I'm willing

The guilt building inside

The worth I have outside

Can I be truly called one of God's people

If I don't even know what's I'm able?

I'm willing but I'm already conquered by doubt

I'm willing yet I know I'm not deserving

I'm willing yet I'm overpowered left me killing

The greatest sin that never leave me despite me running

I'm aware of his greatness

Can't imagine the length of his kindness

These can be measured with endless

But I don't even know if my faith can be of value to his highness.

What I've seen and what I've read

Building a block of useless thread

What lies within that cannot be seen outside

And what's visible that hides the truth of inside

Say, Person among people

Or group among organizations

They've announced the reality of illusions

Man accepts the irony of false derision

Hearing some I'm already one of them

Believing is rather sinful than being a black gem

Now, how could I have the audacity to claim

As man of God, thy name will just be stained by my shame

I know I have sinned

I have done enough malice to win

I'm very sorry and I really am

But I know it's not enough to bring calm

I often forget you

Have abandon you

I don't really know Jesus your son

I'm a sinner brought much covering your sun

Can you still forgive me my God

Can I be able to change my path

Am I still worthy of your light

Because I'm really willing to walk by your side

I'm willing to be with you my God

Please help me find the way

I really don't understand this bay

But I know with you I'll survive in this play

May your light direct me its ray