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The One With Apathetic Eyes

Ash has always been in pain. Random moments where pain burns into his body and blood rises to his mouth. His treatment at the hands of his mother, Delia, doesn't help anymore with the feeling of being burned inside out, he's grown numb to the pain given to him by his mother. Even as she treats him worth as he's grown to become like his dad according to his mother, he will never tell her how proud that makes him on days he can feel things again. He had ignored his interests for five years after the pain grew too much. Being forced to have a friend that forced themselves into his world was strange but it helped him ignore the pain for a while. Still he felt empty most days. The pain returned like it had been waiting for him with open arms when the friend that had forced themselves in forced themselves out of it. He welcomed it too he felt far to numb he missed his interests. But now he wonders how far his interests will take him. If he escapes his home and goes on a journey like many others will he find the cause of the burning, the boiling of his blood? Will he find his dad, the only family he ever loved? He wasn't sure but he had a feeling that as long as he was with his Pokémon everything would work out even if not in the way he believed. Join a different version of Ash Ketchum after growing up under the abuse of his mother and subject to a mysterious pain that seems to come and go randomly. Will ash learn the cause of his seemingly mysterious illness? Will he be able to escape the results of the abuse he's suffered? And will he find his beloved dad? This story will have bits of all types of relationships (meaning BL, GL, and just normal heterosexual or boy x girl). This is a fanfic I do not own Pokémon! Nor do I own any of the photos or videos that are shown in the fanfic. Some elements of this story come from the fanfiction Renegade by 0 Jordinio 0 on fanfiction.net This

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Chapter Three

As the morning moon began to fall toward the  horizon, Ash lay still on his bed. His body was on fire. Sadly he wouldn't know if it was due to the random bouts of pain generally followed by coughing fits of blood or the beatings of he took from his mother that caused it, before he left on his very own Pokémon Journey. But even then he was unsure if he'd ever know if the bouts of pain and coughing up blood were merely a side affect of his treatment at the hands of his mother.

As though to answer him he felt something rising up his throat and with a jolt he ran to the bathroom connected to his room. Before the sink he coughed violently into the basin, red liquid splattering across the white marble surface. Looking up at his reflection in the mirror as he prevented himself from coughing more instead swallowing what was coming up he looked at himself. He was a mess, purple bruised skin surrounded his right eye, dried blood sticking to his left ear and messy bed head black hair where his mother had been grinding her heel into his head. Blood slipping quietly down his chin from his mouth from the blood still left in his mouth. And his pale skin was a sickly gross white almost grey from the blood he had lost.

Deep ruby eyes trailed down to his fingers clutching the counter, recoiling at the disturbing sight of ten oddly bent and battered bloody fingers a sight that nearly brought phantom pain for what he hadn't felt fully in the act. Strangely as he stood before the mirror looking at the injuries that marked his body they felt numb. All he could feel was a burning fire in his chest that was spreading across his limbs and rising in his throat that made him fell like he was going to burn to death.

It was a feeling he had been experiencing since his dad left eight years ago. Yet still it never got any better, it always hurt and he didn't think it would ever stop not until he found the cause and even then he wasn't sure. With another glance at the mirror he shot a look at the Voltorb clock by his bed: 4:13 am.

He hummed. His mother wouldn't be up for another two hours. With a glance into the mirror he turned on the shower stripping himself of his clothes. He'd need to be quick extremely quick if he was going to grab everything he needed in the house and depart to the Professors before she woke.

Stepping into the shower took quite a bit of courage on his part. The water was like ice chillingly cold but it gave him a bit of relief as he was set on fire as another coughing fit began. Blood flowing down the drain. Biting his tongue he swallowed the rest of the blood threatening to come up, he couldn't let his fits last longer than ten seconds at home else his mother wakes up.

Without mind towards his mangled fingers he combed them through his hair not minding the sting he felt as soap was lathered on them. He worked carefully by his bloody ear careful not to cause harm to it as his hearing was of extreme importance. He rinsed himself until the water dripping off of him and into the drain was no longer cloudy with redness.

Bracing himself he got out shivering under a nonexistent breeze. Another glance at the clock read 4:48 am. He sighed at the precious minutes wasted in the longer then usual shower but a glance on the mirror proved it was worth it as his skin looked rosy hiding its sickly look due to the icy burn, his purple bruise faded a bit and with his hat would merely look like a shadow, and he no longer had blood in his hair or on his face, while his hair hid the cut above his ear. He looked good if he was to say so himself. Still...

He glanced down at his still mangled fingers. He'd have to wear gloves until he found a Pokémon at the Professors who could heal his fingers. There was no explanation for such injuries other then abuse, and he couldn't risk it. With a sigh he grabbed a new pair of clothes throwing them on before grabbing the hat his dad left him. Smiling in the mirror at the thought that he looked just like his dad except for his ruby eyes he quickly packed up his back and went down stairs quietly.

Raiding the kitchen of the sandwich essentials he cleaned up so it looked as though he was never present and left just as the clock struck 5:34 am. A sigh of relief escaped in as he climbed into the Professor's outside lab and into the forest to find his old spot.

And as he sat down at his favorite tree only then did his numb mask come on and the world dulled as he looked at the darkened sky filled with grey clouds. It was likely going to rain in the next few days. A heavy rain likely judging by the clouds.

He sat there the rest of the day reading though on occasions he played with Pokémon that came over to him. More then a few times he spotted a Pikachu glaring at him with distrust from the bushes. After a while he got up to start his search for a Pokémon to heal his hands but he was without luck and when the sky was dark he packed up and made his way home quietly climbing the house to get in through his window. He wouldn't let his mother know he disobeyed her and left the house.

Tired from the activity after such a heavy beating he lay down in bed, a strange feeling coming over him at the thought that he saw neither Mew nor Gary that day. Shaking it off wishing to return to the numbness he reached into his nightstand and pulled out a wrinkled paper.

He stared at it the same pain in his chest as when Gary broke their friendship returning. It was one of the last things he got from his dad a goodbye letter he left alongside the hat his dad would always wear. He had made sure his mother never saw either of the items afraid that she might get rid of them.

He loved his dad, more then he had ever loved his mother, even if he had left when he was merely two years old. He still remembered the quietness of his dad, how he rarely spoke but would always say his name and how warm he felt when he was holding him beside his large Charizard and of the Pikachu that was always on his shoulder. And as the numbness faded he found he didn't mind as much as he drifted off to sleep.