Chapter 14

I woke up feeling as if my head is about to explode, i gently opened my eyes only to find myself in a strange place.

I looked down to find myself naked, i couldn't bring myself to look at the person sleeping next to me.

Taking a deep breath i braced myself and turned to look. The person i saw drained the blood out of my face.

I saw Josh sleeping soundly and naked, I tried remembering what happened last night.

I remember kissing him, then i remembered his cock in my mouth, the taste of his sperm and him sucking me though clumsily. It was obvious he hasn't done this before.

What have i done?

This guy is straight.

Why do i put myself in this kind of mess all the time?

How am i supposed to face him now?

He never liked me to begin with, and now this.

Although he told me last night that he does not hate me, i'm sure that was him being nice.

Five years ago Ian introduced him to me and last night was the first time in that five years that he has called me by my name without using honorific.

So yes i believe he was just trying to be nice.

I got up from the bed as quietly as i can and started picking my clothes up from the floor and putting them on. I found my phone and checked the time to see it was six am.

My car is not here, i quickly ordered a ride.

I turned to look at his face, Josh is actually very handsome. I didn't know he had such long lashes. He look so peaceful. I wonder how he will feel when he wakes up and remember what i did to him.

This is bad i muttered under my breath as i left the apartment.

I woke up and stretched lazily. It has been a long time since i felt this sexual satisfaction.

I turned to find the other side of my bed empty.

The sheet is cold to the touch meaning Xavier has left for a while.

Running a hand through my hair i let out a deep breath.

I willingly did what i did and although i had alcohol, everything that happened was what i wanted to happen.

I loved it, it felt good.

I know it's not love, my heart belongs to Sophia.

And me sleeping with Xavier, does not make me gay.

I have to talk to him about last night.

Getting up from the bed i received a text from Ian telling me to meet him at a restaurant where we will be meetting a client that morning. I went to the bathroom and started preparing for my day.

I arrived at the restaurant to find Ian sitted with Xavier.

Good morning i greeted as i arrived and took a seat.

Morning they both responded to my greeting with Xavier not looking at me.

I was telling Zee how drunk he was last night and how you were kind enough to take him home.

Hope you had no difficulty last night Josh?

Nah, it was alright i took him home and as you can see he is alright.

See Zee, i told you he does not hate you.

Zee here thinks you don't like him.

Don't think that way Xavier i turned to look at him.

Thank you for last night Josh and i'm sorry if i gave you any trouble he said looking at me.

It's alright, you gave me no trouble at all.

Now this is a rare sight but a pleasnt one commented Ian.

Finally there is progress between Zee and Josh they are not best bud yet but at least they are talking.

Boss there is a problem said Sam as he came to stand before me. Mr Johnson has met with an accident on his way here to see you.

I've just got word from one of our guys that it was not just an accident but an attempt on his life.

What? i heard Josh say.

Boss we have to leave here, your life might be in danger.

Josh take Zee away from here. When you've dropped him off meet me at the base.

Ian will you be okay Zee asked?

I will be fine Zee just follow Josh, okay?

Okay.

I watched as Josh left with Xavier first before heading out with Sam.

Take me to the base Sam.

I called Anna.

Anna i won't be coming in today, Richard will be in charge. If anything comes up that need my attention let me know.

Ending the call i wondered who might be behind this.

Getting to the base i went in and waited for Josh.

Xavier and i did not say anything to each other as i was driving.

I'm taking you to Vee's house, the apartment is heavily guarded and secure. I will also add additional protection just to be safe. Don't worry you won't know they are there.

Okay thank you.

You should be thanking Ian not me, he really cares for you.

I know.

Xavier about last night.

Josh i'm truly sorry about last night, i should know better. And i understand if you hate me, what i did truly is unforgiveable.

Especially knowing you are not into that kind of thing.

Wait Xavier, i was aware of what we were doing the whole time. The way you are sounding it's as if you took advantage of me or something.

That's not what happened.

Josh i don't want to have an argument about this with you.

You are not gay and it's so obvious that last night was your first time being that intimate with a man.

Me on the other hand should have known better.

I am experienced when it comes to pleasing men and bringing them pleasure and that's what i did. I shouldn't have allowed such a thing to happen.

Whether you like it or not i led you on.

I really hate myself right now Josh, okay.

I led you on, you are a straight man if it has just been only me giving you pleasure that i would even try to understand.

But i allowed you a man who has always fucked women, i allowed you suck my dick, i should have stopped you when you wanted to do it but i didn't.

I should have stopped you when i noticed you struggling to do it but i didn't.

Fuck this is messed up.

I looked at Xavier to see him really upset and disappointed in himself.

You swallowed my sperm? i asked as i brought the car to a stop in front of Vee's apartment complex.

Josh please i'm sorry okay, i'm truly sorry i promise to keep my distance from now on.

I watched as he quickly left my car without answering the question.

Looking at him go i know our business is far from over, but for now i have to go meet Ian.