I’m Sorry.

I haven't slept in about four days I am also very sorry for not uploading or at least telling you guys I wouldn't be able to make any chapters.I was taking programs stem clubs test and I I'm not even apart of that school anymore why do I have to keep in track of the student council.So I give my sincerities apologies.I'm on the bus but if I were to sit down then I would fall asleep and who knows what could happen to me I have such a delicate body I could die if I were to go through something outrageous because I can and would get myself in a position where I were to die and it'd be so amazing the feeling of pain in my last moments and I would say Fuck yes I finally am going to die all this time I've been waiting.Well that sounds a bit weird but I am not a masochist more of a sadist yet if I were to dress up as someone else I could hurt myself and enjoy it.Ah now that I think about I never truly did explain the other reason which is I have insomnia I've had it since I turned about four but before that I would sleep all day without making a sound which worried my Mother aunts and uncle since I was small like about three to five pounds so it was hard for them to find me quite often.Well all that aside I do believe I have to tell you guys this you see I had not pressed my little siblings school clothes because Mother said they should learn how to press yet I press all her clothes but okay and what's unbelievable was when I was pressing me and Mothers clothes she had the audacity to say "WHY AREN'T YOU PRESSING YOUR LITTLE SIBLINGS CLOTHES YOU CAN'T EVEN DO THAT FOR YOUR LITTLE SIBLING YOU FUCKING BITCH SELFISH AS ALWAYS GO PRESS THEM SINCE YOUR ALREADY PRESSING."Like what the fuck your the one who said I shouldn't and now that you see they don't have any responsibility for it your pushing it on me like if I were to be washing the dishes and finished all of it everything's packed up and cleaned up but they haven't finished eating so I tell them to clean up after themselves when they're done since I had a lot of homework to do.BUT THEY DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING THAT LITTLE SHIT and I was put to blame for not cleaning up properly I knew I was hated before they were born and before Mother never took any liking to me but it's just got worse since she's adding favoritism and I'm dead last maybe not even on her list.Well it's spoiled milk but they just have been spoiled there nice enough to wish me a happy day when I leave and they do help once in a while and also is one of the only ones that can realize I'm almost at my limit.