ENDLESS MISSERY

KIARA

It was an accidental time when I understood the flicker of love but the imperfection prevented me from moving forward. What can I do than to bury all the memories of us in my heart . I wiped off my tears . It's for the best of both of us.

I pulled myself together and looked outside the endless road blankly. How my fate is full of unspeakable loneliness . I took a deep sigh leaning my head against the seat. I closed my eyes hoping to find somewhere to hide myself from my own thoughts. I was now scared of them because it was full of darkness .

I don't know what stole me from the World but I woke up five hours later as the engine of the car stopped .

Voice: ma'am .....I think this is the house you will be living in,

I got out of the car looking outside . The house was painted in black it looked like a haunted house . The house looked a bit ancient and it seemed like it has been there for more than hundreds of years . It was surrounded by serpentine flowers . I looked around me I could smell the welcoming loneliness in the air . I was going to live all alone in this forest . Suddenly I started feeling giddy my head became heavier ... I felt my body transforming into something terrifying . I felt cold poisonous blood rushing through my veins.

The man: m..m...ma'am you .. ( she automatically turn to the man and made an eye contact with him with her glowing poisonous eyes which turned the man to ashes)

I turned to look at the man suddenly he had turned to ashes as if he was struck by lightening. I covered my mouth with shock. Suddenly I had a big blue tail . It seems like I've turned into a poisonous serpent .

A tear dropped from my eye it landed on the ground suddenly the soil turned coal black as if something just burned on it .

This is the new beginning of my life .

_Harps and lyres started playing in her head . She knew they were for her endless sorrow . She shut her eyes as her heart wandered around the end of the horizon._

Voice: you have to let go of all your desires to be able to start a new life Kiara . Honestly if you don't rub him off your head you will continue to suffer endless . ( an eerie voice of a woman spoke in her head )

Me: haven't I suffered enough ...nothing will ever hurt me more than the route I've decided to take on ( she replied nonchalantly eyes still closed)

Voice: that means he will also suffer ...forget him and he will find peace ) the voice said with a sharp tone)

_she remained quite wondering why she was the only one enduring such trials of life . It was the first time she asked for love. It all turned into a dream like a scene. "My Sean !! Every bit of me still sing to his name . I can't seem to forget him neither do I even wish to" She was breaking down as she break through_

Memories of us are my last ray of hope , last breath I was holding on to and they are asking me to rid him off my head. To me it sounded like gouging out my own heart. Silent tears flooded in my eyes. The memories of us will forever torture him . It's better I drown him into the sea of emptiness to forget me .

Even if he has to forget me I van endure the torment. The sky suddenly turned dark once I opened my eyes. I laughed sadly ...it's really true the most bitter memories comes from the frosty night . It was like Sean was now appearing everywhere like a ghost.

I headed to the door using my big tail . I opened the huge ancient door . I was surprised to see it's walls were painted with a big beautiful big blue tailed serpent . Looking closer at the painting the woman looked much more like me . Who was she ?? Behind the beautiful smile I could clearly see loneliness etched all over her face .

It seems like she once lived in this house . I looked around there I saw a two lanterns which were brightening the entire house . The house was surrounded by dead blue and white lotus flowers . I saw a small poetic letter on a table

* _soothing as the breeze,

graceful as the flower,

still as the moon ,

cold as the snow

love will always be buried in your heart

With the presence of the lotus flower

You will curl the memories in them

Watch them bloom and flourish

Your lover will always be by your side_*

Watching the handwriting I could see she wrote the poem with a bleeding heart .

Things looked a bit old but the house was quite tidy as if someone dusted it everyday . I headed to the other room painted with only blue flowers. I got inside the room looked fairy with a large blue Royal bed . The walls inside were adorned with blue crescents .

I lied on the bed it was enough to shelter my big tail . I inhaled the new air of melancholy and to that I knew my life was going to be like me till the end