to guide us.

He came out of bathroom, water dripping from his face, he stared at me intently, none of us daring to break the silence he looked extremely handsome, and he was all mine ya Allah what's wrong with my mind?since when did I become the posessive wife?

"Let's pray," he said in low voice and I nodded.

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"Let's go, we can't miss the beautiful view," I heard his voice as he wore his slippers while I still prayed for our relationship, no storm, no misunderstandings so far and we were progressing.

He took his phone, handed me mine, he entwined my right hand with his, he scanned me carefully as if I would disappear he was freaking me out once we reach beach area I will definitely ask him.

We walked side by side silently as I rested my forehead on his shoulder as soon as we sat silently listing to the waves as the cold water hit our legs he looked at me.

"Smile please," and he captured more than ten pictures now I really wanted to ask him, he was acting as if I was leaving him, we took pictures with view on beautiful sunset, those orange rays, the lake.

"I want you to know no matter what happens, I love you," he confessed and my eyes widened in surprise.

"What do you mean by what happens?" I asked him as I stared in to those eyes, he made me fall in love with him and now he was creeping me out, a lump formed in my throat.

"You don't know a lot about me and today I will tell you everything after this your free to decide," he said and looked away at waves instead of meeting my eyes it was like someone had stabbed me with a sharp knife on my heart.

"I love you," I blurted without thinking but this seems the best time not for him but for me,  he looked shocked, serves him right. I alrwsy feel safe with him, my only family, my life with whom I can share anything.

"You can't love a person like me I have to tell you everything," his voice cracked at end and I nodded waiting for him to speak whatever he had to say.

I have to be patient and listen to him, support him if he's right.

Please don't break my heart .

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