252 A different person

Gyles.

The drive is long but just knowing that I will get to see him soon makes it all worth it. we have been in this car for hours and I can tell that Rex is tired. I don't want to wear him out and I don't even know how to drive.

My eyes shift to him and he manages a faint smile, the kind that tells me that he is just doing this for me. I know he doesn't want to be in this car right now. He and Blue are cool. I know he misses him but he doesn't want to do anything that will make Blue upset. I know this is another selfish move, I know I am just thinking about myself and how to make things right between all of us but for once in my life, I want to do right, the only way I can do right by the two of them is if I get us all together. I need to make sure our mating is successful. I need to be the person that they want, not someone that just thinks about myself. 

You are thinking about yourself right now.