CH185: Reborn

"Where were you?" Ella asks me as I enter the bedroom I offered her if she wish to live in this mansion, kinda like an apartment of it own in this huge-mansion, and looking at this beauty, with only a bra and an open-skirt on her body, crossing her legs, showing me she got nothing under the skirt, while licking her lips seductively, I answer "In the wrong place it seems" as I go toward her.

... Partying all over the mansion, we run around, having excitement after another, as she model new clothes every time, just so I could rip it apart again, making love, doing sex, having intercourse, screwing her over, exploring the whole spectrum of sexual relations all around the mansion, till she fall asleep, yet again, in the middle, but this time after a wild few hours.

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"Ayn, why me?" Ella asks me the moment she comes to the kitchen to eat breakfast, sitting next to me, and I pour her a cup of coffee, filling a plate with lots of things, not sure what she prefer yet, and I tell her "Fate".

"What fate? You believe in fate? And why are you so good in .. bed .. Do you really have a wife?" she respond, and I smile, correcting her "Wives, yeah, never lied to you", and she smirk, saying "fuck you", so I pull her to my lap, throwing the blanket she cover her naked body with, playing with her body, 'warming her up', as I whisper "Fuck you indeed", hearing her giggle cutely, as we begin making slow-love while eating breakfast.

... "Fate?" she suddenly say as we cuddle on a huge sofa, watching the city'-view, and I ask back "What's the difference between 'fate' and 'luck'?", and she think a bit before answering/questioning "They're the same?.. Depends on what I believe?.. Both are out of my control, but while luck is random.. Fate is dictated by what suppose to happen?..".

"If someone do nothing - 'Fate' will happen. 'Fate' rule the passive, but, 'Fate' put it in our paths, like, 'Fate' dictated we will meet, but 'Fate' didn't dictate we should be together, we can just the same say it's 'Fate' we should never meet again, or maybe, it's 'Fate' that from today on you'll be my woman... 'Fate' left us a choice, but 'Luck', 'luck' is the outcome of various options, 'luck' is an already-defined-result, or a spectrum of results, assuming there is no choice... People are too oblivious, thinking it's the opposite of what it is... 'Luck' means random, 'Fate' means choice, that's why people 'Fight their Fate', but never 'Fight their Luck', cause, you can't go against luck, but you can go against Fate" I talk slowly, discovering my own thoughts on the issue.

<Ayn, that was... ; Awesome ; Beautiful ; ...> Yuena, and following her, the girls, find it inspiring, enjoying my blubber, and it seems Ella as well, as she mumble to herself "...Fight against fate, but luck is just luck...".

"So Fate?, because I chose to be with you, but also.. Luck?, because you will choose if you want to be with me... In another verse, we can also say 'Luck' is just humans being too stupid, like.. Rolling a dice. If you could calculate the speed, angles, etc, you would know the result, right? But we're too stupid, so we call it 'Luck'..." I continue on, but she's already floating in her own mind, thinking about her future, and I let her do as she pleases, not wishing to control her, kinda enjoying this passive-'fear', as if she can just go away any second, but on the other hand, can stay with me forever.

"Dear, take this.." I say as I give her a credit-card, "..You can use it freely, oh, and the girls gifted you a car in the garage, but I'm not sure about the licence, so check it out, or just take one of the other cars..".

"Where are you going? What car?" she asks, and I tell her "Visit my dead mother grave, promised my father I'll do so soon, and planned it already... A pink jeep, or a hammer, not sure about the firm.. Oh, and security here is absolute, so don't bring anyone here without calling me first, there's hidden security outside, but the house is empty, so feel free to whatever..".

"But... I..." she mumble with words, as I tell her "Just do whatever you want? Few trucks with things will come-by later, so just guide them, oh, here..", I give her a stack of cash, "..Tip them, and make sure they unpack it in the right places, plus, the horses.. Just let them run freely around, I'm not even sure what they eat, so maybe make sure they'll bring enough food for them, plus bed, dunno, your call, I'll probably be back by tomorrow anyway...", I *kiss* her, and go to 'change clothes', but she keep following me, unsure, making me smile shyly.

"Why do you even trust me? You seem too smart to act like you do?" she asks as she *hug* my arm, not letting me change clothes, and realizing normal-society-humans are filled with insecurities, uncertainties, unneeded worries, kinda the first woman I meet who show me such strong dependency, finally realizing why the girls mocked me it's 'Asia'-complex', as I was kinda blinded by the outside self-image she held, but now she seems so much like her, and just *hug* her up, trying to think why Alison so different, or maybe she ain't, and I just can't see behind her outer-shells, but just focus on Ella for now, sitting back on the sofa.

She move up, sitting on the sofa'-back, dropping the blanket off of her, but hide her sensitive parts with her hands, teasing me, asking "won't you miss me?", and I run my hands over her, *kissing* her up her leg, watching her break apart her pony-tail, laughing sexually, and the moment my tongue reach her clit she grab my head with her two hands, shoving it in, moaning beautifully, lustfully, "Yes YEs YES.. MORE.. AHHHHH YNNNNN... Don't go.. Fuck Me.. Fuck Me.. AYNNNNNNN!!..".

A wild orgasm, leading to a sexy sofa doggy-style, quickly turn out for a full course love making session, and she now sit on my lap, riding me, or more like dancing on my lap, while I massage her whole body, raining kisses, enjoying her body, even brushing her hair, putting a fabric-head-bow on her, jewelries, and more than anything, having orgasms, together, who first come as hailstorm, then rain, but now, like snow, softly landing on us.

... *Kiss*, I put Ella back to bed, exhausting her, and after leaving her a note, promising to come back as soon as I can, making sure she got a ready delicious lunch, I *teleport*.

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At my father'-house, arriving to the forest edge, going through it, toward the sakura-tree-hill, where my mother'-grave is, once I'm near, I send my energies to the trees, helping them bloom fully, before climbing to the top of the hill, helping the highest sakura-tree to grow bigger, rain so much flowers, the hill painted pinkish-white, while my sight to my mother'-grave.

"Hmmm... Hello.. Mother.. It's weird to talk out loud, but, I'm not alone anymore, and as you're not here, there's others who can hear me... Wh... Eh... I... Thank you for giving birth to me. Life is beautiful, with all included, and maybe in the near future you'll be a grandmother, hehe, a dead one, ah, I guess I have some resentment left in my heart... I will die before I'll let my children grow without a mother, and I hope you girls hear it clearly..." I stop talking, and instead, start letting the girls out.

*Hug..Kiss..Hug..Kiss..* the girls come outside one after the other, and the whole vibe completely change, and with it, they start putting picnic-blankets, laying down food, drinks, etc, and the whole thing turn to a lovely-lively event, which is kinda natural, with how beautiful and romantic the place is.

Feeling the emptiness, on the verge of melancholy, or maybe beyond it, as it's the nothingness, like the number "0", which is nothing, but it's a number, so how can nothing be a number? It can't, it's nothing, but I still feel there's something, that empty space in the middle, the 'Me' inside that empty-space, surrounded by the limits of my own, I ignore what happens around, and focus on that imaginary limits who circle 'Me'.

In this 'Nothingness', which is my 'Everything', more than a mere meditation, more than a clear-mind, I'm like a soul who went to a different dimension, or rather, it's in the center of every possible dimension, like the whole universe is just a dot, I arrive to a waiting-line, asked by the nothingness-clerk "Who are you here for?", and I think "God?", seeing people waiting in the line, pointed up, realizing I'm in a 'tower-like' place, climbing up, and the same thing happened, asked "Who you came for?", and I think "God?", and pointed up, another floor, and another, and another, till I'm told "Come back in 4 months", and sent back.

'What was that?' I think, feeling my heart beating, nothing else, seeing, yet not processing it, hearing, yet the sounds just 'pass through' me, trying to control my body, yet can't, for a time who can be an hour, or just few seconds, not even aware about the existence of time, till I'm just there, back in 'reality?'.

"Ayn?" the girls asks me, as I look right and left, in a blank-stare, trying to digest what happened, with tears filling my eyes, yet with no sadness, nor happiness, divulge of emotions, yet feel no emotion, thinking '4 months...', and slowly return to conscious.

"Ayn?" the girls keep calling me, beginning to panic a bit, and I beam a shocked smile, still digesting the experience I just felt, saying "How long was I...", and just drop the question, with a clear feeling of cleanness, a purity, an inside peace, like that 'Nothingness' Iv'e been at, as an anchor-point from inside me that I can always go into.

"Ayn?" the girls question me, and I fall down, lying on the blanket, and my mouth say "Hug me", as I close my eyes, going into my 'Nothingness', and I'm sitting outside a door, waiting in line, after two others, but we're not speaking, just waiting, in this 'Nothingness-tower', and I close my eyes there as well, beginning to explore this state, yet too scared to explore, just open back my eyes, watching what's happening around me, hearing gossips, chats, others moving around, mostly from the lower-floors, awaiting in a floor I precept as the '68' floor.

... "I...", 'I...', even my thoughts ain't function as I 'wake-up', like I wasn't asleep, as I was just a soul, somewhere, and just drop it off, trying to act 'normal me', but I'm not sure who's the 'normal me', and finally speak, saying "I think I need some time".

"Why?", "What happened?", "Are you okay?", "What is it?", the girls rain questions, checking out my body, and all I can say is "I think I was reborn...", not sure how to explain it in any other words.

"Reborn?", "What does it mean?", "I think something happened, maybe give him some time? Come, I'll show you the house", "Wanna see Ayn'-pictures from childhood?" Robin and Mia lead everyone to the house, leaving me here alone, realizing I need some time alone, and I go into meditation.

In a pure-meditation-state, clear, empty, pure, floating like I'm floating in an empty white space, my surrounding circulate, like energy in it purest form, like an engine, and in a mere breath I'm asleep.

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'It's like nothing happened, yet it's like nothing ain't the same anymore...' I try to understand the feeling I'm having, but I can only see the outcome, where I can now know what's true, when I have answers to any question I can ask, only missing questions.

Walking toward the house, I find the garden is full with the girls, who's having a party, happy I'm awake, even if I feel some part of my soul ain't absolutely 'here', maybe for all of us, but differently from everyone, I can bring my whole soul into my body, while others have some part of themselves 'not here'.

<How high did you reached?> Infi question hit me in a bliss, answering 'Waiting in line, I think 68, but, how do you even know?', happy she's someone who can explain to me what I just experienced, but her soft giggle, hearing her say <Too high, why do you even want to reach that far?>.

'To meet god' I answer, and she exhale <WHY?>, so I ask back 'Dunno, where else would I find the answers?.. Wait, Iv'e got all the answers.. I'm missing the question, or questions, now... Then... Just to say 'Hello'..', and by the end I'm not sure, but I'm already in line, waiting there, having finally a question I do not have an answer to, 'If you already got all the answers, and you met god, what question would you ask him? What do I want? What does he want?..'.

"Ayn!", "Whohoo!", "Cool!", "I was worried it will be months, even years, after last time!", "Yeah, that was scary", "Scary?", "Worrying", "What happened?", the girls begin circling around me, questioning me what has happened, and I ask aloud "Infi, what happened to me?", and we all hear her say <Nothing, the real place, hmmm, imagine the place between the end and the start, that nothingness>.

"Any idea why?" I ask her, and she doesn't say a thing for few seconds, before shocking us, saying <That's where universal-souls go to when they die. Ayn, something happened, something I don't comprehend myself, but...>, and as she turn silent, I know she died, and in a special manner she had to be 'reborn', or just 'born', as Infinity, dependent of others, with fate bringing her to me.

"Ayn!", "Tell us something smart!", *Giggles*, the girls show lots of interest, and I smile, telling them aloud "Have you ever thought why people look at the 'Abyss'?.. I mean, if you can watch 'Hell', then you can also watch 'Heaven', and if you can gaze at 'Heaven', why would you ever watch the 'Hell', the 'Abyss'?... They are 'down there' because those from 'up there' made them stay there, and so, as you choose 'Where should I gaze?', well, 'Heaven'!".

"When you're watching the Abyss - you ain't watching Heaven!" I say with a smile, feeling I said something smart, whatever it means to them, and go sit down, trying to cope with my 'new me'.

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Partying, with the girls mainly touring around the house, which is empty, except for us here, I find Bibi Dong, wearing a dress without a bra underneath, exposed by her erected nipples, coming closer to her, seeing her sneaking a look aside, and following her eyes, I find the mamas-group chilling in the living-room, each with an outfit in a different color, yet all of them in sexy dresses, looking mesmerizing, true goddesses.

With my face, two hands, and dick, I'm like a one-man-band, playing four different instruments, hearing the ethereal music I'm creating, loving every bit of it, and the moment we reach the amazing peak of it all, their daughters appear, looking marvelous, the epitome of a man wishes, making me play a symphony, a one-man-orchestra.

... Going for a 'bath', as I saw few women already there, I'm welcomed by Monet, enchantingly beautiful, just like all the women here, enhanced by shiny jewelries, and exposing lingerie, and the moment Raki use water-element, creating a water-stream-tentacle to 'hide' her abundant chest, I laugh in joy, and make the whole water mine, as some even trying to 'run away', as the water streams just pull them all to me, playing with them, teasing them nonstop, as water-jet-pressure hit their sensitive parts, and a wild bath start right away.

For more than an hour the whole bath area announced as a 'Danger zone', as the girls having fun, acting like it's a horror-movie, or more like an action movie, R 18, called 'Big Bad water Dragon', and the joy we're feeling, that I'm feeling, is filling my body and soul to the brim with happiness.

... While having 'last round' with Renxue and Bibi, who in between making slow sexy love tell me the stories about the day they had in Infinity, the realization of the universe, and most of all, about them finding each other' point-of-view, thanks to me, and with the help of all the girls, but I just 'push' them to another peak, whispering "It's just the beginning, my loves" as we all cum together, and I'm sent away before I'll devour them again, meeting Alison waiting for me in the entrance, holding a towel, coming to wipe me out.

"Just say what you want, my love, really, how can you still act shy.." I tell her as I enjoy her careful loving a lot, yet confused by it, as she's more of a chill, playful, type, knowing there's probably something in her mind by the way she's acting so preserved, even though I find it charming, and show her that by kissing, hugging, and massaging her whole bare naked body.

"I want to...", "Sure", "Wait! I didn't said what I wanted!", "But I already agreed, Oh, You still need to tell me what it is, So we could do it", "Idiot!", Alison jump at me, 'drying' me off with her own body, and while we're flirting, I arrive to my bedroom, already full to the brim, with beds, and women on top of them all, ready for a lively pajama-party.

"My loves, let's make a short round of what we wish to do now. Maybe some of you wish to return, some wish to enjoy for a while more, some stay, some travel along with me... So... Who's got a plan she think everyone will want to join?" I say, as we all in this forum, and we've already finished all I planned to, except just 'being' with them, kinda wishing a day will come soon when we'll never be far from each other.

"Me, Ayn, and Alison got recording to do tomorrow! And then a show in the underworld in few days! Who wanna come?" Serafall announce, 'surprising' me, but I knew it's coming anyway, suddenly remembering I thought about shoving another plan in between, not sure if it was Erina'-family, Koneko'-family, or something else that skipped my mind.

"Marie.." Alison whispers to me as the girls begin chatting about this idea, as it seems we're all staying together for a few more days, with none planning to go back just yet, and make plans to visit many places, from Paradise, to Japan, USA, and few more locations, while the girls advertise to them what's so special about Earth.

"Sure, right now?" I whisper back, and she look puzzled, not sure how to answer, and I tell her "Whenever you want to.. Now, morning, whenever, my love", and she smile, *kiss* me, and go join the girls as she say "tomorrow morning!".

'Ain't I forgetting something?.. Ah, if it's that important, then I'll remember it.. What a beautiful sight!!!' I stop to think to gaze, and daze, in joy, watching my family' love, my lovers, beginning a fierce pillow-fight, wrecking havoc around my room, having a blast.