loveless

I don't know what it feels like to be loved anymore. everything I hear are hateful things. "why am I crying? stop crying. you're immature. you're ugly. you're acting like a child. I don't want to deal with this. shut up. shut up. shut up." I hate myself. I don't know what I'm being used for if he hates me. I hate this world. I feel hurt that's why I'm crying. I feel abandoned. I feel so lost. everything in this world was taken from me out of nowhere and I don't how to deal with it. I have nothing to distract me from my lost. I want love again