#6

We make it to the book store. Bellamy said, "You been here before?"

I answered, "No. Found it when I was released from the hospital. This is where I got my books while I was recovering."

He nodded slowly. We walk in. The place was enormous. For being in such a bad place, the place was really nice. My face lit up. I felt happy. Even if it is short lived. I watch as a young woman walks up to me. She gave me a warm smile. She said, "Hello. Interested in reading our new books?"

She looks at me and said, "You seem familiar."

I said, "I never been here before actually. I did read here a lot when I was in the hospital."

She snapped her fingers and said, "Asher right?"

I nodded. I am a little surprised that she recognize me. She said, "I remember giving you a lot of books. You seemed to have read a lot."

I nodded and said, "Yeah. Those books were the only thing that kept me company. I probably would have done some bad things if it were not for books."

She gives me a sad face and said, "I am glad that books helped you."

She pats my shoulder. Bellamy said, "What do you mean by bad things?"

I look at him and said, "I do not know you well enough to say that."

He nods. I think he is warming up to me. I go directly to the mystery section. I see nothing that sparked my interests. I sigh in defeat. I could just go back and wallow in depression. Saying that brought back some feelings.

I sigh and said, "Lets just go back."

The way back, I was silent. My head hung low as voices began to talk in my head. We make it back and I nod my goodnight. I close the door and the tears immediately come. The drastic change made me fall to the floor. I was leaning against the door for support. I hug myself to stop the shaking.

I need to be more quiet. I get up slowly and walk to my bed. I sway as the white hot tears drip down my face and land on the soft carpet. I make it to my bed and just lay there. Letting my body do the rest. Things went down that night...

I pull my sleeves up to reveal the cut marks. I place a fresh band aid. I got some blood on my bed. I can pass it as my period. I pull my sleeves down and pull my hood up. I walk out looking down. I honestly do not feel like eating or doing anything. I give a big sigh. I could smell food. It smelled good. But the thought of eating it repulsed me.

I need to eat. I have not eaten in three days. I stumble into the giant kitchen. I look around and see Bellamy making food. He sees me. He just stares at me. I give him a dead glare. He said, "You okay?"

I said, "Nothing you need to be concerned about."

I go into the fridge. Nothing seemed good. Damn it. I lean my head against the fridge door. I had dark circles under my eyes. My face tear stained resting against the cool metal. Bellamy said, "I hear you last night."

I felt my insides go cold. I said, "What exactly did you hear?"

He said, "I heard you fall to the floor."

I felt relief. I said, "Oh. I was just really tired."

I gripped my sleeves tightly. He looks at my hands. He said, "Hiding something there?"

I shake my head no and said, "No. I am fine. Why do you sound so concerned all of a sudden? What happened to the one who came with me to the library because he thought I was lying about my identity?"

He rolls his eyes and said, "Still not sure if you are lying."

I look at him with emotionless eyes. I said, "Think what you want. I do not care."

I do not like being interrogated. I walk out and bump into Kian. He said, "Where are you going in such a hurry Asher?"

I said, "Anywhere but the kitchen. I hate being interrogated. Especially by people who do not believe me."

I move past him and go back into my room. I need to do something. I felt tired but sleeping is uncomfortable. Fucking Bellomy, for causing this. I sigh and sit down and take out my phone. I look and see that my favorite anime just released new episodes. I give a weak smile.

I click on it and watch. I just sat there and watched my anime. The main character is the best. Her name is Quinn. She is a time traveler. She goes back in time to save the world and finds out about her past. It is really good. I have cosplay as her before. I do look like her.

Minus the purple in her hair. I watch the two hour long episodes. I lost tract of time and see the sun peep into my room. I pause the episode. I look and see it was Monday. I had class today. I lock my door and strip. I redo my bandages. I pull on my pale yellow shirt. The stripped sleeves going past my hands. I pull on some pants. There were ripped jeans with suspenders. I pull them on with a black scarf with white trailing down my back. I pull on a belt and a pair of white converses.