The Truth

As I was living my 13 year old life, I changed dramastically from when I was little. Back then I was sweet, young, and innocent (man I really changed). But now, I watched porn and masterbate for how many times a day. My first nut is incredible. Its like eating chocolate for the first time in a long time. It made me relaxed and actually helped me sleep properly. But then, as I was scrolling down on my porn site, I saw this video that has a word "futa". Then I watched it. It was good I guess. Then I scrolled down some more and found a video with the word "gay" in it. Since I am young I had to click on it and watch (of course I didn't cum nor get a boner). Watching it was terrifying and it scared me for life. After a week or so I was mastubating and watching women do blowjobs at men. They said that cum is delicious and wants some more. Tommorow comes and I was (again) masterbating, then I thought what happened yesterday and busted a nut. I quickly raised my finget and took a sample of my semen. Then I took a quick taste of it. I was devastated, is the fact that the women lied to me or is it that I actually did it. Either way it scared me, cursed me of why I did it. It tastes awful. Very, very awful. It is and it will be a secret that always and forever will be a secret. A decision so humiliating that even there is no one around it embarrassed me. A knowlegde that will never be shared nor be removed from my head (And finally, I actually didn't do but I'm still wondering what it taste like. But I have my limits of being a boy, and I will never ever think of tasting it).