Lost ......

flashback continues....,.....

the physical torture wasn't just enough."you piece of shit unworthy.....ugly cheating whore .....fake bitch !!!!" just that had the people whispering ear to ear oooohhh my god what just happened .

I tried to talk but I couldn't talk I was in pain all this people are judging me but I'm the wronged one . couldn't they just see . am the one who was cheated on . I wanted to say something to make know the true story , but my dad out of the crowd bit me to it "you're such a disgrace to the family I don't remember raising such a daughter " he wanted to say something else but just looked at me with disgust ....I decided not to say anything. who said blood was stronger than water ...

I'll agree to that statement the moment mother's stop abandoning their children , the moment young men will mature and own up to the responsibility of impregnating a girl,the day incest will be but a memory, the day parents will stop rejecting a dejected girl for a mistake she has own up to, blood will be stronger than water the day we stop thinking through our selfish desires of keeping our names high in the expense of making your children happy .but the cruel world that walks with the horns of Satan doesn't give a shit about that .

They will reject you the moment you fall step on you while you're down because you've lost your worth , your no good to them . people believe that when you pick someone who is down will make you fall but is it true? if so then let it happen to you . remember what goes around comes back around . but what I know my right can be your wrong . people survive in different ways that they think is right for them . Today my dad has just choose his right and it was not me . wow wow wow I manage to pick myself up but not without clicking loud at them , the angel is gone . believe me when someone says enough is enough that person really means it ,am tired of being humiliated like in this am not some corpse am human to .

I went inside the shop found my employer with some few cash on his hand . Before he could utter a word I had already said I quit I give me my salary . indeed that was what he had planned because I few minutes later I was already replaced, I even wondered where did he get the time for that anyways why should I worry on something that is already gone .

I picked my salary cast my had down ' didn't want to be looking at those eyes around me. ooooops the serpent has not gone yet ... Edward held my hand tightly and whispered in my ear "this is what you get after messing with Anna next time you'll be on the headline news bitch" oooooh okey so the fight that happened earlier was the course of all this humiliation thank god of what I did to her I had bitten her into a pulp and told her next time she won't be sleeping with her friends boyfriend. the only negative part is that the man I was fighting for is really a fool 'say that again ' yeah yeah he is really a fool . Am the other fool for loving him yeah I loved him .I just don't know if I still do . Before I had lost confidence in myself maybe a little , but today I lost it all.

I had trust in Edward but today ..,....it's all gone love is a scam girls!! love doesn't exist , today I tell you if you want to find love don't find it in someone have it In you . am just telling you to love yourself before you give your self to others , am so lost in thinking am so lost in believe what's real , I don't even know if I'm real . everything has just turned upside down .I hate my very existence in this world .....and I walked didn't know where didn't care if I got lost ...just wanted my life to end soon just wanted to die , I don't know what you'll do if you were in my position, but as for me I walked ,walked , walked and walked.

end of flashback.....