334— I Was Jealous

The doctor had given him a letter from his mother, and he had read it on his way home. Now, he leaned to the side and took the letter out of his suit pocket, giving to Pei Yueran.

She took it and scanned the contents. She could tell it was a letter written with heartfelt emotions. The writer had talked about her life, the regrets she had about leaving her family and begged for the forgiveness of her son. She had ended the letter by saying she loved him. The paper was stained with dried tear marks.

By the time she finished reading, her own eyes were filled with tears.

No matter how much she hated this woman she never met for causing her husband pain, she still never wished that she would lose her life.

Death was such a permanent event that it seemingly erased all the evil a person had done in their lifetime and beautified their good deeds.

There was a reason why the saying "don't speak ill of the dead" was so popular. Two people could fight and hate each other all their lives, but the death of one person would make the other feel bereft and regretful of all the times they spent in chaos.

All the fights and awful quarrels would then seem so trivial in the face of the huge full stop to a person's lifetime.

"Chuan, anyone in your shoes would do the same thing. We all make choices in life. This was a result of the choices she made. She hurt you so badly that I didn't want to forgive her either, and I don't even know her.

"And you did your best for her, we all know this. You made sure she was well taken care of till the end, which is more than generous on your part. You shouldn't beat yourself up anymore."

Li Chuanmo nodded, but Pei Yueran knew that it would take more than her words to comfort him.

Feeling as down as he looked, she took his hand, "Let's get you to bed. You've had a long day."

Li Chuanmo followed without words as she led him to their room and tucked him in. She briefly went out to make him a cup of warm milk, which Li Chuanmo downed quickly.

Setting the glass aside, she settled under the covers before drawing him into her arms. She wanted to comfort him very badly, but she lacked the right words.

"Thank you Honey," Li Chuanmo said quietly, resting his head on her chest.

Pei Yueran smoothened his hair and placed a kiss on his forehead. After some silence, she asked, "Have you discussed about the necessary arrangements?"

Li Chuanmo nodded lightly, "The doctor spoke to me about it as well. I've asked Gong Anwei to handle things and give her a befitting burial."

Pei Yueran just nodded and didn't comment much. "And your aunt?"

Li Chuanmo closed his eyes, "I just ignored her tantrums and let her continue acting like a clown."

He knew what her show was all about. But if she thought to use guilt to get money out of him for that useless son of hers, she had another thing coming.

Remembering the scene she caused in the company's lobby the other time, Pei Yueran let out a sigh, "Let's just tread carefully. A person like that can do nasty things to drag people down."

Truly, problems never came singly. Her head was hurting. If it was possible, she would have opted to sleep and forget all these ever happened.

Li Chuanmo made a sound of accent and shifted his head from her chest, "Tired?"

"Very. Today's events were tiring enough."

Li Chuanmo changed their positions so that Pei Yueran was the one lying in his chest, "Just rest. I'll take care of everything."

"You're not planning to abduct Han Lei or something, right?"

Li Chuanmo was thinking more along the lines of giving his company trouble, but his brow still rose, "Why? You're feeling bad for him?"

Pei Yueran closed her eyes, "Can't I feel bad for him?" She was just joking however. Her main concern was that Li Chuanmo would do something illegal and cause trouble.

"I can't believe you still have the energy to feel jealous, I'm amazed."

Li Chuanmo put his hand on a spot that was guaranteed to make Pei Yueran beg, "Say that again?" How could she speak up for that person?

Pei Yueran pressed down a shiver and quickly changed her words, "What did I say? That I love you? You know I love you very much."

Li Chuanmo smiled thinly and abruptly grabbed, "I don't think that's what you said, but I'm glad to hear it. Would you like to prove it?"

Pei Yueran's tiredness disappeared as sensations flooded her quickly. There was just something about his touch that made her crave more. Especially today, when she desperately needed to lose her ability to think.

She opened her eyes to see him staring at her, emotions swirling in his hazel orbs.

It was unclear who made a move first, but they went at each other with increasing eagerness as the ambiguity in the room rose.

Clothes fell off in short order, and then one hand stretched out to undo the ropes that bound the heavy canopy. It fell slowly, covering up the scene on the bed, but doing nothing to muffle the sounds.

A long while later, the wind and the waves finally calmed. Pei Yueran lay, panting. She felt relaxed from head to toe. For the first time since she received that call in the afternoon, she felt blissful.

"A girl could get used to this," she said even as she fought to keep her eyes open.

"I don't know about other people, but I most definitely can," Li Chuanmo said, supporting her head carefully.

Pei Yueran yawned, "We're still going to City A this weekend, right?"

Li Chuanmo nodded, "Sure."

Trying to suppress another yawn, she suddenly remembered, "By the way, Han Lei said he got my number from the office and contacted me last week, but I didn't see any calls or texts. Do you know anything about that by chance?"

Li Chuanmo was oddly quiet, making Pei Yueran try to clear away the haze of sleep, "Chuan?"

Was he sleeping? Or was he hiding something?

"Are we really talking about him now?" After they had had such a great time?

Pei Yueran waited, sure that he somehow had a hand in this.

Surrendering, he eventually said, "He called Min Shiyi, and you were unavailable, so she called me."

"And what did you do?"

"I told her to give him my other number."

Pei Yueran was surprised. "Why would you do that?"

To make sure he got frustrated by her lack of response? Because he didn't want anyone to disturb her?

"Because I was jealous and just wanted him to suffer." He eventually went with the truth.