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11. Messed Up

The next morning, I woke up with a stuffed-up nose and my throat hurt. I wouldn’t be going to school like this. Not being able to breathe well having a panic attack was bad enough, I wouldn’t be able to catch my breath if I couldn’t breathe through my nose. I opened my eyes and they adjusted to the darkness of Ryan’s room, it was too early to get up for school anyway. Ryan was asleep, I shifted over closer and kissed his lips, I didn’t care if I was sick. I wanted to be with him as much as I could because I knew this couldn’t go on forever.

Ryan opened his eyes and kissed back. He put his hand up to my face and rubbed my cheek with his thumb. Our noses brushed together. I closed my eyes, and felt his breath on my lips, His hands moved to run through my hair. I felt his closeness, his gentleness, his strength, his hesitation and when I opened my eyes again I could see his pain, love, kindness, and compassion in his icy blue eyes.

“Are you okay?” I ask Ryan.