Deliberate Misunderstanding!

Tie Butian looked around. The flames were still ablaze in the surroundings. He said, "In my entire life… since infancy… I've never truly enjoyed myself. A heavy burden had come upon my shoulders after Imperial Father had sustained injuries. I never got a chance to get any joy. I've never had a friend or a lover. I was even more unlikely to fall in love with someone… I've never known the feeling of deep love; the feeling of having a lover.