CHAPTER 5.2: The Seventh Commander
"You know, when I first laid my eyes on you, I only saw you as someone I could use to fix the problem your parents caused. However, watching you grow up to be the woman you know made me change my mind." She watched me grow up? She does know that makes her more suspicious than before, right?
"Who are you, and why have you been watching me all this time?"
"Oh, my apologies, I forgot to introduce myself to you. My name is Astrella Astnhrea. I am your mother's sister." When I first met her, I sensed that she was somewhat related to my mother because of her magical properties, but I did not expect her to be my mother's sister. Above all, I never once heard that my mother had a sibling. She never mentioned a word about it. Although, there is also a possibility that Astrella is lying to me.
"You expect me to believe that? Who are you? Tell me the truth. What is your intention in leading me to this place? I could have lived a life without you telling me all this! Without you clouding my head with all your riddles! I could have lived without feeling guilty about something my parents caused."
Throughout my life, I was told I should be proud to have parents like Cedric and Aria, the heroes in all Five Lands, but I was wrong. I should not be proud of that now that I know that truth. What kind of heroes would create a war and cost so many lives?
"Continue living your life in ignorance? Is that what you want? Do you want to be left in the shadow all your life? Andrea, don't even try to fool me. I have watched you grow, and you have been looking for something new, a purpose, for a while now." She is not wrong. I am not sure when it started, I have been feeling lost. Sometimes, I tell myself that I need a purpose to keep moving forward and that something is missing in my life. "Feeling guilty? That is nonsense! There is nothing for you to be guilty of. When you were born, you did not wish for any of that to happen. Being the Child of Prophecy and the war, you did not wish for any of that! If there is one thing I like about my sister raising you, it is the fact that you don't let anything let you down and keep on moving forward."
Growing up, my mother always told me to keep moving forward no matter the disappointments that I encountered. I should not let anything to keep me down. She also told me that there are too many things in life that I can do as long as I don't stop moving forward.
"Don't feel guilty? That's easy said than done. What do you want me to do? Just accept everything as it is? Being the Child of Prophecy and what my parents did?" Child of Prophecy is something I heard from time to time, and to think that child would be me. Never in my life would I have imagined that I could be something more than being those people's daughter. I did wish for something new, but this is not it.
"It's not easy to accept, but I want you to. Stop denying your power, and start admitting that the problem is in you for not accepting the truth of who you are. Stop telling yourself that you are a monster because of the power within you. If you keep looking at the past, you can never break the seal that is placed in you." Only my mother knows about my inner struggle. For her to say such a thing without me telling her anything would mean that she knows me well, like how my mother.
I scoffed and stared at her, "With all this information that you're throwing at me, you think that it's helping me accept all this all at once? That I have lived in the shadows all my life? Do you think that is so easy to accept? All these are only making things worse for me!" I would have been fine accepting it if this was a different kind of situation, but it is not.
"Andrea, please. I know I approached you for my selfish reason to awaken the Gods, but at the same time, I am doing this for you. If you keep denying your true self, the Deviant King will have easy access to control you. We don't have much time." A foreboding feeling came to me when she said that. The Deviant King will control me if I don't accept my true self? I don't understand. What does the Deviant King have anything to do with me accepting my true self?