Almost a steamy night

I am ashamed of myself.

It's been two months and yet I have no information about Rachel.

I couldn't even track her !

Ashley don't ask about her, but her eyes never stop asking me,

WHERE IS MY MOM ?

And I never have any answer for her unasked question.

She never says anything, but I can see she is getting more and more restless and eager to know about her mother.

Who won't be ?

But what do I do ?

I've searched the whole city, but I got nothing.

I even sent my guys in other cities for her; but they too couldn't find her.

Cole have gave up convincing me to believe that she is dead.

He thinks she is no more because, we can't find anything related to her.

But my brain isn't ready to accept that, she is dead.

Because if she was, we must have found her dead body by now, at least.

Though, we aren't getting any positive news, we aren't getting any bad either !

I don't want to give up on Rachel for Ashley's sake.

I can't see her innocent eyes looking at me hopefully and then, becoming hopeless.

I keep her engaged in various games and divert her mind off her mother, but I can't do that forever.

I need to do something.

I must do something !

I was thinking about that, when she came and hugged me from behind.

" Hey.

What's up ? "

I said.

" I am feeling low today, Derek.

I don't know what happened, but I can't focus on anything at all.

I am feeling sad and feel crying out loud and I don't know the reason !

I just wanted some comfort, that's why I came to you.

Can you hug me, please ? "

Ashley said innocently.

" Ofcourse, sweetness !

Just remember that whatever happens, I am always there for you.

Ask for anything and you shall get it.

Your wish is my comand !

Come here, let me wrap my arms around you and take away all your worries.

If you want to cry bad go ahead, you can cry in my arms.

I won't mind a soaked shirt at all and you know that ! "

I said smiling.

" Yeah, yeah.

Why would you mind ?

When was the last time you wore your shirt the whole day ? "

Ashley said rolling her eyes.

" Well there girl, you've got a very good point.

You want me to do anything for you ?

Get you some hot chocolate or anything like that ? "

I asked her.

" No.

Just hold me close to your heart.

And I won't mind you squeezing me a bit. "

Ashley said.

" Always happy to help you, love.

Um...

Is your mood off because of me, somehow ? "

I turned around and wrapped my arms around her and asked her.

" Why ?

Why do think like that ?

Why it would be because of you ?

You haven't done anything ! "

Ashley said.

" Exactly !

I haven't done anything yet...

I am so... "

I said taking the blame.

" Come on, Derek.

I know you haven't stopped looking for her.

And I am sure you'll find her someday.

It's not because of you, don't give yourself any credit ! "

Ashley said.

" You sure ? "

I said.

" Ofcourse I am !

Now, shut up and let me get comfortable here. "

Ashley said nuzzling her face close to my neck.

" Feeling better ? "

I asked caressing her back.

" Feeling home !

You are such a sweetheart, Derek.

I don't know what would I have done without you ?

I am thankful for whatever you have done for me till now and... "

Ashley said crushing me in her arms.

" Shut up !

I haven't done anything.

You deserve to be treated a lot better than this. You don't deserve any of the things happened and happening in your life.

And the worst part is, I can't do a single thing to make it better !

And I am ashamed of myself, love.

Please forgive me for I can't make the world better for you ! "

I said kissing her head.

" Shut up, Derek !

You have done a lot of things for me and still doing much more.

And all the guys too are doing so much for me.

I don't even know how would I ever repay you guys for what you people have done for me.. "

Ashley said getting emotional.

" Don't insult our intentions by saying that, love ! We aren't doing anything for you so that we would ask you to repay us !

Whatever we are doing is because we want to.

We want you to live a safe and happy life.

Your life wasn't any easy earlier and we put you through the accident and all pain !

In the beginning we did everything to rectify your mistake but now ?

Now, we do every single thing for the love we have for you.

You aren't the victim we hit on road for us anymore, you have became an unseperatable part of our family and we don't do favours for our family, now do we ? "

I asked.

She shook her head on my chest and tighten her grip on me.

And I felt a wet spot on my shirt.

I pressed her harder on my chest and then she started crying.

I caressed her back and patted her head.

I am the one who asked her to cry if, she wanted to but now I can't take her crying and that too because of me !

I too felt like crying, but I haven't cried infront of anyone so I won't.

" Shhh.

Calm down, love.

I promise I'll find Rachel soon.

I am so sorry it's taking so much time to find her. But don't you worry honey by hook or by crook, I am gonna find her !

Trust me on that, love. "

I said rubbing my face against her head.

" Yes, I trust you.

I... I miss her... Derek.

I... I am so sorry...

I... "

Ashley said sniffing.

" Hey !

What are you apologising for ?

It's me who should apologise you.

I swear, I'll find her ! "

I said trying to calm her down.

" I know you will.

I am sorry for I am always asking for her...

I know it's not easy to find some missing person, but what do I do ?

I... "

Ashely said crying.

" No silly !

I feel guilty for you trust me so much that, you don't ask about her.

You trust me that, I will find her and so you have stopped asking me about her and that makes me feel more guilty.

If I were you, I would have grabbed your collar and asked why are you taking this long to find her ? But you ?

Don't blame yourself, love.

I can understand what you must be feeling and

I.. "

I said.

" Ok.

I think we should stop blaming ourselves now.

I am feeling better now.

Thanks Derek. "

Ashley said wiping my tears softly with his thumb.

" Actually me too !

Thank you, you said that you miss her and waiting for her.

I would have died in guilt if, you haven't said anything about her.

Now I am feeling better too. "

I confessed.

" Ok.

Now the situation became too emotional.

I want something else.

Change it ! "

Ashley said like some child wanting to change the game immediately when he looses one !

" What ?

Am I a genie or something ?

How am I supposed to change the situation with a snap of my fingers ? "

I said raising my eyebrows.

" I don't know.

Just do it ! "

Ashley said pouting.

" Ok.

Um...

How about we play some game ? "

I suggested.

" We always do that !

I don't want to pay cards or chess or anything like that. "

Ashley said making faces.

" Then what about truth or dare ? "

I asked.

" I can't think about any thrilling dares !

You'd give me various and exciting dares and what would I do ?

Look at your face ? "

Ashley said crossing her arms.

" Ok...

Then we will go by the game, Dare-dare ! "

I said.

" What the hell is that ? "

Ashley asked as she doesn't have any idea about the game.

" It's like a treasure hunt !

We have to throw the dice and the number we get on the dice, we need to find out what dare the game board have and we must do it !

In that way, you don't have to decide anything for me nor do I have to do that for you.

The dice would decide for us ! "

I explained her the game.

" But the dice have only 6 numbers.

Then will we end the game once we have done the 6 dares ?

How boring !

No, I don't... "

Ashley said without listening to me completely, such an impatient little one !

" The game has 30 dices.

That means, you have 180 dares to do !

We use single dice first, once all the 6 dares are done we introduce the second one, third one and it goes on.

Are you interested ? "

I asked.

" Sounds interesting.

But I'll read the dares first and then I'll decide whether to play no not. "

Ashley said.

" Yes, your highness ! "

I said bowing to her.

She read the dares and she liked them, so she decided to play.

The basic rule was one would throw the dice and the other would see the dare and the dice thrower must do the dare.

We started the game.

" I'll throw the dice first. "

I said grabbing the dice.

" No !

I will. "

Ashley said firmly.

" And why is that so ? "

I asked cocking my head.

" Ever heard of ladies first ? "

Ashley said dramatically.

" God !

Drama queen ! "

I said rolling my eyes.

" Hey, that's you ! "

Ashley said feeling offended.

" So, I should get the first chance ! "

I said crossing my arms.

" I am sad right.

Won't you let me get the... "

Ashley said making a puppy face.

" Shut up.

My god, you gotta stop being with me !

You are turning a drama queen, girl ! "

I said scoffing.

" Sorry, I can't do that !

You are the only one who can make me laugh and happy. "

Ashley said smiling.

" Am I that special ? "

I asked raising my eyebrows.

" No, you are the Joker of my life !

Ha ha ha. "

Ashley said chuckling.

" Ouch !

That hurts.

How mean.

Go ahead and throw that dice. "

I said handing her the dice.

She threw and got...

" It's five. "

Ashley told.

" Five, huh ?

Let me see...

Five..

you have to sing a song ! "

I told her.

" I won't ! "

Ashley denied.

" Uh-uh !

No turning back.

You must do the dare you get ! "

I told her.

" But, I am sad right... "

Ashley said trying to get away using the sad excuse.

" Wrap up your drama girl.

You are not gonna get me this time ! "

I said smirking.

And she sang,

ALL I NEED

And boy she sings superb !

I mean she have a very melodious voice but I didn't knew she could sing this well.

" Wow !

Just wow.

You didn't told me you could sign this good. Awesome, love.

You should sing often.

The guys too would love to listen to your song. Why didn't you told me this earlier ? "

I asked.

" You didn't asked me earlier either.

So... "

Ashley said shrugging.

" Giving me my words back, huh ?

Beauty with brains, aren't you ? "

I said smiling.

Then it was my turn to throw the dice.

I got 3.

" 3 huh ?

Let me see.

Cook something !

You have to cook something for me. "

Ashley said.

" What should I cook ? "

I asked her.

" You asked me earlier do I want you to make me hot chocolate.

Go and prepare that now.

It's getting cold too.

Let's enjoy the game with some hot chocolate. And don't forget to add some chocolate sauce over it. "

Ashley said rubbing her hands excited to drink it.

" You'll consume too much calories, love ! "

My gym freak ass warned her.

" I don't mind.

I love to have what I love !

And I love chocolate way too much to think about the calories and all shit. "

Ashley said shrugging.

Hmm.

Bold one.

I prepared hot chocolate for us, with chocolate sauce in her's.

She doesn't mind more calories, but I do !

I have a hot and sexy body to maintain.

And the consumption of more calories means I must workout more in the gym.

And I don't mind working out, but for now, less calories !

She loved the hot chocolate and we resumed our game.

As we proceeded we got many interesting dares including, me dancing for her, she posing in few hot poses for photos; and god this girl will be my death !

How is this even possible for a innocent looking girl to slay in the hot and sexy poses ?

And that too with a over sized shirt and loose pajamas !

We came across many silly dares as well, like tie a cape and act superman, be a vampire and bite on the neck.

And I am so lucky that, I got to be the vampire and bite her on neck.

God she smells so good.

I almost gave her a hickie there.

And the way she gasped in my ear at my touch on her neck, just made me suck there besides biting.

And instead of pushing me away or slapping me, she grabbed my hair and tilted her head, giving me access to her jaw too.

She arched her back and her chest pressed onto mine and I almost lost there.

But, I mustn't do that and needed to stop, so I unwillingly pulled myself away from her.

Without letting the situation awkward, I passed the dice to her.

" YOU were supposed to be MY prey !

You didn't needed get all hot there, that's my territory, beautiful ! "

I said smiling.

She too took it easy and threw the dice.

And the game went on.

We already had our dinner so, I knew we weren't gonna stop until it's sleeping time.

After sometime she got a very improper dare. Actually, I was waiting for that to come for me.

" You said we must do the dare, no excuse !

Then why are you being so mean ? "

Ashley said crossing her arms.

" Because, that's not good baby. "

I said.

" And who decided that ? "

Ashley said raising her eyebrows.

" Ashley !

You are underage !

You aren't allowed to drink at all.

And this dare asks you to drink 10 glasses of Wine !

I can't let that happen, love. "

I said softly.

" Who is watching ? "

Ashley said looking around.

" What do you mean, who is watching ?

I am here and... "

I said trying to get her stop but she didn't listened to me.

" Oh, shut up !

You are neither a cop nor a judge, so shut up. "

Ashley said narrowing her eyes.

" Hey !

I am a Detective ! "

I said feeling offended.

" So ?

You can't arrest me !

I mean, you won't ! "

Ashley said making a puppy face.

" And what makes you think that ?"

I said crossing my arms.

" Would you do that to me ?

TO ME ?

I never thought you would do that to me and you ? "

Ashley said pretending to be hurt.

God, this beautiful creature must stop being so innocent and sweet or else I am gonna loose my mind and do something disastrous I would regret later !

" Ok fine !

But not 10.

You can have 2 glasses. "

I said.

" Shut up !

I am gonna have 8 of them ! "

Ashley said firmly.

" I am not playing this game anymore if, you are gonna do that ! "

I said crossing my arms.

" Ok, ok.

6 ! "

Ashley said.

" 4. "

I said.

" 6 ! "

Ashley said.

" I said 4 ! "

I said firmly.

" And I said 6 ! "

Ashley replied firmly.

" 4 ! "

I said

" 4 !

Ashley said.

" 6 ! "

I said saying the opposite number as her !

" Gotcha !

6 it is ! "

Ashley said cheerfully.

She tricked me into it.

" This is cheating ! "

I said.

" Did I forced you to say so ?

You said it yourself ! "

Ashley said sticking her tongue out teasing Mr.

" I have said 4 so many times earlier !

Haven't I ? "

I attempted one last time to change her mind.

" But I heard, 6 ! "

Ashley said smirking.

" You aren't going to tell this to Cole or Jules are you ?

If you will, they'll kill me ! "

I said.

" Do I look that stupid ? "

Ashley said.

I brought the bottle of wine nnd she drank 6 glasses.

I asked her to let me fill up her glasses but she refused.

I don't know how, but she got my plan.

I was thinking to fill the glasses half.

Because it wasn't mentioned how much the glass must be filled !

And she filled them upto the rim.

She was sane till few more dares and then she started getting drunk.

I am glad she didn't puked !

I mean, I would have cleaned it but I can't stand someone puking infront of me.

I told her we should end the game and go to sleep as she was drunk.

But she refused to accept that she got drunk and we continued to play.

I got to ask her something very personal and she can't refuse it.

She must tell the truth.

" So, tell me your darkest and deepest fantasy you have. "

I asked smirking.

" Let me think.

Um...

Yeah.

I want to make love to the most handsome man I know.

In his shower first and then, he could take me wherever he wants and however he wants.

And yes, I want him to take me all night long and don't let me sleep ! "

Ashley said grinning wickedly.

" Wow !

Girl, aren't you too young for such fantasies ? "

I said startled as I didn't saw that coming.

" You asked me my deepest and darkest fantasy.

It isn't dark but it is wildest one.

And I answered your question, you aren't supposed to judge me ! "

Ashley said pouting.

" I am not judging you, I am just saying.

And in that case, I can fullfill your fantasy ! "

I said smirking.

" No you can't ! "

Ashley said shaking her head.

" Why not ?

I have my own shower.

I have the stamina that I can stay the whole night. Then what's the problem huh ? "

I asked confused.

" The problem is, only THIS isn't my fantasy ! "

Ashley said smiling meaningfully.

" What ?

What do you mean ?

Um... Ohhhh !

How mean !

You are saying I am not handsome ? "

I asked feeling offended.

" Let's move on to our game.

I don't want to break your heart.

Let's see what dare you get ! "

Ashley said trying hard not to laugh.

Such a heartless girl !

After sometime I got a dare to kiss her.

It wasn't mentioned where, so I decided to go for either her cheek or her forehead.

But my beauty had a different plan in her mind.

" They asked to kiss so, lip kiss is the only kiss we don't mention the place !

We say, I kissed him or her and our friends get we must have kissed on the lips.

But if, we kiss on cheeks or forehead or hand, we need to mention that.

So, come on kiss me.

Kiss me like you mean it, Derek ! "

Ashley said pouting.

She is definitely drunk !

She is asking me to kiss her lips ?

I mean, I would love to make her lips mine, but she isn't sober.

She won't even remember it tomorrow then, what's the point ?

I want to kiss her when she is sane and willing to kiss me back and remember that forever.

But she isn't in the mood to listen anything and pulling me closer to kiss her.

I am not sure how long could I resist her beauty and not kiss her.

I am just scared that if, she remembers it tomorrow, she shouldn't accuse me for taking advantage of her, when she was drunk !

" Why aren't you kissing me ?

Don't you find me attractive as the other girls you have been with ? "

Ashley said feeling hurt.

What ?

What is she talking about ?

How could she compare herself with the other girls ?

I grabbed her face in my hands firmly and pulled her closer to me.

So close that, I could feel her breaths on my mouth.

" What did you said ?

How dare you comparing yourself with those useless things ?

You are so special.

So hot and damn sexy !

I can't resist you, but I am trying for your sake !

You are drunk love, I don't want to take advantage of the situation !

I DO want to kiss you, but with your consent and when you are sane and not drunk that you don't even know what you are doing ! "

I said breathing heavily.

" I am not drunk, Derek !

I know what I am doing.

You aren't taking advantage of the situation, I promise.

I want you to kiss me.

Please ! "

Ashley said pleading and grabbing my shirt.

And that did it.

Her words broke the wall I built from going insane and she pulled me even closer and literary touched her lips to mine.

" I... I wanted to...

You... You are so special and beautiful love.

I badly want to...

Kiss you and make you mine right now...

But I... I...

Fuck it !

Come here... "

I couldn't take it anymore and crushed my lips onto her.

I haven't kissed anyone so passionately before her.

I slipped my fingers in her hair and grabbed a handful of them and pulled her even more closer. She kissed me back with same passion.

She willingly pressed herself onto me.

I grabbed her waist and pulled her body closer to mine.

She dug her fingers in my shoulder and pulled at my hair.

We kissed for a long moment and I slowly pulled away.

But she haven't had enough and she leaned in for more but I must stop now or...

" Mmmm.

I want more... "

Ashley moaned.

" We...

We... Must stop baby.

I don't know what would I do if, we don't stop right now ! "

I said breathing hard.

She opened her eyes and looked at me.

The unsatisfied and pleading look in her eyes was killing me !

But yes I was just a snap away from ripping her clothes off and take her then and there; which I definitely don't want to do.

I want her to be sane and sober and not drunk whenever we do it.

I want her to know what's happening with her.

And anything in the heat of moment with HER ? Nope. Never !

I'd rather die than doing that with her.

My heart was racing so much.

My breathing was high and I couldn't talk properly.

I could feel the blood flowing through my veins ! I've never felt that before.

This girl is driving me nuts.

" We must stop the game now, baby.

You are drunk...

You need to rest...

Get up and go to your room. "

I said without looking into her eyes.

She looked at me for a very long moment, sighed and finally got up but she couldn't stand still.

I picked her up in my arms and took her to her room..

I put her on the bed and covered her with the blanket.

As I turned to leave she grabbed my hand.

" Derek...

I am not sorry for what happened.

Please don't feel sorry or guilty. "

Ashley said looking into my eyes.

" Hm.

Go to sleep.

We'll talk tomorrow.

Good night. "

I said quickly as I wanted to leave.

" Derek...

Please don't leave me alone, I am feeling lonely.

Can you please stay with me tonight ?

Let me sleep in your arms.

I really don't want to be alone tonight.

I promise I won't...

I really don't want to be alone, Derek.

Can you please, stay with me ?

Please ? "

Ashley pleaded innocently.

I know that was the biggest mistake I was about to make, but she asked so innocently, I couldn't refuse.

She shifted in the bed and made space for me.

I lied down next to her and she faced me and put her head on my chest.

" Your heart is beating so fast Derek.

Why is that so ? "

Ashley asked softly.

" Go to sleep, Ash.

Or I am leaving right now ! "

I said threatening her.

" Ok. Ok.

I won't trouble you.

Mmmm...

Your hard body feels incredible against mine.

Can I run my hand over your strong muscles ? "

Ashley wispered.

She didn't waited for my answer and started running her hand over my chest, arm, trunk.

She was moving so slow leaving goosebumps all over my body.

She then shifted a bit and her lips brushed on my chest.

She then kissed my chest.

And slowly moved towards my neck, kissing all the way up there.

My breath got stuck and I gasped at the soft, warm, wet touch of her lips on my neck.

She then nibbled on my collar bone and then bited on my lips.

" Ah.

Why did you bited on my lips ? "

I wispered.

She stared intensely into my eyes and I knew what she wanted.

I lost my mind and grabbed her by her waist, flipped her on the bed and got on top of her.

I stared into her eyes and when, she raised her face to reduce the distance between our lips, I cupped her face and kissed her hard.

I lost my mind and kissed her so hard that, I know it must be hurting her so much.

I kissed her neck and she gasped for air and arched her back pressing her soft boobs onto my chest.

I pulled down the sleeve of her loose shirt and kissed her shoulder and nibbled there.

I was about to pull her shirt down and reveal her boobs to my hungry mouth when... I heard snoring !

What ?

Is she for real ?

She fell asleep !

Like seriously ?

She is snoring !

Oh my god !

How could she do this to me ?

She aroused me so much and fell asleep ?

I mustn't wake her up.

But I need to get relief of the tension built inside of me.

I put the blanket over her, kissed her forehead and went to the washroom to find the relief she denied after arousing me so much !

I lay down on the couch afterwards, but couldn't sleep.

I was thinking about what just happened.

Her touch was magical.

I loved the way she touched me and kissed me. Her lips are so soft and fingers have magic in them.

I want to feel all that again...

And again...

And again...

And forever !

I can't wait for her to wake and ask her how did she felt !

I was staring at the roof when, the birds started chirping and I could see the sun rising.

Squirming in the couch wasn't going to help now.

I got up and took shower and prepared breakfast for us.

She would wake up anytime now.

And yes, I was right.

I could hear washroom noises coming from her room.

She must be having a bad headache.

She came in the living room after few moments.

" Hey, beautiful.

Good morning.

How you doin ? "

I greet her smiling.

" I am feeling heavy and dizzy.

I don't know what happened... "

Ashley said scratching her head.

" What happened ?

You got drunk, sleeping beauty.

Wake up now. "

I said chuckling.

" What ?

I got drunk ? "

Ashley said surprised.

" You really don't remember what happened last night ? "

I asked doubtfully.

" No...

I mean a bit... "

Ashley said thoughtfully.

Is she serious ?

Firstly she leaves me aroused and sleeps and now she don't remember what happened last night ? Come on dude, don't do this to me !

" What do you remember ? "

I asked hopefully.

" We were playing the dare game.

And we did so many dares.

And then...

Yes, now I remember... "

Ashley said realizing something.

Finally !

She remembers...

" I got a dare to drink 10 glasses of wine and you only let me have 6 of them and then...

Blank ! "

Ashley said plainly.

What ?

She don't remember anything ?

Why god ?

Why ?

I've waited for the moment we kiss, like forever and now that we've kissed; she doesn't remember anything from it ?

" You really don't remember what happened last night ? "

I asked.

" Why are you highlighting LAST NIGHT ?

Did something happened ?

Did we do something we shouldn't have ?

Did I do something stupid when I was drunk ?

Tell me Derek, please.

Tell me what happened ? "

Ashley asked panicked.

Uh-oh !

Have I scared her ?

Nothing serious happened actually.

If I told her that we kissed, she shouldn't think of me as a pervert, who misused her when she was drunk !

She already is mad at me for I've slept with so many girls in the past.

Now, if I told her we kissed, she'd kill me !

She won't believe me if, I told her that she asked me to kiss her.

She would say,

I WAS DRUNK.

IT WAS YOUR DUTY TO KEEP YOUR MIND SANE AND STOP !

I can't cross her point.

I better keep my mouth shut, and anyways nothing serious happened.

I didn't even removed either of our clothes.

" No, love.

Nothing serious.

Don't worry.

I was asking this just because, you were drunk last night and now you don't look like having hangover.

And nothing else. "

I lied.

" Are you sure, this is it ?

Nothing else ? "

Ashley said doubtfully.

" Yes, I am sure.

You want me to get you some black coffee or lime water or something like that ? "

I asked her.

" No.

Some more sleep and I'll be alright. "

Ashley said yawning.

" Then why did you wake up ?

You could have slept more. "

I said.

" I am hungry.

My stomach was growling so loud it didn't let me sleep.

Did you hear that ?

Yup, that's my stomach !

What's in the breakfast ?

I need to eat so bad. "

Ashley said sheepishly.

We had our breakfast together.

She went to sleep again and I was waiting for Lauren.

Usually we don't wait for the other to come before we leave, but now that she went to sleep I must stay.

And anyways, Jules have told us many times to stay there until the other comes.

Someone may hurt her if, found alone.

He always stays there until Dominic comes.

And I guess, I am doing the same thing.

Where the hell this bastard got stuck ?

I need to get the hell out of here as soon as possible.

I can't get the thought out of my head that she don't remember what happened last night !

After sometime he came and I left.