That night, Xhemin gave in to her own desire. For once she just had to do it. Perhaps fate would allow a little allowance and have mercy on her, even just this once. Most people and even Darryl himself would probably not understand why she had to control her own feelings but if people would be in her shoes, they would probably feel how it was to lose everything without knowing why. Although she loved him, her own misfortunes made her become too untrusting even with the man she loved. Had she not trusted him before? Look what she got for it-she lost their son.
Besides, how could she love someone whom she was doomed to hurt? Wasn't she after the L Empire and after his family? If she would tolerate her love for him, she would become too weak to go after Darryl's own kin and by that, the safety of her own children will be prejudiced.