Chapter eight

I continued to sit on the edge of the bed crying my heart out before there was a knock on my door.

"go away I don't want company" I practically yelled

"sorry future Luna I was sent to tell you that dinner is prepared" I heard one of the cooks from outside the door.

"I'm sorry, just uh, tell them I wasn't feeling very well and wouldn't be able to make it to dinner" I stated more calmly.

"yes ma'am" she said before I hear her footsteps reside from the door leaving me to cry alone once again.

I headed out of my room and down the hallway to one of the many bathrooms in the pack house, unfortunately they aren't connected to each room like in the other pack house.

I walk down the hallway until I get to the closest bathroom which was five doors down the left from my room, I saw the light was on from underneath the door, I knocked lightly right before the door swung open revealing the one and only Mackenzie Compton, she swung the door open so fast I jumped back on instinct, she smirked at me as she stood there in a white towel and her shoulder length blonde hair was up in another towel.

"didn't mean to scare you Iris" she said in a sickly sweet tone making me wince just at the sound of her voice, and if you're wondering yes, this is the Mackenzie who fucked Jasper, yes I wish I could rip her throat out.

"you didn't scare me, you just opened the door a little fast is all" I said as nice as I could muster

"oh so, didn't mean to startle you" she said saying the word 'startle' with more push, I smiled a sarcastic smile at her and she gave one right back.

"Mackenzie shouldn't you be downstairs with the pack?" I asked her as I motioned behind me towards the stairs

"oh yeah just wanted to shower before dinner, you know, get ready for tonight" she smirked at me

"what's happening tonight?" I raised an eyebrow at her and she giggled

"it's personal" she said with a sigh

"so why aren't you down there?" she motioned behind me with her head.

"oh I wasn't feeling well so I excused myself from dinner tonight" I replied

"oh I see, you know your eyes are a little puffy" she said with a smirk.

"what can I say, allergies" I laughed out, obviously lying

"yeah must suck" she said and clicked her tongue off the roof of her mouth making me cringe slightly at the sound.

"anyways I should go get ready so I don't miss dinner" she said in her usual sweet tone that was obviously reserved for people she didn't like, like me.

"yeah probably" I said and stepped to the side so she could walk by me, she started walking and right before she walked by me she stopped and whispered in my ear.

"see you around...princess" she laughed and my whole body stiffened as she walked away, did I hear her correctly? did she just call me Jaspers nick name for me? I shook my head, maybe it's just a coincidence, yeah that has to be it.

I walked into the bathroom and instantly I could smell her, making me gag slightly, stupid stanky bitch.

I undressed myself and stepped under the burning water, letting it beat off my skin, tears started to cloud my vision and I let it all out, crying for what felt like the 100th time this week, why was I so weak? after everything I've been through I still let my emotions get the best of me, I have to show my people I can lead them right, hell can I?

I didn't step out of the shower until the steam started to suffocate me and my skin turned red, I twisted the knob shutting the water off and stepped out and wrapped a towel around my body and my hair.

I made my way back to my room and when I walked back in I saw Kris sitting on my bed and I jumped back and yelped before covering my mouth.

"Jesus what the fuck is up with everyone scaring me" I said and my sister looked up at worriedly.

"what happened with you and Jasper?" she asked concerned

"I don't know what you're talking about" I said while making my way to my suite case because I hadn't put my stuff away yet.

"Come on Iris I know something happened" she said as she got more comfortable on my bed.

"nope" I said popping the P as I grabbed a pair of thigh hugging grey boxers and a baggy grey t-shirt.

"really then why didn't you come to dinner then?" she asked as she crossed her arms across her chest.

"I told you guys, I wasn't feeling very well so I stayed up here" I said slipping the boxers on under the towel.

"bullshit, you look fine" she said as her eyebrows creased.

"looks like the shower worked then" I said as I turned around and dropped the towel throwing the shirt on over my towel covered head and throwing the towel I dropped in the dirty laundry basket.

"well you weren't the only one who didn't eat ya know" she said with a smirk, I turned back around and faced her.

"what do you mean?" I asked confused and I towel dried my hair

"Jasper, he didn't eat either, claimed he had already eaten a snack and lost his appetite, he left dinner and went to his room early" she said making me stop drying my hair and look at her in the eye, she smirked and I sighed throwing the towel in the dirty laundry basket along with the other one.

"Jasper said he loved me" I blurted out and her eyes went wide

"I take it didn't go well" she sighed out and I shook my head no

"no actually it didn't" I sighed as I came and sat on the bed leaning against the bed post facing her.

"what happened?" she asked softly

"he kissed my cheek in public and I told him he can't do that and he pulled me behind the building, he went on this rant about how he doesn't understand why we can't be together and I told him that he'd just forget me once he found his mate just like I would and he said he would never forget me because he loved me" I said as I pulled my knees to my chest and buried my head in my knees as I said the last part.

"and what did you say?" she asked expectantly

"I told him I was sorry but, I didn't feel the same way" I breathed out as a stray tear fell down my cheek.

"oh Iris I'm sorry" she said as she moved to touch my knee lightly

"it's okay, maybe it was for the best besides, I found my mate I just need to get him and maybe any remaining feelings I feel for Jasper will go away" she looked at me confused 

"if you think this is best why are you so upset?" she asked

"for two reasons, one, because a part of me will always be with that man because he was my first, but mostly because I'm scared I just lost my best friend" I choked out the last part.

"you need to talk to him, tell him about your mate and I'm sure he'll understand, because even if he doesn't want to be friends again at least you can say you tried to save your friendship" she said and I nodded.

"you're right Kris, since when did you become good with advice?" I laughed out and she shrugged

"I have you as a sister, I had to get used to it" she laughed back and I followed

"now go talk to him before you back out" she continued pushing me towards the door.

I walked out of the room an bolted towards Jaspers room, I had to ask Kris which number was his, once I arrived at his door I went to go knock when I heard something on the other side of the door, I heard a female giggle and the a moan.

"oh fuck Jasper, yes just like that baby" she moaned and I heard Jasper groan in response, I instantly stood there in shock before finally mustering up the courage to open the door, once I got the door open quietly I was mortified by what I saw. I saw Jasper ramming his dick inside of Mackenzie while she moaned over and over again, she opened her eyes and she looked at me as silent tears streamed down my face, she smirked before she spoke.

"Well hello princess"