TW: SH Hate

Here's another poem about hating myself

How many must I write until I understand

I ruin everything

I ruin lives

I make others hate themselves 

I make the wrong moves

I can't do anything right

I'm not what you think I am

I'm not what you thought I'll be

I'm just a dumb little girl

I can't do anything right

I'm so awful

All I do is cry

I wish I was dead 

I wish I killed myself

I wish I would cut up my thighs 

I want to hang out so everyone could see 

I wish to hear their joys 

As their eyes laid upon my body 

All I wanted I ruined