The Pain

In a small town, three people live between darkness and light, complete darkness, dominated by dark, strange and lonely thoughts, unexpected shocks exploited by the destructive souls of people, and a radiant light full of joy, love and reassurance

A traitorous father who takes advantage of opportunities, his heart is cold at times, and he does not know who to love and who to hate, and who to leave and who to hold on to.

And a sick mother who fights for a living, predator for the sake of the one she loves, her passion kills her, even herself complains about her and sometimes regrets it.

And a spoiled, narcissistic, rich daughter who does not love anyone, even herself. Her frankness is strange. The dream of her life is to become a doctor and exploitative like her father, and her nightmare is poverty.

It is possible for a person to change just by another person, and a person can also regret the most intense regret for a simple decision he made, and he considers it a joy and joy for him, and the other can be exploited, leading to his worst fears and remaining in the dark throughout his life, lost without a guide, and love sometimes leads to forgetting a person Himself becomes like a corpse that only follows the one he loves and people can take advantage of him.

Can a person liberate himself from all this or remain as he is in his different nature and kill himself from within the decision is in the hands of each person and sometimes your decision is at the hands of someone else Life is difficult not as easy as we imagined when we were children Talk to yourself only Can To be talking to yourself or to someone else entirely why we are like this.

Chapter 1

The last thing I saw was the alarm pointing to midnight before I saw myself sleeping on an old bed with a torn lid all over the place, and water drops coming in from the ceiling until I woke up relieved it was a nightmare I got up from my luxurious bed to walk around my father's palace like a princess, and it was my nightmare that one day I would come and lose all my possessions, all my wealth I was afraid to experience the feeling of being poor...

I wake up one morning with a hot cup of coffee, and my servant's car is waiting outside to drive me to college everyone in college knew me, and I don't know why I hated them not all people loved me i was such a narcissist I hated someone who criticized me, and I hated everyone who loved me, and who hated me, because I thought everyone was the same person with interests and exploiters every day, people hate me more and more, and I don't know why my ambition in school was to become a doctor, and I was overreading myself, not because I loved her, not because of my ambition, but because of my fear of being poor...

My father was rich, my mother was poor, he knew her in school, and charmed by her beauty he married her and gave birth to an incomparable jewel of beauty, which is me My father owned his fortune because he was one of the biggest traders in the country he was respected by everyone And my mom used to help him with the job until one day the Rich Party gathered all the rich people of the country in a lavish place unfortunately, my mother was ill that day My dad took me only to that party, got in the middle of the night from that party, and I was sitting with myself because I wasn't social so I could see my father from a distance with a woman who was hugging him until he went to him And I heard from the door crack, Dad said "Don't worry, honey, I gave my wife the medicine at home and she won't come here" That was the shock of my life I ran to my mother until I told her, she told me "Go to sleep. This is none of your business. Thanks for telling me I went to bed last night I'm afraid my mother will get sicker Mom waited for Dad till morning, woke up with screaming coming from downstairs, and suddenly the screaming stopped And my father came out of the palace he went to my mom in a hurry and she told me in tears " what do we do now " ...

And the next day heard the news my mother divorce and my dad came in and said "now you and your daughter get out of my house and you won't take anything from my property" I was in shock, paralyzed for a moment, cold, and even my lips didn't move my mother and I went out of the palace, and from that day on, my father never asked about my mother, and going to my old grandfather's house where my mother grew up It was the house that you saw in my nightmares when I was sleeping that came true I was afraid to go to college and people would find out what happened to me, I was upstairs, and suddenly, one day and a night, I was poor my mother went to work to fetch food for her, and every day I slept on a sea of tears...

I went back to school after a long time, but I didn't tell anyone I was poor They were asking me where I was while you were gone I haven't answered anyone and one day a new guy came to me, studied with us, and he was one of the richest people, and he would always laugh and talk to anybody He went to get to know him, we went out, we met, and from that day on, we were friends the day came when I knew he loved me I had some ideas about using his wealth to get back rich greed overwhelmed me with a fear of poverty I started flirting with him and confessed to him my fake love He promised to marry me a year later I told my mother, and it was my mother's intention to get married, to live my life, to get out of poverty and it was my intention to come back rich, just cold hearted and he loved me we got married A few days later, my mother died because of poverty That was the worst day of my life that day my husband found out about my exploitative reality And yes, the same thing happened to my mother happened to me and now I'm alone in Grandpa house I can't go out because I don't want people to know what happened to me All my dreams and future evaporated and all my nightmares came true.

Chapter 2

Two years ago on a quiet spring night with the sounds of a light wind

In a city known for its murderous thieves and ruthlessness...

I was talking to myself, I felt as if I was talking to someone else, and with a short time passed, I became as if I was sitting with people whispering from the other right from the left and the last word to me

"Why did I change with my relatives? Is it because they treated me?"

"No, no, but your way of speaking and your behaviour."

I don't know if these are other people's whispers or am I talking to myself Am I going crazy Maybe I feel like an old old woman with gray hair and wrinkles on the face She heard weak and her nine grandchildren are slurring to speak Also, like a mental patient, his worries increased in his life, until he became like a madman, talking to people who do not have a feeling that is very frightening. So far, I do not know who is talking. Is it me? Are other people or other people talking about me while I am sitting in a terrible darkness

That's the feeling I've been feeling lately, or maybe since we left our first home a year and a half ago. I don't know for how long I'm like this I want to do something to stop him, but my other half says I just want to sit with my father and mother until my death I don't want anything else, maybe I really realized that I was lost ....

Two years ago, on a quiet spring night with the sounds of a light wind, I heard a strong voice coming from my father and mother's room, and after a few moments I heard a light crying sound. I was terrified and went to check the source of the sound Is it real or am I obsessive and the thoughts I had at the time were as if I was sick, all thoughts are dark I wish I hadn't sat in my bed thinking I wish I had gone and realized the matter And after a few moments I saw my mother being pulled from the door, full of blood, and my father stabbed in the heart, and all my father's wealth was stolen by thieves And the house started burning, I couldn't move from my place, I felt paralyzed, it was a strong shock for the crumbs of that age I went to the street to relax until all the neighborhood came out to help me and did not catch the thieves .

This is me. I am an orphan girl at the age of 19 without home. My parents passed away two years ago in a robbery, and now I work in the market, sewing clothes and I slept at the tailoring store a week after that incident. My neighbor spoke to me to help him with his work. He was working in the liquor store and my working time was from afternoon until midnight, I worked in that shop every day with remorse Even on the fifth day, my drunk neighbor came to me and said strange and obscene words. This was my chance to clear my conscience to be terrified of that work I stayed on the street crying while I was hungry An old woman came to me with a sewing shop I have been working there until now, and in the early morning in the spring, and on the third anniversary of the death of my father and mother, I did not go to work in a shop.

I went to their graves to tell them how much I miss you and how much I suffered and my life was destroyed after you left .

I went back to the shop and suddenly one of the biggest merchants in the town came and offered me to sew the quantity he wanted and for an attractive amount and he explains to me how much the money is and how he wants to sew I was looking into his bright eyes and his black hair like silk and the scent of perfume. He was in his twenties.

I moved my eyes left and right, and I wanted him to be my support. The first time I looked at someone with these looks, I was amazed by his beauty and the way he spoke I told him I agreed without hearing his conditions. I worked with him for a year until I fell in love with him and even he and we got married I survived the torment in which I was, we gave birth to a beautiful and sweet baby girl, and I promised her that she would not go through what I went through and my suffering with life, but this promise did not last long This is me in my mother's old hut, sick with one of the most serious diseases with my daughter who is studying at the university. I don't have much left to die. I hope for my daughter to find someone to support her.

Chapter 3

It was a hot summer day with clear skies, and it was one in the afternoon when I finished my work I work with my dad in the market Since I was fifteen and now I'm in my twenties On our way home, I saw an old man with a thick chin, as if he was seventy-five With his long cane and the wrinkles covering his face as he walked, I went to him to cross the street with him until he said

"Son, please stay alone all your life and get yourself into trouble."

I thought he was crazy and maybe he's fapping because he's so old .

I came home with my dad and the days passed Until my father and I became one of the largest merchants in the town, but my father became old and sick A few days later, I was in the market and heard the news of my father death He was my only support My mother did not see her died on the day of my birth .

In my room with the clock ticking and relaxing by the sounds of pigeons and bells I heard the knock on the door and opened to find someone from one of the largest merchants in the town A friend of my father heard of his death and wanted me to work with him The days passed with hard and difficult work, as if I had been in a war that lasted all these years until I bought a palace and became rich I had a project, and this project needed a tailor. I went to the big market and asked the sellers, and they sent me to a skilled seamstress in the market Everyone talks about her as if she was a queen. You only hear about her from what people said. She started to get jealous of her, because everyone in the city and those in the market asking him about her starts talking about her and her beautiful work. I felt jealous And at the same time with joy because of working with her after searching for her, I found her and spoke to her and was shocked by her beauty She really is a queen who tells stories about them Do my eyes believe what you see, and do I convince myself that I am on the ground of reality and not in a dream? Her short hair, bright hands and little face like a boy I just wanted to look at her all day but I didn't show her that I sat explaining to her how to sew a project and how it's done.....

And after she started working for me, our relationship developed until she became my wife. I loved this woman more than anything. She was the most beautiful person I knew in my life She helped me in my work and brought me back to the right path. I wish I knew her before everything. She was the first love of my life for me, but not the last for me....

On a cold winter's night, my wife was sick with a disease I had never heard of in my life. I was afraid to lose her. That was the hardest night of my life, and she used to tell me

"Will you stay with me forever while I'm like this?"

And I kept repeating it several times, when I hear it, it gives me a painful feeling

And one morning my wife's best doctor came He told me she has many diseases and her medicine is a lot. I didn't know what to tell him and what to do with my wife. I started saying I wish I didn't even know her and at the same time I say I will stay with her until the end.

A year has passed and my wife's condition is getting worse and my daughter was asking for a lot from me and I can't say no to her and I'm losing a lot in trade I didn't know what to do Even once I met a beautiful woman who was blonde and her father was a friend of mine in a business I spoke to her and it was a wonderful feeling I felt as if my mother was asking me about my work and how it started, and even she gave me some of her money to help me with the rest of the work I loved her from the way she spoke and everything from her after many words she said

"I have a party tomorrow, the biggest merchant in Town."

She gave me an invitation and on that day my wife was back to normal and recovered, but I can't take her to the party I wanted to meet that woman, I had an idea and gave my wife a sleeping pill and she slept in her bed and took my daughter to the party And I took my daughter to the party. My daughter didn't talk to people and stayed where she was Let me go and take a chance and talk to the other woman Until my daughter followed me and saw me with her and went to tell my wife at home I slept with this beautiful woman and woke up in the morning and said goodbye to her To go home, and then I came back and found my wife at a door, and that was the first fight between me and my wife But I did not regret it, because all my money and wealth went to my wife's medicine, and the rest was taken by my daughter. I decided to expel my wife and daughter from the house, and after a few days I married another, but my joy did not last long But my joy did not last long. That was the worst idea and the worst person I had ever known. I wish I had stayed with my poor wife and daughter. Then I left her and married that woman. I found out that she wanted to take advantage of me I took all my wealth, even my palace, and now I'm back to zero, no work, no money, and so that I can go back to my wife and daughter because I don't know where they went, and now I deeply regret my actions. Where am I who I was telling my wife

"I won't leave you no matter what, I just want you by my side"

What happened to me How did this happen How can I fix this I would go crazy because I left my family my daughter and my wife I have always loved her so much as I loved my mother who I did not see I wish he would come back and stay with them.

Chapter 4 The end

I did not go to university today. I hated everything. I have strange thoughts and whispering voices, and my father since that day has not seen him. I just want to sleep forever and die rather.

I don't know what to do now that all my wealth is gone and I left my wife and daughter