Uncertainty

Hi guys! I'm Susan Collins I'm an 18-year-old senior high school student. I'm so excited for my college to start and sad at the same time cause my boyfriend and me are not going to the same college.

oh, I didn't tell you about my boo *blush*

*As I poked my introverted shy boyfriends* "do it!"

Right, okay wait! - Nick

*Clears throat* Hi guys I'm Nicolas Cage you can call me nick I'm-

yeah, so nick is my boyfriend he's a bit shy but is such a sweetheart! Also, we have been together for a year now and we have decided to make our video diary so we can always remember our sweet little moments. *Frowning face*

Nick- it's okay baby, we can facetime and meet every week you don't have to worry I'll always love you.

Aw boo, I love you more.

*Leans in to kiss*

NEXT DAY

It's a beautiful day as I walk to my school romanticizing my neighborhood, I'm definitely going to miss this place. -- And there I see my dumbass best friend walking up to me in her black graphic t shirt and grey sweatpants, I remember the only time I saw her in a dress was at her 10th birthday party which she definitely hated! Cause she wanted a black gothic outfit and her mum didn't want to scare off her friends from the party so she made her wear "The great pink glitter dress"

Yo Suze! -Jenny

"This is my best friend Jennifer Ross who calls herself jenny and she calls me Suze. She's probably the most reckless person I know."

*As she joins me to our walk to the school* So, did you and nick figure out what ya'll going to do about college? - jenny

Yeah, we have come to a decision that we'll meet up every weekend and we'll facetime every night and things will be fine.

Yeah, you think! I'm skeptical He'll be banging chicks behind your back and you'll never know, he's the wolf in the sheep's clothing. says Jenny.

For fuck's sake! you've been single all your life!

Speaking from experience! - Jenny

What!

Um girl, coaches don't play duh! And I'm telling you girl your boyfriend is

*Arrives at the school*

Will catch up after History!

Okey dokey! - Jenny

As I enter my history class, I see the bitch of our school "Bridget Ross" yup that's jenny's cousin but trust me jenny hates her the most!

Hey cutie! - Bridget

I'm not in the mood Bridget please, not right now.

Aw, why? Is your sweet little boyfriend leaving you behind for college?

*How the fuck she knows? * I ignored her and started reading for the finals"

*bell rings*

I've been thinking about what jenny said to me in the morning, wait- am I being doubtful of my boyfriend right now, I should not be thinking this way. Speaking of boyfriend where is nick anyway, I haven't seen him all day?

I feel a pull on my arm as I see Nick grabbing me by my hand and taking me to the empty lab that's been left for renovation for almost a year now, -- as nick pulls me inside in the room my heart's about to burst, I think I'm into Nick more now that I know we might leave for college soon,

How's my baby doing? I missed you so much! - he whispers in my ears.

I'm okay - I said, as I look down

He started walking towards me and pushed me to the desk as my back is arched, he rests his left hand on desk and pulls my chin up and leans in to kiss me, I turn my head away from him as the things jenny said are still running in my head. He slightly moves my chin and looks into my eyes "Is everything okay between us?"- Nick

Yeah, I'm just not feeling too good.

Aw, it's okay I'll make you feel good in no time-says Nick

As he locks our eye contact, he traces my back with his left hand moving his hand up and down motion, I feel the goosebumps on my body. His fingers trace my skin as he whispers "Babe You look beautiful today" I feel so turned on as his crotch touches my inner thighs. His tracing hand slips inside my t shirt moving up to my chest, I feel the heat inside my body as he slowly brings in his chin close to mine and gives me a peck, he stops and stares me in the eyes -- I can see the that his mad turned. He continues to kiss me more passionately. "

"OMG! I'm so moist"

He grabs me by his both hands and lifts me up to put me on the desk and so he slides his hand inside my t shirt and moves it to the front. "Omg I feel elevated right now" and so he traces my breasts, he's so close to me I can hear him breathing heavily. He starts to kiss me going down my neck as he tucks my hair behind my ear. He took a step back and places his both hand on my thighs and spreads my legs he walks in and stands so close to me. And so, he takes his right hand and grabs my pants "I don't feel so good about this"

"I know it's your first time don't worry, I'll be gentle." -Nick

"It's not about that" he places his left hands index finger "shh"- Nick

As he continues to unbutton my pants and slides his hand inside my pants-- I pushed him back "I can't" he stops and looks down "I'm sorry"- Nick he steps back "I'll meet you after school"

As he leaves, I can sense the disappointment

"This was insane! We've never gone this far but I just couldn't do it"

SUZE! I was looking for you everywhere, where the hell were you? - Jenny

Um, I was just with Nick

In that room? Says Jenny with her eyebrow raised

We didn't do anything!

Girl, I can see you're horny, you're literally lost – Jenny

I came home and laid in my bed "What the fuck is wrong with me! Why can't I never let him do more to me"

Susan, honey I'm on my way to shopping do you want to join? - Rosie (my mum)

Yes! wait for me I'll be downstairs in 10 mins "I need to get my mind off from all this shit"

...continues...