2024

I'm graduating this year but I don't feel excited

I feel this feeling of doom

I'm not ready

I'm scared

I'll be 18 so soon

When I still feel 15

The years have merged together

I don't know up from down

I don't know who is me

I'm scared

I don't feel right

I don't want to grow up

I don't want to grow at all

Kinda wish I died

It sad to say that when I have a barely lived

But I'm tired

I'm fighting myself for a life I don't want anymore

My younger self is grabbing onto me begging and pleading to give her the life she always wanted

I can't

I won't

I'm graduating this year