Deep Truth Within

"You seem different from the others who experience the same illness as Xavier. How come that you can be outside of the main body for such a long time? Because I'll be honest with you, I have known Xavier for quite a long time now. I have always kept you in check, and while observing you for the last three years, I have seen changes in Xavier's personality," he explained the reason how he knew about my existence.

"That's how I suspected that there is something unusual from you. And it turned out to be the truth, that you were imposing as Xavier. What did you do to Xavier? Where is he now? Why are you the one posing as the leading personality? Didn't you know that it is harmful to the main personality to be away from his body for a certain amount of time?" he added to his explanation.

"Let me clarify things for you. First, I am not imposing to be Xavier because I wanted to but because I needed to. Second, I have the same question myself. Where is Xavier? And third, if you were watching me for the last three years. Then you must have known that both of us tried to face off with Daku Mazuko, the current boss of the prison and a former mafia godfather of the major cities in Japan," I responded and informed him about the past situation.

"That doesn't explain where Xavier's personality is. Plus dont every alternate personality has its own unique name and different traits, but why don't you have one?" The question that left me asking myself why.

Maybe he is right, back to the basics again. I question myself about my existence. Everything feels like it's on repeat because why don't I have my own identity. Like what this officer had stated, every alternate personality has its own uniqueness. But why don't I have something that I can call my own? Perhaps, I don't really have a purpose.

The first time that Xavier and I met on that cliff, the first thing I thought was my purpose was to protect Xavier at all cost. Because he was the one who created me just to help him cope up with his lackings. However, as the years pass by, I start to ask myself what purpose do I really have?

Name or identity itself, I don't have it. Because I have been a failure ever since Xavier created me. He has stated himself that I am just a failure.

"To be honest, even I don't know why I'm different from the others. The reason that Xavier created me was because of the countless betrayals that happened to him. He wanted someone who can be strong, heartless, and brave. He made someone who can be the person who'll help him to live through the reality of the harsh world," my response to his question.

"However, I failed to be the person that he wanted. Maybe that's the reason why I don't feel that I deserve to have this opportunity. The opportunity to have my own identity," I added to the response I have answered his question.

"You know what? For the last three years that I have been friends with Xavier, I could certainly tell you that being someone cold-hearted is not his expertise. That kid may have been betrayed by a lot of people, and that resulted in the pain stuck in his heart. However, once you have been someone who Xavier thinks he can rely on. Then that is something you could be proud of," his answer to my response.

"You don't need a name to have your own identity. That is just something meant for others to call you, but the important thing that you can brand as your own is your attitude. Yes, you don't have a name. But who cares about those stupid things besides you can use Xavier's name. I know that Xavier would like that too, and you don't need to feel that you are worthless. Because from the moment that you decided to live as Xavier because of his absence, then that made you someone important to him," he added to his response.

I understand now why Xavier is friends with this person. He is right, and yes, I don't need to have a name to call myself unique. Because I am just another personality in Xavier's body. But from the moment that Xavier accepted me as one of his, I already gained the uniqueness and identity that I have always wanted.

There's no need for me to question my existence ever again just because I don't have a name. Because maybe Xavier gave me the trust to be the holder of his body in the meantime because he wanted me to experience the joy of living. Yes, I don't need anything anymore. The only thing I want now is for Xavier to return and to be treated.

As long as I am around, he will continue to rely on me to be someone who'll always be there for him. Soon, I'll be gone and be one with Xavier.

"I'm thankful for your words of encouragement. It definitely boosted my confidence in myself. I'll never forget what you have done for me because an alternate like me was given another chance of living because of your words. Now, I don't have to think of myself as someone pointless," I responded while slowly feeling emotional.

"Xavier would have done the same if I was the one who experienced that kind of thing. You are a part of the kid who I am looking after, and also you're the reason for him being able to face any hardships for the last three years, it is my duty to look after you as well. However, we must let you consult a psychiatrist regarding the sudden disappearance of Xavier," he stated as he handouts advice concerning the situation I have with Xavier.

"As far as my knowledge brings me if the dominant personality or the holder of the body disappears for a long time. It may harm the body or the owner himself, and it might result in its extinction. However, according to studies, it is possible to prevent it by using hypnotherapy. The choice is yours to make," he added to the advice that he stated.

"Will you choose to live Xavier's life? You can have your own identity, and you can own Xavier's identity and life. You will never again question your purpose in life because you live the life that you have always wanted. However, if you choose to be Xavier, then he will disappear permanently. It is up to you whether you want to undergo the therapy since it is you who has control over the body for the moment."

"You don't need to decide about it now, and I am only telling you the possible outcome of the choices you are bound to make soon," he added to his response.

"I don't even need to think about it twice because the choice that I'll choose is to undergo the therapy. But before I forget about this, the main purpose or the reason why I called you is that I need your help about something," I almost forgot the reason why I approached him.

Because of this old man, I almost forgot the goal that I have to succeed. However, I think it'll be hard to convince him to cooperate with me since it will be difficult for someone who is currently considered a newbie at the prison. Although from the looks of it, he already has a lot of experience in the Fuchu Prison. But not enough gathered information about Mazuko. So maybe it will still take a long time to finish everything.

If I would be able to persuade him to accompany me in this fight, then it will be done in no time.

"Oh, I forgot, why did you want to meet me? I'm sorry for the interruption, but I just wanted to know the truth about Xavier. So what is it that you want to discuss with me?" I knew it. He has already forgotten why I needed to see him.

"Do you know what happened three years ago when Xavier and I fought Mazuko?" I finally asked after hours of endless chatting because he found out the truth about Xavier's illness.

"How would I know when Xavier didn't tell me about that? I only know a thing or two about that encounter. Honestly talking, I was dead scared when I saw Xavier lift Mazuko, who is almost two meters tall easily. But why did you talk about that incident all of a sudden?" He explained, then asked.

"Three years ago, there was something that awakened from Xavier. A woman approached Xavier asking for help. And when Xavier helped the woman, it turned out that she was only betraying Xavier. At that moment, I was the one in control of the body. But when Xavier heard the true intentions of the woman, he claimed the spot."

"The Xavier that you saw that day was filled with hatred that it gave him strength. However, because of that, he planned to kill Daku Mazuko until something happened to him. I don't know what happened, but he just left me in control of the body and disappeared from that day up until now," I explained and told him the story.

"Then what is the connection of that story to the topic at this moment?" He asked, intrigued.

"We plan to take Daku Mazuko down," I responded and informed him of my motive.

"Surrender now while you still can because Mazuko already won without putting up a fight," his answer to my response.