Seventy-two years in ten breaths.
Seventy-two years of abuse and hardship, of love and triumph.
From Pilmos perspective she ran into the wall of my mind and crashed hard.
She happily gave into the intrusion hoping to overwhelm me with painful images, feelings and memories.
What she got instead was indifference as I relived her life with her.
If Rumi or Alia did what I did they would be dealing with years of trauma.
More than likely they would have dropped to the floor like Mislin did with me in the desert.
Instead I stand up letting Pilmo fall to the ground.
I think about my time as a rock and how I spent nearly a hundred years studying one patch of grass.
On comparison, humans live a shorter but much more filling life.
'Why'?
Ava whispered while she wrestled with the feeling of disgust.
Ava made contact with me at the wrong time and caught glimpses of Pilmos life.
She wasn't asking why I did what I did.