41 Not a Chapter
Hello, dear readers, I'm the author of this fanfiction.
Yes, this is going to happen...
The story will be put into a Hiatus.(Never thought I'd say that in this occasion, but I guess everything can happen in life...)
I wish to apologize to everyone, and hope you can understand me, although you are free to criticize me as you wish even if you understand what I am going to say. After all, there are many mistakes I've accomplished across the way, with some improvisations and stuff I've done to fix previous problems.
Why am I putting this story in Hiatus? I could have dropped it, but I did not. Why?
Well, there are mainly four reasons for why I decided to put this story in Hiatus:
1) I lost my 'muse'... Well, rather than losing it, it could be said I took the liberty to grab my Desert Eagle, loaded some lead in it, and shot my muse through her babymaker just for annoyance. Honestly, the chapter 40 was written many months ago, so the story until now was already set for months, around june. Since then, I lost my muse and couldn't feel like continuing this story was good.
2) This is a fanfiction, not an original novel, so I am free to pause it however I like it without any repercussions. I might get bad fame, but in the end, if it can hold my sanity and let me mature from my past self, then it's all worth it. It's not like I will lose money for this.
3) I am currently working now, something I started this early september. I am doing manual work from 8 to 16, monday-saturday, and then I got driving school in the evening for 3 days out of 7, so I am accumulating quite the stress. I only got a free day which is sunday, and I want to pass it through resting my mind.
4) There is a lot of revisions to go through here, so you might expect a whole remake instead of a continuation by the end of the hiatus. There are many things waving left and right through the spectrum, way more than I like it: Victor's personality, other characters' personality, and there are also many corrections to make.
In the Paradox's last update, 2.40, there were unexpected new things that would certainly change the story, such as the existence of actual espers during the Great Monster War that are called Psycho Soldiers, or the fact that the Job Change that was introduced in Paradox is actually canon and a product of Ilias. So, I think I will make a LARGE pause and wait for the translated version of part 3 of Paradox to appear instead before restarting this story.
Also, the whole power level thing in Monster Girl Quest was completely different. I used the Levels showed in the visual novel as a way to differentiate the strong from the weak, but I misunderstood what 'Level' means in the game.
I have no intention of breaking the world by making weird-ass unbalanced monsters that could possibly overwhelm humanity in 5 split seconds and Gods that can do the same thing against the monsters. So, there is going to be a serious overhaul through the world of this fanfiction.
That is, to not talk about how seriously op the money-making system was getting even after all the limitations I placed upon it. I don't want to make a wish-fulfilling fanfiction, I want to get to the leaderboard in my way, in the right way.
I don't want to be like those fucktards who are so impatient to fill the first chapter with random ass words until they reach the preset 15k words for the novel to be public, I want the fanfiction to be public in the proper way, with around like 7 or 10 chapters already published.
I don't want to make unreasonable and weird-ass characters, I want to give everyone a reason to justify possible bad actions committed in the past. And by the way, I am not talking about chapter 19, I don't care what you all think about, Alice was in the right at that time. Although, I could have worded it better.
Also, there is something that I agree with you all, the way I made some decisions are way too forced, although some were insignificant to begin with and I simply patched it up to not get there anymore. However, like in the decision of the vampire serum thingy, although using it was going to end up in a bad ending, there was a better way to show it instead of using the excuse of 'It was Morning'.
And there are two things I realized recently:
The first is that I have to fix Victor's view on his surroundings. This was supposed to be something to be fixed way later, when he is going to get beaten to death from someone else too strong for him, to let him understand that everything is now 'real', but I shouldn't do that. This was something that had to be done way earlier, considering how Victor was living before now.
The second thing... well, I was not cruel enough. Victor is still taking it too lightly, I can make it way worse, I'm sure of it. I want to show that he has a 'pitch-black luck', and I am going to do it properly.
Once again, you are free to say whatever you want, but I hope you can be empathic and understand what I am feeling.
