chapter 4: moving back

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Simbi's wedding weekend was one of the best times of my life and even after 5 months I still felt like it was yesterday. Tobi and I had kept in touch with each other even though we lived in separate states, Tobi lived in Lagos and I lived in Abuja, it was 1 hour away by flight and Tobi and I had met twice after the wedding, the first time Tobi flew in for a business interview and the second time I flew to lagos for Davido's concert, Tobi and I had spent the weekend together in Lagos in one of the most expensive hotels, and it was absolute bliss, I had always refused to stay overnight with any man that was not my husband, but for some reason I did with Tobi, I spent three nights with him and tobi was the perfect gentleman, I had never had Sex and tobi was cool with that, he was suprised but he was cool with it, he never spoke about it and never forced anything at all.

We had a good time over all and I always dreamt of us meeting up again, until I received a mail from the job I had applied for before I had left Canada, it was the best news I heard in a long time but I was sad, I had to leave Nigeria to Canada, I cried in my room all through the night , Tobi and I were supposed to meet up next month and I was looking forward to it, but now I was supposed to move back to Canada before the end of this month.

How would I tell Tobi this, I thought to myself, I looked at the mail staring in my face, it was from one of the biggest accounting companies in Canada, it was my dream Job, it was what I prayed to GOD for and now it was answered but now I was confused, I hated long distance relationships, I tried it three times and it failed woefully, and now it was about to be the same thing, I just closed my laptop and proceeded downstairs for breakfast.

I was the third child of my parents, I always felt like the middle child because more or less attention was payed to me so I always got away with what I wanted, my mum always wanted boys but ended up with three girls and one boy who was the last born and always got the attention, my elder sisters were far older than I was and I never got to talk to them about my love life so basically Simbi was all I had in times like this. I had to call Simbi she had to know about this, I can't believe I was confused on picking my dream job and picking a boy, I had just met 5 months ago. " hey sweetie" Simbi said, " hey sissy" I had narrated the story to Simbi and all I heard was loud laughter "Simbi what's so funny" I said confused, this was my first time telling Simbi about Tobi, she was so busy during her wedding and I didn't want to disturb her with my own stories and after all I had told Simbi about different men, this time at least I wanted the dissapointment to myself. "Is it tobi you are taking this serious, you better go and resume in Canada" I was so confused why would Simbi say this " tobi is a player and he's never serious with anyone, please did go to Canada" Simbi went on and on of how tobi was not good for me and how he just led women on for fun, I just sat there listening to all she said with a pain I couldn't explain, I felt so numb I just had to laugh out loud " It is well" I said as I cut the call. Simbi had never lied to me all she said was always true, I just laughed out went upstairs, opened my laptop and accepted the mail, I booked my ticket for the ending of that month.

Tobi had called for days, but I couldn't pick his call I couldn't pretend like I didn't know what was going on and I couldn't act like I didn't just want it to be a lie, I moved on preparing for Canada, I was used to heartbreaks and at this point I just gave up on anything that had to do with love at all. Tobi was calling again this was his seventh time today, I just had to pick it "hey baby girl what's wrong?" " nothing wrong" I replied as fast as possible, I did it want to spend so much time talking to Tobi " I'm moving back to Canada" I said without thinking twice o wanted to end things with tobi " what" Tobi replied, Tobi begged me not to go but I had already booked my ticket and it was a done deal, what was I thinking allowing a man to choose where I go too, Tobi sounded angry when I told him he said he never believed I'll want to leave without telling him.

Tobi flew into Abuja the next day, he was on the first flight, I was going to see Tobi and I had mixed emotions, I was happy and then I was sad. I arrived Transcorp Hilton hotel and I met tobi at the reception, Tobi as usual looked so good I couldn't take my eyes off him, but the words Simbi said was all I had in my head, I wanted tobi badly, I needed simbi's words to be a lie for once in my life.

"Hey simsss" tobi said as he hugged me tightly at the reception " you smell heavenly baby girl" I smiled " thank you Tobi" I said.

He held my hands as we took the elevator going to room 109 as was written on the key card he held. Tobi had begged me to spend the weekend with him before I travelled back to Canada, and I was here for that, I knew I was wrong but I did it anyways, Tobi had booked one of the most luxurious suites in the city, as we got through the door I was stunned, Tobi had done a setup, they were petals through the doorway, in the bathroom and on the bed, they were tons of my favorite things on the bed and I was numb again, Tobi moved closer and all I heard was " I love you".