a week later

one week later I was very very frustrated but at the same time on that Thursday as last day of school until my weekend break it was also picture day I wear black and white and pink my school colors are black and white how is all dressed up a little bit of makeup to some mascara some lip gloss and some eyeshadow that blends into my skin color with sparkles I put a headband on my hair or in my hair my first hour I was late again as I was for the whole week tardy start counting next week it was nothing unusual for me that it be late because I have my nephew's to take to school and considering I can't drive my mom took us all to school the boys will go first because my school start before there's and it always be late I hated waking up it was the worst time in the morning for me and still is so we take the boys sometimes I miss my first hour sometimes I'd be walking in late and you always go tardy slip I give him the tardy slip and you'd make me walk over to him so whole class cuz he I was late it's like doing the walk of shame but this is a walk of shame cuz you're guilty not because you decided to go to sleep with some guy when you knew you shouldn't have or when you don't have any clothes to change into afterwards being 15 and never had a boyfriend was a strike you know me and my best friend both have no boyfriend don't sleep with guys we've been good my math teacher there was the same know all the answers to all her questions would answer them because I have a horrible time I keeping my mouth shut when it comes to knowing the answer I hate it I had a cover my mouth so many times just to block the answer remember it so other kids couldn't say it so we made it to you I'll get her say the answer after she called on one student and they got it wrong I'm always done early in her class and for some weird reason I still have to do the work and then I get extra work which I'm happy to do and you don't have to give me the points but she does I don't like my team there not that they're not good people it's live rely on me to give them the answers I don't want to give it to them I want them to work for it next up was Ela and this time I didn't have to read a book cuz it was picture day which means we just lined up went down to the auditorium and took a picture everyone took an individual picture which was fun but I ended up lined up next to my nephew and I have my nephew in that class which kind of isn't Fun mainly with our past hey at least we were trying right he became really good friends with my old-time Crush who I still had a crush on and had a crush on him since second grade all the way up 9th and I asked him and tell him hi for me what channel did he said I don't want to talk to her my questions but did Hunter say to him to make him hate me because he liked me more than hunter ever used to come to me all the time back in elementary and tell me he didn't wash his hands again he picks his nose did you know he talks to himself when he goes potty but this is where he told me he never wanted to talk to me again and I thought about approaching him 24/7 even though by giving him a letter I wrote long ago but I didn't do it cuz I decided if he thinks I'm not worth his time then I'm not going to waste my time on him my best friend calls me ugly just wanted to punch you in the face I had to run over and catch a few times so she would not it was funny cuz when we went walking down the gym Hall he's always staring at us when we're laughing giggling and holding hands running through the Halls you know and no I know what you're going to say or what you think and quit it we are not lesbians we're not gay which is really close Best Friends who's never had a fight I haven't wanted to come home but everyday after school I had to seems like all we do is get yelled at for things I don't do or Matthew gets yelled at something he didn't do little kids that we babysit my other nephews get away with murder but I guess that's normal here that's one week in high school one week and things seem to already be going wrong and I did forget to mention I did sign myself up for therapy