The universe

Rex. 

I feel like shit. 

I have felt like shit all day.

Blue has been communicating with me and I have loved every second of it but every time I think of him, or I am smiling because of something he did or said, I think about Gyles too. I am smiling or rather should I say I am happy because of both of them. 

They are coming back tomorrow. I don't know how I am supposed to act now that I have kissed them both and asked them to stay because of me. Is it selfish of me? Am I supposed to just pick one of them? Even if I am given the option of picking one person, I literally can't. does it even make sense that I like them both equally? I want them both, equally. I have been avoiding Gyles since last night. I don't know how to handle all that happened. It didn't seem like he wanted anything serious with me. He mentioned taking things slow. Exploring each other.