#002 Chapter II The Pit Feeling

I sit in the corner of my room in the ninth heaven and allow the pit feeling in my stomach to consume me.

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I awake with a start. I'm in a darkly decorated room and I feel like my body is on fire. I feel that a part of my soul is missing and gone. As an Immortal I shouldn't be in pain I think. I find myself bound by the Immortal cuff and last nights terror races through my mind.

I feel a hand wrap around my waist and hold my other hand. I could feel his aura, his breathing, and I could feel all of last nights events all over again. Repulsed and scared I feel sick, I fight to throw Mr. Xu away from me but to no avail. My movements make his hold tighten.

When I regain consciousness Mr. Xu is holding me in his arms. He realizes I have reawoken and he pulls me into a kiss before he looks at me brightly smiles and then Mr. Xu's face flickers and he collapses, and the Immortal cuff disappears.

I attempt to free myself from Mr. Xu's grasp and wake him up. He moans and groans as his body goes erect by the sheer closeness of us. Mr. Xu is no longer controlled by another entity and I manage to seperate myself from his hold.

I flee immediately back to my home in the mortal realm and go to my hot spring of purity. I plan to end my time in the mortal realm. In order to put up a face that I was fine as well as allowing me to return to the Heavens I decide on a plan.

I begin thinking about going into hiding. I'm lost and confused but I'm not raised a quitter I tell myself as dying plays it's way through my mind. I had been raped, robbed of my purity, and by a mortal puppet not even by the actual entity. I know I will need time and that it will take me time to ever be okay but for now I need to keep moving.

I desperately wanted to throw myself into giving a new line for the next month. All though it hurt, I requested a month of sick leave at DHDJ Stidios after working as long as possible for days straight. I decide to visit a mortal doctor named Soru Mal for my reason of sickness to be cleared, she works with my Immortal doctor named Wei Hong Ye who was an old family friend and a nine tailed fox, I call him Uncle Ye. I leave them to do all the necessary paper work after I provide them with a blood sample so that the report can be built on a real tid bit.

I decide to return to my home of birth. I was given life in the Peach Blossom forest of Zheng Zhi. That is where I want to set myself for recovery. In the Heavenly Realm time moves slower. A day in the Mortal Realm was a couple hours in the Heavenly Realm. I spend the first part of my time in the Heavenly Realm bathing in the Healing Hotsprings of the Nine Tailed Fox Clan.

I was soaking in the Healing spring and self repairing my primordial spirit when I discover a part of my soul had truly been destroyed. My soul's true form is a golden peach blossom and it has five petals, but now one of my petals is missing. I decide to hide my discovery and use my spiritual true form, which is a phoenix like my mother. In my phoenix form my coloration is white with gold tipped feathers like my wings in my human form. My father is a dragon with scales of gold with white details which explained my odd coloration as a phoenix. I flew in a quick circle shaking off excess water before I teleport to the Ninth Heaven of the Heavenly realm, it is high time for me to greet my family before I am able to return to the mortal realm.

I enter the Ninth heaven in hopes of seeing anyone else but my parents or siblings. When I return to my human form I find my Eldest brother Nian Xin Shen sulking the corridor that leads to the Great Hall. He sees me and smiles a sad smile at me. I'm feel shame cloud my mind and push it away as I approach him.

"My dearest little sister!" he calls as he rushes to hug me then inspect me. Great I think to myself, someone who knows, will know, or will be able to tell something happened. "I saw what happened to you in the mortal realm," he confesses. I shake my head at him as his mention of the events causes them to replay in my mind generating an awful pit feeling like I'm drowning in the black abyss.

"I came to recover Brother," I say feeling like at any moment I could die of mental and internal pain. He holds my shoulders and gives me a solemn look.

"I know who did it, I saw the Fifth King of Hell orchestrating the Seventh King of Hells reincarnated body," He says without pause. "The Demon Realm is planning to revolt and defeating you was just a game in the Fufth King's eyes. He stole one of your petals to torment you," he explains. "The Demon Realm knows you are going to be in charge and that you keep the peace between us brothers without Mother or Father," he finishes. I was passed news that my hunch was correct and I know that in the next month our parents would experience rebirth and a mortal trial.

I had lingered in the Heaven healing myself for almost two mortal weeks.

"Thank you," I answer to my brother. I now know who, where, and why. With the information from my brother I can tell that I am going to be a larger target from now on. It isn't new or rare to be targeted by the Demon Realm but this time it weighed heaviest on my shoulders. I know I would need to cultivate faster to get myself to High Immortal sooner so that I can better protect my world, my family, and my life. "Brother I know what to do, tell our parents that I am coming back," I explain as I wave my goodbye and return to the Mortal Realm.

I return to the mortal realm a week later than I planned. I go to work early and submit extra work to the Studio. I used things I wish happened instead of the events that truly transpired to make a collection of lupine flower and feather prints with unique night wear and some pieces with flare and a few that allowed a wearer to look sexy without wearing less. I was unsure about whether or not I would participate in the next show of my line as I didn't want to be on stage where I faced a heightened chance of running into Xu Jin. Even though the events that transpired might not have been mortal Xu Jin's fault it was still very hard to see him.

Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice Xu Jin waiting outside my office nor did I notice that when I closed the door Wei Hong Ye appears. I was attempting to calm myself down when I look up and see Wei Hong Ye. I jump back, bump into the sofa, and throw my files in the air very gracefully. Wei Hong Ye laughs slightly through his sad face, it holds a befallen look like someone important had died, making me embarrassed and confused. I quickly gather myself and greet him.

"Uncle Ye! what a surprise, come to deliver some hot news I imagine," I say returning to my messy papers. When I look to him his face falls and then I too finally register the aura of Xu Jin. I look at the door of my office and become still as a statue and feel a sinking feeling like a deer in headlights.

"My young niece," Uncle Ye says as tears seem to brew in his eyes. He continues, "Young Nian Bai Miao, you are pregnant." he lets out with a depressed tone. I almost laugh at his words as they skate through my brain not seeping in, but then I really hear what his words are. I fall to the floor. I look up at him crying silent tears. He too seems to start crying, "I know what happened and I know this isn't what you need but it is true even if it is early, I can tell you this though," he pauses gathering his words, "This child might die naturally, given that the father is a being of the demon realm. But this child has you for a mother so it might survive," Uncle Ye explains. I sit dumbfounded and lost. I have never considered having a child before at least my Twenty Thousanth year of life and definitely not a child born to my Immortal form.

"Why does this happen to me?" I whisper in absolute despair. I look at the door and decide to deal with mortal Xu Jin before I leave the Mortal Realm. I might as well deal with all undesirable things now. I beckon my head to the window and Uncle Ye teleports away. I stand up and brush myself off, I never used much makeup before but I do my best to create an emphasized false smile. I open the door and pretend to be surprised by seeing Xu Jin. I stiffly invite him in wondering what else he wants.

"Hello again. Please allow me to get straight to the point, I know we slept together the other day and I think we should take responsibility for our actions," Xu Jin says as he begins to place things on my desk and then swings me into himself. I can't fight him because he is mortal but I also can'tpush him away as the events that had transpired trap me in my mind. "I think you owe me a wife and I owe you a husband. Marry me. I will take responsibility for our actions," he says pointing to a marriage contract in front of me. I feel vile and bile rises in the back of my throat as he shuts the door leaning into me. "I can give you a refresher if you'd like," he teases pulling me roughly against his hips. He knows about 'sleeping together' but apparently not the very illegal circumstances to it.

Mortal Mr. Xu has awful thoughts and begin to take advantage of the privacy of my office, as he proceeds to force himself on me the Seventh King of Hell is being released into his reincarnation.

My face blanks as my mind screams for me to leave and my whole being wishes to be back in the Heavenly Realm. "I had you in my arms the morning after and you looked like you belonged there with me, you fit so perfectly in my embrace, and we already slept together, responsibly must be taken," he pushes the marriage contract to me after he slips my dress back on me and redresses himself.

"Is that what you truly think?" I ask venom dripping from my voice that he seems to deflect. Arrogance, I concluded, he is arrogant of the true nature of these events. As I kill him in my mind, he pulls out a ring and kneels down in front of me. I can't handle it and I know there was more to this man than even he knew. "You are serious," I almost cry in anger and sigh hopelessly, wishing I could run away to be anywhere else. "No I will not," I respond coldly wrapping myself into a ball. He had the aura but I had never actually interacted with the man to understand why his aura was so repulsive. I turn my back to him and something seems to snap in his anger.

I had just cracked an invisible barrier that was holding the Seventh King of Hell at bay and I feel Xu Jin's aura surge, I also feel a massive chill. I turn and face where Xu Jin was but standing there now was the Seventh King of Hell standing with ice all around him. "Woman you shouldn't have released me," Xu Jin said and began to swell up and cackle manically. He stops and pauses, in his mind he saw his reincarnation being controlled by the Fifth King of Hell and what happened. "Raebus!" Xu Jin seems to curse. He looks down at me and his eyes glimmer. I observe him, his increased height, his even more muscular build, his long silvery hair, and his eyes of blue flames. "I robbed you, Nian Bai Miao of the Heavenly Realm, and now you posses a part of me in your womb," Xu Jin says making everything feel so much more awful by pointing at my belly. I feel evil for hoping that the fetus would prove incompatible with my body.

It seems that my thought occurrs to Xu Jin and he stares at me. Instinctively I draw up my sword named Castiel and was about to plunge it into my flesh to cleanse my body of any traces of demon filth. Xu Jin stops me and instead teleports us to his home in the Demon Realm. My magic falters in the Demon Realm and Xu Jin takes advantage of it by knocking my sword from my hand.

"You wish to rid yourself of such a powerful child? I see no reason why I should allow you to kill my child either, we should celebrate the conceivement of my first offspring. Don't you agree?" Xu Jin says as he drags me to his bed and proves that it wasn't him the first time, nor was it truly him the second time, and that I had truly been lucky during those first assaults. He ravages me for what feels like forever until I'm so defeated and close to death that I am teleported to the ninth heaven by my parents and brothers who could feel my life fading.

I awake in the ninth heaven after being healed by all of my family members. I am visited by several doctors and told that the fetus I carried was reinforced and protected by the Seventh King of Hell. I hear from the people who serve me that the Seventh King of Hell would take the name Xu Jin now because I called him it many times and that he sends out proposals for me to be his wife to every kingdom reachable by the four winds and the six directions. The pit feeling returns and I order everyone to go away.

I sit in the corner of my room in the ninth heaven and allow the pit feeling in my stomach to consume me. I become numb and contemplate ways to rid myself of my tainted body and decided to face my Heavenly trial for advancement to High Immortal in the last hopes that the holy bolts of lightning could rid me of at least the evilness that surrounded the innocent child I carried, if it could not remove the demonic part of its spirit, at least the lightning should be able to purify me and my unborn child.