798 I am scared

"Whenever I try to do something, you pop up in my head and start making me awful again. The more I think about you, the more guilty I feel and surprisingly, the guilt wasn't because I did not tell my family about your stupid plans but I felt guilty towards you which made things even worse." 

Wiping her tears away, she continued, "For some odd reason, I always felt like I have wronged you when it was pretty much clear that you had wronged me and my trust but it just didn't seem right. You made me feel miserable and I have never in my entire life left so helplessly and useless." 

Pointing towards his chest, she fumed, "You are the reason why I look so awful with all the dark circles and puffy eyes. It's my best friend's wedding in a few days and I am the bridesmaid who looks so horrible. I did not go to the parlour for grooming because I was busy crying over us."