175 Mind over matter

Cassius.

He stays in my arms all night. 

I feel the mental clock ticking. 

Once the sun comes out, he will leave and this will be over. 

I mean this is what I wanted. This is what I asked for. I asked for a night, beau gave me a night. The night is almost over and as time passes by, my heart throbs in my chest. I don't think I am ready to let him go. It will be selfish if I ask for one more day. I want more time with him—even though I don't deserve it. Asking for more time will just prove that nothing has changed. 

I killed so many people, this is my punishment. Maybe all along it was mapped out. This was always how it was meant to end.