76 -A

"But who would have thought, all of this was just a nightmare for us? We tried to get up from all the deep feelings of anxiety, get up of all the most terrible feelings in the world, and never could we have imagined that you would feel this way, losing you is the greatest grief of our lives, Rick."

Ricky seemed to smile, his hand was still holding mine tightly as if he wanted to make sure he was real as if he wanted to make sure he really existed. However, I am still me. Nilam who is quite stubborn with all the destiny that exists in this world. Even though my eyes could finally see Ricky again, my heart seemed uncertain. I never thought that my life would be more complicated, than anything in this world in such a horrible way, this world is really a noisy and tiring thing, so how can I continue to be so exhausted I'm tired, just being able to see Ricky makes my gratitude fade because I still feel afraid if I have to lose him again someday.