Recovering (Family Outing) Part 13
It was at this moment when everyone finally arrive where Yuki was and this was the scene where they saw, Yuki holding a little bird in her head, but that wasn't even surprising other than the fact that she was smiling casually. Of course, Yuki already knew that they have arrived and when they finally did, her heart sank once more causing her to be afraid of what will be the outcome after they had found her. Afraid that they might cut ties with her after learning why she acts like that, even after a few minutes of silence, she finally broke it and spoke in an emotionless tone, hiding the emotions that she is truly feeling.
"Have all of you come to say goodbye? Don't worry, I will not stop you. After all, it is your have your own life, I don't have the right to make decisions for you." Yuki said without looking back and because of the lack of emotion that she was showing, it broke the hearts of everyone even more. Yuki has already built a wall around herself so that no one can enter it and looking at her acting like this, and because they knew why she acts like this, it broke them even more. Maybe if they were more attentive towards her, they would have realized that she was suffering in the dark, but it was already too late for regrets, what can they only do is to move forwards and learn from their past mistakes.
"NO! I don't want that, MOTHER! I would rather die than have you cut off ties with me! You're the person who saved me from the darkest moments of my life, if it weren't for you I would have lived all my life suffering in the hands of the Lizard Tribe who constantly bullies me! But that isn't even all, you gave me the love that I thought only my real Mother can give me, a parent's love. So… please, don't cut ties with us… I'm begging you." At first, Yumie yells out loud and said some bold words as she would rather die than cut ties with her, but as she got to the end of her sentence, she finally broke down as she kneeled behind Yuki to grab her clothes from behind while her tears came pouring out making Yuki's clothes wet from behind.
When Yuki heard her oldest daughter's words, her mind went blank because she would have never thought that she would actually say such words to her, choosing to die instead of cutting ties was simply unheard in all her life. And just as she was about to say something in return, she felt a lot of arms that surrounded her making it even hard for her to breathe because of how tight they are hugging.
"Mother, I know that I'm hot-headed and childish, but please don't such words. I don't want to cut ties with you… From the moment I was born, you have become a Mother figure to me, and I'm very grateful to you because you were the one who helped me feel what it is to have a Mother. Even when I was in my egg, I know how hard you worked to keep me alive and to give birth, and I love you as a Mother, you're the best Mother that I could ever wish for. Please, don't leave us, because I don't know what I'm going to do with my life if you're gone…" Yuki would never imagine that her second daughter who was the most problematic because of her attitude can actually be like this because she was already crying out of sadness, what she only wants is for her Mother to not leave her.
"Mommy… You promised me that you'll stay with me forever, so please don't leave me. If Aika made some mistakes, please punish for me it, just don't leave me. And Mommy is still Mommy, right? No matter what kind of person you are in the past, what matters the most is what you are currently." Out of her three daughters, Aika sounded the most heartbroken out of them because she was the most attached to Yuki. Her existence alone is like a pillar for her to lean on, she's the person who Aika can trust with all her life. As she got older the more intelligent she becomes and it didn't even take long for her to know what truly happened to her Mother Fairy, but she didn't ask her Mommy about it because she thinks that she was also devastated about her death. But now that Yuki now also wants to cut off, she felt her heart being torn to pieces.
"Yuki, don't leave us. I'm willing to block my love for you if you feel that it is burdening you. We can become friends again and I can promise you that I will not force my love on you again. Just please, don't leave me. I love you so much that I would rather die than be separated from you because you cut ties with me." Kurokami pleaded and her weakened and broken voice made Yuki's heart shake. For a moment she was almost convinced again, she was ready to go back, but she remembered something and held back.
"I'm sorry, Yuki. I know you for the longest time out of everyone, but it seems like I only met you yesterday because I didn't even realize what kind of pain you were going through because of us. But I can tell you that, you're the only person that I will devote myself. Just don't leave me all alone…" Fumiko's voice also rang into Yuki making her heart move once again, but it wasn't still enough to convince her. People can say that she is too cruel and heartless because she wants to cut ties with her family, but that is if you don't know what really happened.
Yuki was living in hell all of her life, there was not a single moment where it was peaceful. On Earth, she was abandoned by everyone and let her survive on her own in this cruel world, but even so, she survived, but at what cost? Her humanity? She was simply not the same person the first moment her Mother died. But even that was a lie, she was living in a lie that was created by her Mother who threw her away because she was blamed for things that she didn't do.
"My daughter, I know that I'm not deserving of you. Because I'm the sole reason why you become like this… and I'm not going to ask for your forgiveness. But if you want, you can kill me right here and now if that is the only way to ease your pain. After all, all of this happened because of the mistakes that I did. So, don't cut off ties with all of these good people. I know deep inside that you love each one of them." Ayames shock instantly awoken Yuki as she opened her eyes and looked straight ahead where she saw Ayame who out of all of them has the most pained expression and looking at it, it made her even more sad and heartbroken.
Never in her life would she think that her Mother would say these words to her, and kill her to try and ease the pain that she was feeling, she's basically sacrificing herself to try and make things better.