135 I don't care what you are as long as i have you.

Darrien. 

He trembles all through the night. 

I don't know what to do to make this better. All I can do is try to comfort him by holding him, assuring him that everything would be alright but I don't even know anymore. 

Time goes by slowly. I wait and wait for the dawn of a new day but time stands still. After his crying in the shower, he put on my shirt and crawled into the bed. I think the best thing for him right now is to sleep. After everything, he has been through. I wish I could take all his pain. I wish this was me. all the suffering could be transferred to me, I will take it in a heartbeat. 

Jabi doesn't deserve this. 

All his life, he has suffered. I thought I could come into his life and make things better. I thought I could be that light at the end of the tunnel for him but now it seems like I am the cause of all his problems. This happened because of me. he is this way because of me.