CHAPTER 12; WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE?

T he following week, I

made sure that I woke

up very early in order

to get to school on time.

I knew I had a lot to cover.

Sharon gave me her notebooks

for me to go through all what

was thought in class the

previous week. I didn't go

home immediately after

lectures. I had to cover what

was thought the previous week

before going home. I located

an empty class where I could

sit alone and go through all

what was thought the previous

week. I busied myself

immediately.

After 10 minutes of reading, I

heard someone calling my

name. my heart missed a beat

when I realized it was a

familiar voice. I prayed

silently that it shouldn't be

who I was thinking. I slowly

raised my head to see Sylvia

standing at the door. my eyes

widen in shock. How did she

find me here? what is she

even doing here? I thought

Mustack told me that he didn't

say anything to her. so he lied

to me. what will I do now?

how will I get out of this. what

will she do or say this time?

I'm finished.

She started walking towards

me. her every step increased

my heartbeat. I thought of

jumping out through the

window but decided against it,

knowing fully well that I might

injure myself if I do that. since

I had no other idea of what to

do, I only fixed my gaze on the

floor and awaited what would

befall me. she got to me and

stood beside me.

"hi Christian" she said

I slowly raised my head to see

if she was actually the one

standing beside me or not,

because I was expecting her to

start barking immediately she

get to me.

"can I sit?" she asked, pointing

to the available space beside

me.

I didn't respond. I just kept

staring blankly into air. what

is she trying to do this time? I

thought.

"can I sit?" she repeated when

I didn't respond.

I nodded and she immediately

sat beside me. she fixed her

gaze on the book I was holding

without saying a word. I was

uncomfortable having her by

my side. After a while of

deafening silence, she finally

spoke.

"Christian I actually…" she

paused

"I don't even know how to say

this right now" she continued

"I don't have any excuse for

my action the other day. I

really don't know what came

over me. I left home very

angry that day, because

someone offended me. I was so

angry to the extent that I was

having headache. I just had to

unleash the anger in me

before it chokes me. that was

why I got mad at you when

you only try to pay my fare.

I'm really sorry. I just hope

you can forgive me. I have

always wanted to apologize all

this while but was scared you

might get mad at me. I'm very

sorry. please forgive me" she

pleaded.

I didn't respond. I just kept

staring into air. The fact that

Sylvia, who I thought was

actually coming to descend on

me, was actually apologizing,

made me surprised.

She placed her hand on my

shoulder and stared into my

eyes. I couldn't stare back at

her. I fixed my gaze on the

floor.

"Christian please forgive me.

I'm really sorry" she said

"I have forgiven you" I

managed to say.

I had to say it, for her to stop

boring hole on my body. her

closeness was making me very

uncomfortable. I was not even

angry with her in the first

place.

"I know that didn't come from

your heart" she said

"I have forgiven you. I was not

even angry with you." I said

"I don't believe you. Okay if

you have really forgiven me

like you said, let me invite you

to my place for dinner tonight.

if you accept, I will know that

you have really forgiven me"

she said

'Your place' i mumbled to

myself. She wants to put me in

a tight position now. why can't

she just believe that I have

forgiven her. now, she's

inviting me for dinner. I had

never been comfortable having

a lady in my room. going to a

lady's house might be

disastrous. how will I politely

turn down her request? that's

one of my problem. I don't

know how to politely turn

down a lady's request. I always

agree to all their request, no

matter what it cost me.

"do you accept my invitation?

she asked

"okay" I nodded

"thanks very much I'm really

grateful." she said

"okay" I responded

"I can see you were busy

before I came. let me leave

you, so that you can continue

with what you are doing" she

said

"okay" I responded

she stood up, carried her bag

and left.

I couldn't continue with what I

was reading. I parked my

books and left the class. I went

straight home to prepare

myself for the dinner in order

not to embarrass myself in her

house....