From the Past Until Now

It had been hours after and the sun had started to rise, yet I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I was supposedly this pack's Alpha.

I still haven't felt sleepy or damp, I was rather more awake than I had ever been. The surge of energy coursing through my whole system right now is only waiting for it to be spent.

The rest of the wolves had transformed back to their human bodies and left to sleep after my infantile and unnecessary tantrum. Maybe I am The Alpha, maybe not. But one thing's for sure, I am scared either way.

I had just been fully transformed to a wolf, and experiencing it first hand meant that I believed it with all my life, not that I didn't before, but this had me completely sold.

I can still feel Harry awake in his own room even if he was a few meters away from me. It's probably my Alpha instincts, if I truly was, that made me sense it. How he feels so guilty and apologetic at the moment.

"What? What the hell are you saying?" I said in my mind. A growl escaped my wolf form as I stared at the other members who had their ears drooped down by my outburst.

"Gabe, calm down. I'll explain everything." Harry communicated through the nexus that the whole pack shared.

"Yes, Harry. Explain!" I let out a bark. Regretting that very quickly after when I heard Lucy and some other wolves whimper.

The elders took this time to step forward, I looked at them directly in the eye and for a moment, I felt uncertainty in them. In a second, I see them going back to their human form, buck naked. I never tore my eyes away from them, even when they knelt down the ground simultaneously.

"We welcome you, Alpha." They chorused and retreated to the house. I see the others turning back, doing and saying the same thing as the elders, welcoming me.

The last to turn were Harry, Heros and me. I still haven't got that explanation that I wanted and they were just wasting time.

"Okay, first off, teach me how to turn back to human. I want to strangle you with my hands." I talked to him.

"Why strangle him when you can just bite him?" Heros chimed. I shot him a deadly glare before he turned himself. "Sorry, Alpha." He muttered and followed the rest inside.

"Just think about your human body, then if you have a clear picture, use your hind legs to propel yourself upward. That would make sure you're standing after you change." He instructed. It took me a few tries but I got to it fairly quickly. Harry following suit.

"What on earth happened, Har? Apart from me turning to a wolf, why is everyone calling me an Alpha? Their Alpha?" I kept my hands fisted in my hair in frustration and confusion.

"That's because you are." He answered shortly.

"How? How can I become an Alpha after I got turned? I thought the Alpha had the biggest job-"

"You do." He interrupted. I feel sudden unusual authority in me that I grumbled at him.

"No. This is all a dream. I think what really happened was you did kill me that day when we saw each other in the hallways outside the counselor's office but you failed to completely end me so I'm in a hospital somewhere, in a coma and everything here is just created by my imagination." I declared confidently. I even forgot that we were both still very naked but none of us paid attention to that.

"No. Snap out of it, Gabe. You cannot run from the responsibility given to you." I could tell he was starting to grow tired of me, too. "We had so much transformations the past 9 years but no one turned out to be the Alpha even though we desperately needed one. No other Alpha or pack claimed us but now you're here and you don't know the amount of gratitude we feel that finally the forces of nature have heard us and granted our wish."

"Well, I don't want to be Alpha." I protested.

"You don't know better than the universe. You were sent here for us and-"

"No. I was not sent here, I was forced here by you and Lucy and you're gonna manipulate me into leading you-"

"TELL THAT TO HER!" He raised his voice at me. "Tell her how you feel used by her. Tell her and everyone else that you don't want to be the Alpha. Tell them and see how they feel." His voice broke at the end, the exhaustion peaking out.

"I didn't choose this, okay? My life was shitty before this but I'd rather have that than lead this pack and disappoint everyone." I lied. I thought that that would get him to understand me but I was wrong, yet again.

"You're just using that as an excuse. You're only running away." His voice almost went inaudible by how small he was talking. "Think about it, please. For us. For YOUR pack." He stated lastly before walking to get inside, leaving me alone with the dying fire under the bright moon in full display.

To be fair, I had the right to be mad. To complain. To be hysterical. Because one second I was just a nobody, the next I was given a huge weight of responsibility of being the most important member of a certain group. And that group were made up of wolves so I guess that is understandable, right?

There was a mirror on the side of the bed and I looked at my reflection for a while. There was a resplendence there that wasn't there before. I was glowing and I couldn't deny it. Or my mind was just playing tricks on me. But if it wasn't, I guess this is a sign that I was indeed the Alpha.

I had been trying to get everything out of my mind, to just rest for a while but I couldn't stop pacing back and forth trying to think clearly rather than think nothing. I only noticed the room was huge, I believe it was even bigger than Reez' room.

I already have too many things to think about and now I also had to think about him. The minute I started reminiscing what he did to me, I could feel my anger boiling within again. My habit of pulling my hair when I'm stressed came again and I felt so out of place. It was too much.

"Gabe?" I didn't even hear the door open from being stuck to my own thoughts but I turned my head to the direction of the voice and saw Harry entering my room.

"What do you want?" I seethed. My teeth were gritting by how much I was clenching my jaw.

"We need to talk." He inched forward slowly. Maybe it was because of me being the Alpha that he was now more scared of me than I was with him but ultimately, he could still beat me.

"So now you decide to talk? Where were you five hours ago when I was having a myriad of anxieties?"

"Listen, I needed you to fully wrap your head around it, okay? So that it would be easier for me to explain everything."

"Well, I don't care if you want to talk to me because I don't want to talk to you so you can get out of the room. Thank you very much." I ordered puerilely.

"Gabe. Didn't you want to know things? I'm here to explain everything." He emphasized the last word to grab my attention, and he did. "I will answer every question that you have this time. I promise."

"Every question? No excuses? No 'i'll tell you when the time is right'?" I raised my brows, still a little suspicious.

"No." He answered short and strong.

"Sit here." I pointed to the couch on the left side of the room. He immediately complied and toon a seat, I followed sitting directly to his right. "Now answer the first question I had and the only question that has been bugging me ever since. Why me?"

He shifted in his seat. Maybe he's having trouble telling me but he already promised me so he can't escape it now. "I didn't choose you. You were not chosen." Not the answer that I expected to hear.

"What?"

"You were born with it. With the responsibility to be the Alpha." I could sense that he was telling me the truth but why do I keep denying it?

"No, this must be some sort of excuse to get me to stay here and not be angry at you. I told you, Harry, NO. EXCUSES."

"And it's not!" He countered. "Ask me some more."

"Where is your old Alpha? How have you survived without one for the past nine years?"

"The old Alpha's dead. She was overmatched. Surmounted by another pack. We told her it was dangerous to live by her own and when we tried to stop her, she commanded us to let her be. With the powers of an Alpha we had no choice but to conform." He stopped to collect his thoughts and emotions while I processed everything I just heard.

"She was fine for 10 years, still being the Alpha that held her pack together but also maintaining a life outside it. What happened was inevitable, we couldn't try and save her, it was already too late." He paused to suck in a breath even though he was visibly shaking. "Without an Alpha, we were a lost cause. But do you know what gave us hope?" He looked at me with his shining eyes.

"What?" I already had a feeling of what he was about to say.

"You. Son of Gale Parsch-Haxel, our Alpha." I shook my head violently, stunned by how my mother's name rolled of his mouth naturally. And I knew deep down that he was telling the truth.

"No." I whispered quietly.

"I'm sorry for your loss, Gabe." He said as though it wasn't a big loss on their part, too. "But like I said, you were born with it. It has always been you."

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