Shrouded Desires

"What are you doing?" I said while coughing hard.

Max looked at me and said, " Are you okay? Next time don't wake me up like that. I'm not used to this, so I get overprotective. I really can't explain it. I'm sorry," he said while checking on me.

Hand marks have appeared on my neck. He took a deep breath, trying to keep his tone calm.

We were so close that we could hear each other's breath.

"Can I kiss you?" Max suddenly asked.

I was surprised as i wasn't expecting such a question but before i could reply, Max's lips were on mine. His lips were warm yet sweet. I didn't know what to do. I had never kissed a man before so I just stayed still. I couldn't push or pull him. I stood still.

Seconds later, Max pulled me off. He looked at me and asked, " is this your first kiss? "

Amid my embarrassment, i blushed, unable to look at him.

As a result, Max knew the answer to the question. He stomped down a little bit, to match my height and said, "Your mine, you don't have to be embarrassed. I can teach you everything." He said in a convincing tone.

I could not comprehend what I had just heard. I was confused hell and back about how and when I became his and everything that just happened in a heartbeat. 

Max could still see my confusion, but still pulled me up by surprise and this time it wasn't just a touch on my lips, but he sucked me up and kissed me again. It was rough and demanding. He got deeper. I could feel his tongue reaching out to me, and without thinking twice, I found myself opening my mouth and let him explore me. He smiled as he entered deep into my mouth. He kissed me like he had been waiting for this for so long.

Max pulled me off and said, in a low voice and a heavy breath, "Just follow me and explore me as you wish. I want that range out. Kiss me, Lana. I want to feel you."

The intense desire between us was now palpable. I felt my heart racing and my body trembling with anticipation. I had never experienced a situation like this and never thought of my first kiss happening with my kidnapper, but here I was. Without caring who I was kissing, I was lost in the situation. I wanted to follow what Max told me.

I wanted to feel him too. I leaned in and kissed him deeply, my tongue meeting Max's as they brushed into each other. Max moaned in pleasure as he stroked my tongue, his hands wandering down my body. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer, deepening the kiss. I felt like the world around us had stopped, and all that mattered was the two of us.

Max eagerly kissed me, gripping me tightly as if he never wanted to let me. His hands explored my body, sending shivers through me. I melted into him, letting my passion for him take control.

Suddenly a knock was heard.

As we breathed heavily.

Max locked his eyes into mine and smiled. He looks satisfied and happy.

I didn't know what to do. I smiled at him as he pulled my waist tight into him. " Be mine forever, Don't leave me no matter the reason." I looked at him and smiled. Before i could reply another knock was heard. This time it annoyed him. 

"Who is it?"Max responded in an angry voice. Despite his desire to continue the conversation, the knock annoyed him.

" It's me, Liam. I just thought I would let you know breakfast is ready" he said.

"Leave it on the door, I'll get it." Max insisted.

"Yes, Sir. By the way, Miss Smith didn't return yesterday? As I knocked on her door multiple times, no one answered. Should I ask the bodyguards to look for her?" Liam added.

I was stunned. So no one knew I was back? And how did I end up here while i was in the forest? I looked confused and had lots of questions. It was 1000 moves in a speed of light.

Max saw the look I had on my face but ignored it again as he had no answers to my questions. Or rather, say did not want to reply.

"Oh um, Miss Smith returned to her home yesterday night. No need to worry." He said.

"Aha, boss. I was just wondering since she's very meaningful to you." Liam added.

I was even more shocked but Max shushed me when i tried to say anything. And he told Liam "It's fine no need to say it, you can leave now."

After Liam left, I turned to Max with a "What was that?" look.

" It doesn't matter to them, I just didn't want them to misunderstand us since you slept with me. i mean in my room." He fixed his throat as he spoke.

I couldn't say a word, i just looked at him like what in the world was going on?

Max showered and prepared to take me back

After 20 minutes

We arrived. i turned to Max to say goodbye before getting out of the car but Max stopped me.

"Lana". He uttered.

"There are many things I'm hiding from you and I'm sorry I can't let you in on them. It's for your protection, I promise. Despite taking you in for the past couple of days, all I could see and think of was you for years. Your dad will surely find this place just like I did, and when he finds it you know what will happen next right? So I think you should move out to somewhere safer." After giving her a phone, he said, "Call me when you decide."

I took the phone. And said "Is that all you want to say to me? " I asked. he freakin knew about my Father, and the voice I heard plus the kidnapping is all confusing. 

As Max didn't understand what I meant, he waited for me to elaborate.

"You know what happened between us? Please explain. I need that explanation to know what I have and don't have. Despite all my questions, you ignored them. You kissed me. You told me words that made me feel meaningful to you. Tell me... tell me what this means?" I said.

He looked away, not saying a word. I waited for an answer, but none came. He didn't say anything, but his silence spoke volumes.

"I understand, no need to respond." I said.

While I was about to leave he stopped me and said

"My silence doesn't mean I'm ignoring you. I just don't know what to say. I don't want to open the door that will lead to suffering nor make you feel insignificant. If I give up what I'm fighting for, what's the purpose of my life? I'm blind Lana. It has always been dark, so let me finish this and come to you. It is my promise that I will answer every question you ask me, but I hope you will still have questions when the time comes. I just hope you will trust me in everything that emerges out of the dark. " He said.

I somehow felt like I was the reason for the dark side to emerge but the pain in his eyes made me  believe in all that. I looked at him and said, "Then I hope whatever makes you blind will give you light. Everybody has nightmares. Hope yours aren't meant to destroy this weak heart I have."

Max looked at me with a smile on his face and said "Thank you, Lana. I give you my word."

I got out of the car and walked towards my house. I knew Max had a lot of secrets, but I couldn't help but wonder what the future held for us. But for now she was content to wait for Max to return to her, and to trust in the promise he had made as if he was an important person in my life who has been here with me for years and that it was okay for me to trust him. I felt a connection with him, a long term familiarity, that I couldn't explain.