Chapter 5

C & M

Is hypnotizing real?

Because I cannot move away my eyes from his hazelnut eyes. It's like my world stops and those eyes are hypnotizing my eyes. I want to look away from those, but I can't. We both became quiet while staring at each other except for the noise of wind. I can hear how high and strong every beat of my chest while staring in those eyes. I feel like I am trembling while staring in those.

Do you ever feel this strange feeling when you are looking to someone's eyes? For me, no. I have never felt this while looking into someone's eyes. No one has caught my attention.

But Cades did.

“Meow.” Our stares stopped as a cat interrupted it. I gulped when I saw the cat. Finally, the cat made me come back to my senses. As I approached the brown cat, I realized that I almost stopped breathing when I got stuck, looking in those eyes of him.

“Hello, cat.” I said, after going back to my senses.

The cat looks so lovely and soft. I never had a pet before. It's not because I don't like pets, I like them. But I don't want to bother my parents and ask them to buy me one. They are working so hard for me, I should also cooperate and appreciate what I have.

“Meow. “

That cat yawns again and softly touches my cheeks. I thought it would hurt me because of its nails. But I am right, this cat is lovely and kind.

“She's lovely.” I heard Cades said in my back. I smiled and nodded while caressing the soft hair of the cat.

I love this cat.

“Do you think someone owns her?” I asked him.

He walked near me to carry the cat.

“I don't know, I'm not from here. Have you seen this cat here before?” He asked and looked at me again. I was about to be hypnotized by those eyes again, that's why I looked away quickly before my eyes got stuck by those dangerous eyes of him. I might not be able to move my eyes away from those.

I shrugged. “I don't know. Elizea and I never go far away from their house and from ours.” I answered. He has a point though. He's not from here. Why did I even ask him if he thinks this cat has her owner? I should be the one to know that. But seriously? I have never seen a pet in our town. I don't know where this cat came from.

“But you go far away with me.” It made me stop. I secretly bit my lips as I realized that he was right. I have never gone out far with Elizea and Elizabeth, but look where I am. In the secret place, far from our house, with this boy, named Cades.

The worst is, I snuck.

“Becau--”

I fell, not literally when he kissed me on my cheeks. My mouth opened and I cannot move my body anymore. I am like a statue who has a surprised face while staring at him, smiling at me. I didn't expect that. But here my heart goes again and again. The beats of it became faster than before.

“Meow.”

When the cat yawned again, he ran with his wide smile. I am speechless, watching him run.

“Did he just kiss me?”

“Meow.” I laughed at myself when the cat yawns, giving me an answer.

Cades is under the tree. He's holding something in his hand.

“What are you doing?” I ask and run towards him. He didn't answer me, instead, he focused on what he was doing to the tree.

He's writing on it.

“What are you writing?” He didn't answer again. “You're hurting the tree, Cades.” I said while he still continued and didn't listen to me.

So, I watched.

C & M

My forehead knitted as I saw the two letters. What does it mean? Did he just write and hurt the tree with these letters?

“What does it mean? C&M?” I asked, while still looking and thinking at it.

“You want to know?” He smirked playfully. I doubt that smirk now. Is he playing with me?

“Yeah?” I said, confused.

“It's a secret.” He said and laughed at me. My face is speechless again. How can he not tell it to me after hurting the tree by writing those letters that I don't even know the meaning of?

“Secret? That-”

“I told you, I love secrets.” He said and sat on the grass again. He faced the view with a smile again. That stopped me. I almost forgot that he loves secrets. It makes me sad, it makes my heart aches. Life is unfair. How can some have a happy life with their families, while some have an awful life and families?

Like Cades.

He lives in secret.

“Your parents are cruel.” I said after realizing the sadness he shared to me earlier. I don't want to say that. Because his Mom is beautiful, and she seems kind, even his father. But you can't hide the fact. How can they hide him? Cades is their son and not an orphan to hide!

“Your parents are lovely.” I stared at him again. His smile is with sadness, and his eyes are wishing to have parents like me. I can't judge his parents so much, I don't know their reasons, I will be one-sided if I will judge them so much.

But whatever it is, hiding Cades isn't right.

It's awful.

I didn't answer. I chose to enjoy the view with him. He didn't talk to me, he also did what I am doing. Silence embraced us and the wind played with our hairs.

“We should head back home.” He said, destroying the silence between us.

I smiled and nodded.

My heart is pounding with ache again. Why do I feel like I don't want to leave yet? Why do I feel like I want to stay here and spend more time with him.

But I can't. We will both be dead if we stay more here. My parents will definitely understand me, but his parents? I don't think so. He told me a secret about them, but who knows if there are more secrets that he's still hiding from us?

Who knows?

“What about the cat?” He asked. I almost forgot the cat. She is sleeping while I am carrying her.

I smiled lovelyly.

“I should take care of her now. If someone finds her, I have to give her back.” I said, with sadness.

“Come on, then.” Before we left, I remember the fries that Aunt Liza cooked for me.

I gave it to him. “Eat that, Aunt Liza cooked that for me. But I know there are more foods there. I'm not saying that you don't have food there, but I know that you are not showing the real you. You might be hungry a lot.” I explained and smiled at him.

He stared at it for a while before he gave me an appreciation smile.

“Thanks.” It makes my heart pound all over and over again.

As we walked away and left to our secret place. I forgot the fear of heading back home. I just enjoyed walking with Cades and of course, with my new cat.

“What will you name her?” He asked, pertaining to the cat.

I almost forgot to give her a name.

“Hmm.” I started thinking. What should I name this lovely cat? “Maybe, lovely?” I said and laughed a little.

“Why?” He said, but I know he already knew the answer.

“Because she's lovely.” I laughed again.

“Here you go.” He said when we stopped in front of our house. It seems like they are not finding me. Thank God for that.

“Will you be okay?” I asked, worried at him.

He smiled at me to calm me.

“I always do this, don't worry.” He said and gave me a lovely smile.

“Go, I'll watch you leave.” He nodded at me before he ran quickly to go back. When I was left alone there, my smile suddenly vanished. I don't know why I feel hurt watching him leave.

Maybe, I have a new desire in my heart.

That is to spend a lot of time with him.

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