Rotten Smell

The first thing I saw as I stepped out of the bathroom, with a towel around my waist was Damon sitting on the bed patiently waiting for me like the best husband he is.

He is wearing his all-black formal suit that hugs his muscled tall body perfectly while his hair is slicked to the back in the most elegant way out there.

Anyone can take a look at him and appreciate how calm, strong, and rich he is.

"You are so handsome, Damon." I don't know when that came out of my mouth, but I know how every time I compliment him, his heart races, and even his face blushes.

A true-blooded alpha whom a lot of people fear, both in work and the wolf-shifter realm, yet I'm able to make him blush like a little boy with one kiss or one word.

This does something to me.

" Thank you, my love. I got you your favorite flowers." After he gathered himself from the little compliment I gave him, he paced closer to me and gave me that big bouquet that he was holding.

I smiled when that beautiful smell of flowers reached my nose, " Thank you, can you put them in water for me while I get ready?"

Damon nodded while his eyes were not moving away from exposed skin, he looked like he wanted to eat and bite every single inch of my exposed skin.

He looks almost jealous of the droplets of water for getting the chance to touch me and not him.

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The date was amazing, Damon took me to my favorite restaurant, we ate there then we went shopping together.

Now we are finally home, the first thing he did was get a bath ready for me then he carried me to the bed where he gave me the best massage I had in a long time.

It's 3 AM now, I woke up feeling like I wanted to puke.

I immediately escaped from Damon's tight hold around my body and rushed to the bathroom to throw up.

I flashed the toilet and washed my face and then teeth, standing there by the sink, looking into my eyes that were staring back at me through the mirror.

I tried hard not to do it but I ended up opening one of the drawers and pulling a pregnancy test out of it.

The last one I hid in there.

My life is perfect, our marriage is perfect but there is one thing that still to this day pains my heart.

It's pregnancy.

During the six years of our marriage, I got pregnant three times but ended up miscarrying all of them for no apparent reason.

I visited doctors in our realm before and none of them knows why my body keeps miscarrying every single baby I get pregnant with.

It pains me because like every other wolf shifter I want my pups too.

At least one…

Just one, please…

I kept praying and asking the moon goddess to bless me with a pup but it never worked.

I came to the realization that I'm barren.

I stood there in the bathroom, staring at the void while waiting for the pregnancy test to tell me if I was pregnant or not.

Hoping it would say yes even though I'm terrified of miscarriage again.

A choked sob left my mouth when I held up the pregnancy test and it was negative.

I held onto the sink, feeling my heart clenching as if I was getting stabbed a million times at the same moment.

I hate this.

Omegas are never barren, nobody has ever heard about an omega who is unable to get pregnant.

This is why I feel like a freak.

Before I knew it, tears found their way down my face as I stared at the pregnancy test which I carelessly threw in the sink.

" Baby, what happened?… Are you crying?" I could hear the panic and worry in Damon's sleepy voice as he rushed to me, gently cupped my face in his gentle hands, wiping away my tears.

I tried to control my sobs, but the second my eyes met his, I broke down crying like a baby, he didn't say anything instead he pulled me closer, wrapping those warm arms around my body as if he wanted to protect and hide me from the world.

" Nikolai… Nikolai… Nikolai…" He whispered my name repeatedly, in his gentle soft tone that he only used with me, while holding me tighter and caressing my back, soothing me and that's when I knew he noticed the pregnancy test in the sink.

He cupped my face, making me look up into his eyes which is when I noticed the pain and worry that he felt when he saw me breaking down over pregnancy.

" Baby please stop." He is not asking me to stop crying but to stop thinking and trying for pups.

" We don't need pups. We have each other, that's all that matters. Our kids are in a better place now. And that's okay. You told me you threw away all of those tests?"

I gulped when he asked that, I lied to him, even though there was no hope of me getting pregnant ever again, I kept holding up to it, I kept hoping and wishing " I kept one. I'm sorry."

" No, no. Don't apologize. I understand. Baby I understand. Let's forget about this and cuddle." He didn't wait for my answer instead he carried me in his arms and brought me to the bed where he cuddled and allowed me to cry as long as I needed while making sure to whisper sweet nothings to me and letting me know that he was with me in every step.

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Like every other morning, I woke up late, this time Damon was still in bed playing with my hair.

I headed to the bathroom while he headed to the kitchen.

After I finished washing up and putting some clothes on, I headed downstairs, and that's where the door that leads to the basement caught my eye again.

And that faint almost unnoticeable rotten smell…

Before I knew it, my feet started to move toward it…